I was breathing too hard and fast as I held Riley up in front of me.  Her whole body was quivering so much that she would have immediately fallen to the ground if I let her go. I wasn't doing much better. If it weren't for the wall, I would be right down there with her.

What the hell just happened?

Riley snuggled in closer to me and I felt the waves of heat and need starting to build down in my stomach again. I had never felt this kind of unbridled desire to be with someone before. I wanted to kiss her lips the rest of the night and tell her how incredible she was.

Riley had a power over me, unlike any other girl I had ever been with.

I lowered my lips to the spot behind her ear and pressed them against it. That spot was my new favorite obsession because of what it did to her.  Her body shivered in response as I lightly trailed little nips up and down her neck.  Her slight, citrusy scent had me dazed all over again.

My hands roamed on their own over the bare skin on her stomach. I played with the little ties on her side, wanting to unwrap her. She would look so sexy in that little skirt with no panties on underneath. If only I could just get her alone and tug them loose.

As the concert continued on around us, I was lost in her. The shitty band didn't even bother me because I had something more intoxicating keeping my interest.

I heard some guys laughing over to the music next to us. They were gesturing towards Riley. They were making it pretty obvious they had enjoyed what they saw.

My skin began itching and the air around us felt off. When I looked up to figure out what was going on, I noticed all the guys around us doing the same thing. They were glancing back at her like they were expecting me to pass her around so they could have a turn. My expression hardened as I met every set of hungry eyes who stared greedily at the girl in my arms.

The worst part was, it was my fault they were looking at her like she was some cheap disposable toy. I did this to her.

I fucked up when I lost the fight with myself over her.

Everything about the two of us together was wrong. Even if Riley was the kind of girl who understood this was just a random unattached hook-up, I was starting to get confused myself. I was already working through a plan in my head to sneak her into my bed to spend the rest of the night with her.

I was falling deeper for this girl and there was nothing I could do to stop it.

I had to purposefully start distancing myself from her before I made an even bigger mess out of everything. It was the right thing to do before things got strange in the house. It was the only good thing I had going for me right now.

My life was already a clusterfuck of bad decisions. 

I couldn't let her be one of them. 

The lights came up all around us, to my surprise. I hadn't even realized the music stopped playing. It ended way too soon. I was still arguing with my head as my arms stayed locked around Riley in protest. They didn't want me to let her go. If I did, it meant this was finished between us.

I would never be able to have her again.

Riley shifted up off me and lowered the back of her skirt down. As much as it pained me to watch her pull away, I knew I needed to pull myself back to reality and so did she. 

I laid my head back against the wall as I zipped my pants back up. It was a sticky, uncomfortable mess down there. My hand brushed across a damp spot on the front of my jeans. When I looked down, I saw a small, darker circle visible on the outside of my jeans.  

Where it was located didn't make sense to be all me. 

My cock ring pulled a little against the fabric as my dick twitched.

That spot was definitely from her.

"I need to get to a bathroom," Riley announced to me over the noise of the departing crowd.

There was no way I could look at her and be able to stop myself from crashing into her again. I started walking towards the bathrooms without saying anything. I couldn't talk to her because I had absolutely no words. Everything was stuck in the storm cloud of guilt and amplified longing hanging over my head.

I was fucking tongue-tied and stupid from being with her. I didn't know what I was doing. I couldn't even process how I was feeling. The only true emotion I could pluck out of the twisted branches inside my head was regret.

I felt lost and so fucking wrong.

Riley grabbed my arm and spun me around to face her. I looked down at the dark red patches that spread across the flushed skin on her chest. My eyes rose up along her slender neck, where she had a small purplish mark near her ear. 

I had gotten a little too carried away.

The spot looked good on her. I started to raise my finger to trace the edges around the lopsided circle.

"Is there something wrong?" Riley asked me.

"You said you needed to go to the bathroom. I am walking you to the bathroom." I said robotically, looking around everywhere except in her eyes. My head was so foggy and slow that it felt like I had downed a whole bottle of tranks.

My eyes darted from one bar corner to another. There had to be some sort of sign that the rest of the group was looking for us.  Having someone else here to distract me from my thoughts of touching her again. I needed to find a way to tether myself back down.

"Did I do something wrong?" She asked self-consciously.

Why would she think that? Nothing that happened between us was her fault. She didn't do anything wrong. I was the one who screwed up. This wasn't on her; it was on me.

"We're not going to talk about this. I'll take you to the bathroom and we can get the hell out of this place. It's too hot in here." I grumbled as I looked down and met her eyes finally.

Tears were brimming out of the corners.  She turned her head down towards her feet like she was embarrassed.

Fuck, I couldn't do anything right when it came to her. How did I end up tearing apart the sex goddess confidence she had tonight when it wasn't even her I was angry with?

I was mad at myself.

Not only had I manipulated the situation to get Riley here tonight, but I had also put her in harm's way. I selfishly coerced her into performing for me sexually in front of a group of horny men and now she was crying. She wasn't even crying because of what I made her do. She was crying because I don't know how to be normal and have a real conversation like an actual human.

And even though I got off tonight, I felt absolutely no pleasure from any of it. 

I hated myself for what I just did to her.

I hated myself for wanting to do it again.

I caught a glimpse of Aiden's head and looked back up in horror as the whole group headed our way. I couldn't let them see her like this. I was tempted to take her by the hand and run in the opposite direction until she could calm down, but it was too late. They had already spotted us.

Riley wiped at her face quickly as they came closer, trying to hide how upset she was with me.

"Wasn't that the best concert ever?" Anna screeched and wrapped her arms around Riley.

"It was pretty damn good," Riley responded with her cheeks turning bright red as she looked up at me and sniffled.

Aiden reached out his fist to me like we were best friends again. I hesitantly bumped it with the hand that sent Riley over the edge not long ago. If I wasn't so lost in my thoughts, I would have remembered to use the other hand.

"What happened, dude? The mosh pit started and you all disappeared." Aiden inquired.

"Some guy grabbed my arm and pulled me in the pit. Ezra pulled me out." Riley butted in before I could even open my mouth to tell the story.

I was glad she did. I was still not functioning properly.

JD smiled and patted himself on the back for assigning me as her chaperone for the night.  What he didn't know was that I was the one she needed to be saved from. 

"I guess I'm not making you sleep in Mark's room." JD chuckled.

"Why not? I like to cuddle." Mark pouted.

Everyone began laughing, except for me. I didn't feel like laughing. I was the shittiest fucking person that ever existed.

"Are you coming back to the house?" Aiden stepped over to Riley and wrapped his arm around her. She did the same and laid her head on him. I hated watching him near her, but I wasn't in any position to comfort her like she needed.

I couldn't even calm myself down.

"I'm not sure. I didn't pack anything. I hadn't really planned on it." She said softly as she looked up at me through her eyelashes.

"We can scrounge some things up for you. You have to come back to the house." Aiden begged her.

"Please." Anna rang out right behind him.

Riley kept staring at me like she wanted me to ask her to come back too.  I wasn't going to. It was a terrible idea for her to come back to the house with my current mood controlling me. And besides that, it wasn't in my nature to say something like that anyway. If I begged her to come back, it would have been a dead giveaway that something wasn't right with me.

"Sure." Riley smiled and leaned into Aiden's body harder.

Aiden began running his hand up and down her waist. He had a dopey grin on his face as he reveled in the opportunity to touch her again. Riley batted her big green eyes at me with a smile forming on her face as he touched her.

She was fucking taunting me and I was walking right into her trap.

This girl was going to be the end of me.