Eventually, Sam was forced to tear Dean away from Cas' cold, dead, body. Gripping his brother's shoulders and pulling him into a deep hug even as Dean tried to push him away frantically.

"Sam! No! NO!" Dean broke into a fit of sobs, Sam kept Dean pressed tight to his body, hugging his big brother like his life depended on it.

"We need to burn his body...It's been two days, Dean." Sam said in a soft voice, prepared for Dean's exsplosion of hurt and anger.

"I won't burn him Sam! I won't do it! He is alive! He will come back! He will need his body! Cas is just sleeping...He is asleep...He will wake up..." Dean swiftly moved from anger to sadness.

He tried to get back to Cas' body but Sam didn't let him.

"Please.." Dean croaked out brokenly.

"Dean..you need to be strong. You need to do that for your daughter. For me. She needs you. I need you." Sam whispered, looking into Dean's tear filled eyes.

"This shouldn't happen! I wish she would have never even existed!" Dean spat out. "Then Cas would be here with me! That thing killed Cas! I have nothing to do with it!" Dean swiped the lamp off the table, watching as it broke into millions of little pieces.

Dean heard the distant sound of the baby crying in the other room.

"Dean! Don't say that! She is a miracle given to you!" Sam was in shock.

"Oh a miracle you say? Than what will this "miracle" will do when I blow her brains out?!" Dean took out his gun and started rushing to where the baby was. Sam screaming after him and running to the baby.

When Dean opened the rooms door, his gun pointed forward he opened his mouth in shock and felt Sam slam into his back at a running pace, causing him to stumble forward.

The room was completely empty.

"But..But she was here." Sam stuttered out, looking all around.

"What the fuck?" Dean muttered out in shock and sadness. Briefly having hope that this was all just a dream, a very bad dream.

Both of there eyes snapped to the door when a small noise was heard where they left Cas' body.

Dean ran back with Sam at his back and stopped in his tracks at the sight, his eyes wide and his mouth open.

The baby was lying close to Cas' chest.

Her eyes were close.

Her skin looked so pink against Cas' pale white skin.

Dean broke into sobs and kneeled down next to them.

He hugged both of them like his life depended on it. Letting his tears run free.

"I'm so so sorry... I shouldn't say these mean things about you... Cas did everything to protect you... I should do the same." Dean took the baby into his arms for the first time.

The little girl opened her wide eyes at him.

Her eyes were shining bright with green streaks swimming into blue.

Dean lost his breath looking into her beautiful eyes.

The baby girl looked deep in his eyes.

The pain started to dim.

Dean felt a complete love against this perfect little girl.

"So beautiful." Dean whispered.

Her eyes shined with happiness.

Dean laid down and placed a soft kiss to the little ones forehead.

"Your daddy was amazing, angel. But I think you already know it. I wish I could turn back time and live these three months together with you two. Maybe then he would still be alive." Dean couldn't look away from these beautiful shining eyes even as his voice broke.

He didn't know how long he laid dawn against Cas, holding their baby girl between them looking into her eyes.

Sam's voice snapped him back to reality and out of his daze  towards his and Cas' daughter.

"Dean, will you feed her?" Sam held a baby bottle out for Dean.

"Let's feed you my beauty." Dean took the bottle and gave it carefully to his baby girl.

She started to eat in slow motion and closed her eyes.

Dean watched his daughter eat.

"After she will fall asleep." Dean said to Sam and his little brother didn't need to ask what he was talking about.

Sam nodded and went to prepare everything.

The baby drank all the bottle and fell asleep between Dean and Cas.

Hot and cold.

Dean carefully got up and put the baby girl in his bed.

He went back to Cas.

He slowly took him into his strong arms and went outside.

He tried to stay strong, refusing to let anymore tears fall.

He opened his lighter and looked into the small flames.

One hot tear ran down his cheek.

He put the lighter against wood.

Flames licked their way up, leaving black marks.

Flames started to engorge around Cas' body.

Dean felt his heart break more and more.

The handprint on his shoulder started to burn.

Dean put his hand against it and let the tears stream down his cheeks.

He closed his eyes only for a second when he felt weight being put into his arms.

He looked down to see the baby lying in his arms, looking on Cas' burning body.

Deans put the baby against his chest, forcing her eyes away from her dead father.

"This isn't the best way to creat memories." Dean shook his head, putting his cheek against her head.

His daughter let out a soft cry. Tears going to her green and blue eyes.

"Shh...I will take care of you." Dean whispered to her. "I'll never leave you. I'll always protect you..I promise, honey."

Dean stayed out until all was burned down to ashes.

He held his baby close to his chest.

"We need to take long shower. Shower for me and bath for you." Dean went inside.

His baby gripped a hand full of his hair.

"It's okay baby, you can let go of my hair." A small smile crossed Dean's lip.

"Give her to me and go take a shower. You need it." Sam streched out his arms with a small smile but Dean saw the pain and the tears in his brother's eyes.

Dean put the baby in his arms and kissed her forehead.

"I will be back baby. And then we will go to sleep." Dean said in a tired voice and went to shower.

The hot water washed away his numb, dirty feeling skin.

"I will stay strong for our daughter... I will try to be strong for her..." Dean let out a long, labored breath.

His shower was brief, he got out and got dressed in a rush. Brushing his teeth before making his way to Sam and his daughter.

Sam was changing her into new clothes.

Warm light green made her eyes shine even more.

Dean took her into his arms and hugged her little body.

He closed his eyes, enjoying her body heat.

Dean open his eyes when his stomach suddenly growled, it remind to him that he hadn't eaten in the last days.

"Dad feels hungry. Will you let me eat before we go sleep?" Dean looked down at her.

Her eyes met with Dea'ns and he was lost.

He didn't broke eye contact all the time while he ate.

He laid her down on his bed, holding his baby close to his chest.

His little girl yawned, making Dean yawn.

They closed there eyes together.

Sleep was right there to take over them.

"Dean, baby." Castiel's soft voice whispered in Dean's ear.

Dean opened his eyes and saw Cas standing in front of him.

"Cas!" Dean sat up, alarmed.

He immediately hugged him tight to his chest and kissed him deeply.

Cas let out a soft laugh.

"Calm down tiger, I need to tell you some important things." Cas held Dean in his arms, smiling softly.

"One more kiss. I miss you so much." Dean kissed Cas one more time.

"Listen to me, Dean." Cas said seriously, looking into his eyes.

"I'm listening." Dean said.

"Her name is Charlie. I named her Charlie in the moment I first saw her. She is really powerfull. She will help you. But you need to take care of her. Please don't let her down." Cas demanded, his face strict and serious."

"I will Cas. God believe me, I will." Dean nodded and then looked sad. "Can't you stay? Come home to us."

"I can't, Dean. It was my time to go. I raplaced my life with a new living girl. Let her live. Love her. Take care of her. Teach her how to be a good human." Cas placed a soft kiss against his forehead.

I closed my eyes, feeling tears breaking their way out of my closed eyelids.

Dean's eyes snapped open and suddenly he was back in his cold room. He sat up, his eyes searching the bedroom desperetly but found Cas nowhere to be seen.

He felt hot tears running down his ice cold cheeks.

A soft crying brought him back to reality and made him understand that it was only dream.

Just a dream.

He looked over his shoulder to see his crying angel.

"No, no, no. Please don't cry." Dean took the baby into his arms, rocking her back and forth.

She stopped crying and looked into Dean's eyes.

Seeing his daughter's eyes wet with tears caused a sob to rip through his body.

"I will take good care of you my beautiful Charlie." Dean declared well he kissed her forehead.

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"Cas... It's been three months. Three months without you. It's hard you know. Our daughter is beautiful. She doesn't cry much. But when she does it breaks my heart. I don't know what is happening to me. One moment I feel broken but in the next I feel no pain. Charlie has beautiful eyes.

I haven't seen you in any dream sense that night.

Sam is worried.

But he is happy that I don't drink and am taking care of Charlie.

It's really hard to be strong.

I miss you so much.

Every night I look at the stars, wishing you would come back.

You said that Charlie is powerful,well all I have to say about being powerful is that she can cry so loud that I'm pretty sure Hell can hear it. And that she drinks her bottle like her life depended on it.

She seems like a normal human to me.

But she will never be just a human.

Because her father is... Was an Angel of the lord.

I miss you Cas...

I pray to you every night.

I love you my Angel.

I will never forget you."

I whispered out these words before closing my eyes, letting sleep take over me.

I felt little hands gripping my finger and bringing it to a warm little mouth.

"Just don't bite 'em off." I laughed and let my little girl suck my finger for better sleep.

Charlie's cries woke me up.

"What is it this time?" I rolled over to face her with a fond, tired smile.

Angelic eyes met my tired ones.

Her eyes looked so sad.

"No, no, no. Don't look at me with that sad look." I took her into my arms.

She cried out once more.

It sounded like she was.. in pain.

And she was so hot. Burning hot.

"Sammy!" I screamed at the top of my lungs. "SAM!"

"Everything' gonna be alright." I got out of bed and wrapped her in a small fluffy white blanket.

She stopped crying for a moment but then started again with more force.

Sam, his hair messy and his eyes wide open rushed into the room, a worried look on his face.

"She's burning hot! And she's in pain! I need to get her to hospital!" I was close to panic.

"Let me see her." Sam tried to take her her but I hit his arms away in protective mode.

"Calm down, Dean. You know I would never hurt her-"

"I don't want to let her out of my hands. You drive." I ran to the Impala.

"Everything is gonna be alright. Daddy will take care of you." I kissed her teary cheeks.

Sam started to drive and music started playing.

Charlie stopped crying.

Sam leaned forward to shut if off but I stopped her.

"Leave it. It calms her down." I rocked her softly in my arms and sand along softly to her.

She looked deep into my worried eyes, calming me down.

Her hands grip my finger tightly and brought it to her mouth. Her mouth was burning hot but I let her suck it.

"We're almost here. How is she?" Sam asked without taking his eyes off road.

"She's calming down and sucking my finger. Her mouth is burning hot Sam. I don't think it's good." I didn't take my eyes off of my little girl.

"Dean, we're here." Sam got out quickly, opening my door for me.

I rushed inside hospital.

"We need help! My daughter is burning hot and she's in pain. I can see it in her eyes." I said to the first doctor that I saw.

"Sir, calm down and follow me" He told me and led me to a small room.

"Put her on here please." The doctor said well she took out everything she needed.

"I don't think that's a good idea. Can't you do it all while I hold her?" I said and protectively held her to my chest.

She let out a soft pleased noise.

The Doctor saw the worry in my eyes and let me hold my baby girl.

After about an hour of hearing my baby cry out in pains, we were lying in some hospital bed, my baby connected to some systems.

I held her close to my ches,t watching her sleep.

"I wont let anything happen to you, Angel." I said and kissed her forehead.

I spent all night looking over her.

In the morning I finally let sleep take over me.

Sam's voice wake me up.

"I brought you coffee and breakfast." He gave me it all.

"Thanks Sammy." I drink almost half of the coffee with my first gulp.

"How is she?" Sam looked down at Charlie.

"Feelin' better. No more high temperature. And I hope no more pains. Doctor said it's because her teeth are coming out. And that it's normal but we should stay here for one more day just because she reacted worse then other kids at her age do when there teeth come in." I started to eat.

Again, I started feeling calmer.

"That's good, Dean. So good. She scared me last night." Sam sat down, lightly brushing Charlie's hand with a sigh of relief.

He saw my dead glare and took his hand off of her.

"Sorry." Sam muttered with a bit of hurt in his voice that made me feel guilt. "You are little too protective over her, Dean. She won't break if someone touches her."

I know..I'm just scared." I said honestly.

Soft baby sounds grasped my attention.

"My baby girl is waking up." I smiled and leaned in to kiss her head gently.

Charlie opened her eyes and they again, were shining as always.

She yawned and looked over at my burger.

I let out a laugh.

"No baby. Burger is for your daddy. The Doc brought you a bottle." I took out her bottle and fed her.

She looked bored but started drinking it.

"Am I going crazy or did she just give me the 'Oh crap, not milk again' look?" I asked Sam with a snort.

He laughed. "I think she has some sass in her."

"Oh how I love you my sweet little bumble bee." I kissed both of her cheeks, smiling. She giggled, spilling some milk.

"Let her eat in peace, Dean." Sam rolled his eyes but had a fond smile on his lips.

The Doctor knocked before walking in.

"Good morning! How are we feeling this morning?" She looked to Charlie. "She seems perfectly fine, like nothing happened. I think I'll let you guys go home. It will be better for her." The doctor smiled and I shot her a grateful look.

"You hear that? We're going back home." I singsonged to her. "We're going-"

She put her little hand over my mouth and smiled.

"I think that's her way of shutting you the hell up." Sam burst into a fit of manic laughter.

"Yeah she did." I laughed and slowly made our way out of the hospital and to the Impala.

I put her in the baby seat next to me.

"Sorry, Sammy. You need to stay in the back." I ignored his glare and started driving.

Charlie loved to drive fast.

We were home really soon and I put her too bed after her second yawn.

I sat down and started to write again.

I write every day too Cas.

"Castiel, last night was awful. I was scared. She was sick. But now everything is fine. We are back home.

She really loves to drive fast.

She always watches out the window at how fast the trees are passing by.

I love to just sit and watch her.

She is getting more beautiful with every day.

And with every day she is looking more and more like you.

It breaks me how much she already reminds me of her, but in a way I love her even more for it.

I started to think that her power is to take the pain away, to make people feel calm. Better.

Do you think she has wings?

But wait, I think she does 'cause in the second day she teleported back to you.

I bet her wings are just as beautiful as yours.

I remember how we first met.

You showed your beautiful wings so I would believe you when you told me you were an Angel.

I think you had the most beautiful wings of all the angels.

I miss you, Cas.

And I don't think that there will be day when I won't miss you.

You are just a big part of my life that can't be forgotten.

I wish you could see how beautiful she is.

Her eyes are like you and mine together."

Soft baby cries made me stop writing for a moment.

"Sorry Angel, I need to go. Our daughter is crying for me.

Charlie and I love and miss you Cas."

I ran to Charlie and took her into my arms.

"I miss Castiel." I froze in place, hearing a soft Castiel like voice inside my head.

I looked down to Charlie and she smiled.

She pulled my finger inside her mouth and closed her eyes, pleased with herself.

I smiled so big.

"My baby girl is talking to me." I whispered, grinning down proudly at her.



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