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Dean's POV

"SAM! behind you!" I yell as Sam stabs the demon with ruby's knife harshly

"Got him" Sam says heavily breathing

"That's one hella of a stab,Sammy" I say

"Yeah,Lets go" Sam said

We drove back to the motel,getting  back from the vampire hunt.Me and Sam have been getting along with each other pretty well,he has been good, but on the other hand Me and Cas not so good,we been disagreeing on ALOT of things,and arguing about who's right who's wrong.And I hate when we arguing and I also hate how every time see him my heart  just drops and my stomach feels like I have butterflies.I ask my self "Do I love Castiel?".....no! what the hell am I thinking.. it's just probably the energy in the room....yeah the energy. .....yeah no..yeah.. whatever.But right now all I can think of is Cas, I not hungry,sleep,or tired even after that hunt.

"Are you hungry?" Sam asks as we walk to the motel

"No"

"What?! not even for pie?"

"I'm just not hungry right now,Sam"

"Ok whatever,Dean"Sam says as he unlocks the motel door

"I'm going to take a shower,k" Sam said

"Ok"

Sam goes in the shower.I go to the fridge to grab a beer and sit trying to relax,but Cas won't leave my mind.I can't love Cas he would never love me back and you know how hard it is to for in love with someone and they don't love you back,just adds another broken heart to the world.Know that I can't have him hurts...like hell....maybe worst.Worst of all why would he fall in love with a guy especially if that guy was me..who would want me or be apart of this life I have,all I know is an Angel beautiful as Castiel wouldn't love me.I look over to the side to see on the dresser a note book and a pencil I think' sure,hell why not' and I start to write

"I'm in love with Angel heaven forbid
Make me a believer with a touch of his skin
I go to hell and back with you stay lost in what we found
worlds apart we were the same until we hit the ground
Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe I'm weak
Maybe I'm blinded of what I see
you wanted a soldier but it's wasn't me
cause I could never set you free So fly on your own
It’s time I let you go
Go

I’m in love with an angel who’s afraid of the light
His halo is broken but there's fight in his eyes

Walls are built to keep us safe
Until they’re crashing down
Worlds apart we were the same
Until you hit the ground Maybe I’m crazy, maybe I’m weak
Maybe I’m blinded by what I see
You wanted a soldier but it wasn't me
'Cause I could never set you free

So fly on your own
It’s time I let you go
Go

Walls are built to keep us safe
Until they’re crashing down
Worlds apart we were the same
Until you hit the ground

Maybe I’m crazy, maybe I’m weak
Maybe I’m blinded by what I see
You wanted a soldier but it wasn't me
'Cause I could never set you free

So fly on your own
It’s time I let you go

So fly on your own
It’s time I let you go
Go"

As I was finishing writing Sam gets out of the bathroom,I quickly turn them over and go back to my beer.

"hey"Sam said

"Hey"

"So what you be up to"

"Just relaxing and drinking beer" I say as I lift my beer in air showing Sam

"Ok cool well I'm going to the store,so you need anything?"

"umm...I guess just some pie and more beer" I said faking a smile

"of course" Sam mumbled

"what was that?"

"oh I said got it"

"awesome k,bye"

"um..bye" Sam said leaving the motel with a confused face.

"Damn that was close" I mumbled.I thought to myself 'damn I need a shower' so I head to the bathroom and turn on the shower.After 15 I was done I head out of the bathroom shirtless and just a pair of pants on and as I walk out...I see...Castiel sitting where I was sitting.He had the note book I had earlier.He had his elbow resting on the dresser with his hand on his mouth really focusing on it like was a secret code he was trying to figure out.When I saw him...damn it...my heart dropped ..butterflies in my stomach...but shit worst of all he read what I wrote.....I'm a deadman 

He looked up ...Looking at my shirtless body head to toe the we just started at each other  for about 3min.I had goose bumps like crazy.It was dead silence until Cas spoke up

"Hello,Dean"

"um..hi" I say as I walk to my bag of weapons to clean my gun before Cas spoke up again

"Dean"

"yeah"

"did you write this"Cas asked....'damn...what do I say think Dean think he cannot know I wrote that but I don't want to lie to him....ok I just have to say no, if I tell him he would hate me ok here I go'

"umm.....yes..." I mumble

"is it about me?"

I'm Fucked

"ummm...."I just froze I'm sitting on the bed shirtless by the weapons bag thinking' what do I do now?'

"Dean" Cas says as he walks over to me and sits right next to me and he put an arm around me

"I know we have been arguing a lot and not getting along....I'm just..."

"Just what?"I softly whispered

"I-I get weird feelings......when I'm around you and....I don't know how to control them or deal with them....so I just disagree with you and I think...I..might...be in...love with...you"

I just couldn't believe what I just heard ,he loves me!? holy hell...I'm just so shocked I still don't say anything

"Dean?do you love me"Cas ask in a raspy soft voice

"I-I-I did write it about you.....I mean I couldn't really do anything els,I just thought who would love me for who I am and what I do"

"what you do is save people,that something amazing and very loveable thing,Dean"

after Cas said that we just that there about 10min not saying anything and I'm still shirtless hunched over with my elbows near the top of knees and each hand on both sides of my jaw,just starring at the wooden floor,Cas still has his arm around me sitting and I think he's starring at the wall.So I decide to look at him and at the exact time he did the same.I looked into his deep blue magical gorgeous eyes (A/N I just imagine that........I died),it send me goosebumps all over my body.I speak up

"I Love you,Castiel"

a whole girn grew across his face and he just looked at me like the happiest little thing in the world.

"Well,Dean, I guess I should be going, let you get some rest" Cas says as he gets up and walks away

"Cas!wait!" I say as I shot up and quickly walk over to him and I wrap my arms around him to pull him in for a tight hug.We just sit there for about 2min before we release

"Bye,Cas"

"Bye,Dean"

after that I finishing cleaning my gun and put on a shirt and I feel so much better that I got all that off my chest.I feel better than ever,then Sam walks in

"Umm... Dean don't get mad they had no...beer or...pie"Sam says with a worried face like I'm about to go off

"ok awesome"

"look Dean I'm sorry I really begged an- wait what?"

"It's ok Sammy,I'll be good"

"really?!"

"yes really,now I'm going to bed,goodnight Sam" I lightly chuckled

"ummm...ok goodnight Dean" Sam says still confused

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a/n I'm new at this and I suck really bad I'm sorry if it was boring,weird,stupid,etc...

btw case you didn't know what Dean wrote about Cas is a song, Angel by theory of a deadman...so...yeah