Imagine: dean trying to comfort you while your dying

Triggers: blood, swearing, death, pain

Deans POV:
Shit, oh god no.
I froze mid-step as the vampire tore out (Y/N)'s throat,like a dog going for a juicy bone, Their eyes met mine as blood continued to drip out of there mouth and continued to pour out of their neck. The vamp smirked against their neck and pushed them onto the floor.

I couldn't move I stared wide-eyed as the vamp ran out of the barn, I was brought back to reality by (Y/N) coughing up a scary amount of blood. I ran over to them and fell to the floor gripping onto their shivering body.

"Your gonna be ok kid jus-just breath" my voice got smaller at the end, I don't know who I was trying to convince me or them but I could tell by the fear in their eyes that either way it wasn't working..." common kid you gotta keep your eyes open I-I'll call sam he c-can help, please" I reached down to grab my phone to call Sam, who was on a separate hunt in Tennessee. (Y/N)'s cold hand gripped onto my wrist in a firm hold, I looked up in shock as they studied my face carefully, tears were streaming down my face as a brushed away the hair that had stuck to there face during the fight. They looked me in the eyes and said "there's no point" I shook my head not wanting to believe it.

We sat there in silence for a moment. (Y/N)'s eyes wandered around the room as they spoke "d-dean?" I looked down at the child I had raised "yeah kid, what's up?" I replied softly "am I going to hell?" They looked at me with an urgent look on there face " what, no never" in all honesty I didn't know but I wasn't about to tell them that. I pull them closer to my chest and whisper "I'm so sorry I wasn't there" I don't think they heard me because all they replied with was "dean-o i-I'm tie-tired" I hung my head and my tears fell onto there cheeks.

I knew what that meant, I hated it but I knew. I opened my eyes and looked around the room trying to find another option, any option really but after finding none I kissed there forehead and mumbled "ok it's ok kiddo just sleep.I'll be here"
They nodded there head slowly as there breathing slowed and their eyes glazed over.

I continued to study there bloody face I brought their head to my chest and held them as close as I could. I stayed there for what felt like an eternity but finally, I picked them up and carried there limp body to baby I placed them in the backseat I give them a final kiss on the head before I got up and drove back to the bucker with only one question on my mind

"Why?"