Losing people is never easy, you think it's the end of the world, you think they are okay now, but really that isn't living you have to survive give yourself a chance they will never have that chance.

I held onto Lily between my legs as she rested her head on my chest, Jake held on to Louis and Zoey with his arm around my shoulders, I kept thinking about Casey I couldn't save my only best friend I have ever known, I look in front of me and saw John letting Chelsea give him a check up.

"I'm sorry Rae." I heard Lily say quietly, I petted her hair.

"Shh Silly Lily I'll always forgive you, no matter what, okay baby?"

She sniffed and hugged my waist, "You haven't called me Silly Lily in years." I felt Jake give me a squeeze, I patted his arm I let a small tear escape.

"Oh no." I heard Rick in the front driving the van, it was dark but I could see a fire glowing then I heard the gun shots and the moans.

"Stay here guys." I told them and kicked open the door when I did two walkers tried to grab Chelsea, I felt a sharp pain in my bandaged, uncovered shoulder, I let out a scream one of the walkers have bit it, I pushed my knife clear through it's head and the other one, I quickly grabbed my leather jacket to protect the rest of my uncovered skin and to hide the bit.

When I got to the camper it was over, Rick holding Lori and Carl, Daryl was kneeling over a body which Carol was crying over holding Sophia, I soon saw it was Jim, Andrea was holding her limp sister Amy who Dale was also holding.

"The dead never rest do they? Always causing suffering." I whispered to myself I opened the door to the van as I held my shoulder which was throbbing, it has happened before, last time I cleaned it and bandaged it, just like my face and arm I have only half circular scars.

"Rae did they see you get...?" Jake asked holding me close into his chest, I shook my head I quickly grabbed Zoey and Louis.

"No sweeties don't look not until we clean up, John keep Chelsea in here, Lily watch the little ones for a few, John please follow me with your kit." He nodded and hopped out of the van.

"Jake can you help them?" He nodded and jogged quickly to Rick.

"Come on John." We walked quickly behind a jeep, as I pulled my jacket off, there was a good amount of light from the still glowing fire.

"Rae.....your bit you...you won't survive." He said in disbelief

"Shh shh for some reason I have survived, please just clean it and stitch it up." I said taking off my other bandages for him to see proof, one huge half circle below my eye along with a scar at the bottom of my eyebrow all the way the middle of my cheek, two half circles on my shoulder and three more scattered on my arm.

"Alright but it's going to hurt like nothing else."

"Just do it and get it over with." And so it began, but little did I know there was more pain to come.