My first oneshot request for this book! Yay! This is for Liligoro!

Character: Dean Winchester

Type: Dean x reader

Warnings: some swearing (maybe?), sad ending

Takes place right after Sam goes to hell the first time.

Word count: 784
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"You can't keep doing this Dean!"
Exasperation washes over you as you wake up to see Dean searching for demonic activity again.

"Mhm?" He barely glances your way as he takes a swig of whiskey and scribbles an address on the hotel notepad.

"Dean!" You swing your legs out from under the covers and yawn as you walk over to him.

"Dean you need rest. We'll find Sam, ok?"

Dean brushes you off as he stands up to grab his keys to baby.
"I have work to do. I don't have time to rest."

You watch in disappointment and annoyance as he leaves the motel room and you hear the purr of baby's engion as he tears out of the parking lot towards god-knows-where.

You flop back down onto the bed, and close your eyes.

I'm losing him..
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(Next day)
"Dean?"
When you wake up, Dean still isn't home. And with a heavy feeling in your chest, you walk over to the pad of paper and grab a pen.

Dean.
I never thought that I would have to write this, but with how things have been going lately, I guess I don't really have a choice.
You obviously don't have the time to deal with me. And I'm probably just weighing you down.
I guess the only person you can really care  about is Sam.
Maybe we'll see eachother again.
Good luck finding him.
Goodbye Dean.
                                                 -Y/n

Silent tears trickle down your cheeks as you leave the note on his pillow, and grab your bag.

"I'm sorry Dean..."

You close the door behind yourself, leaving your note, and the motel room behind as you as you start to walk to a car dealer.
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(Three months later)
A sigh escapes your lips as you sit on the hood of your car.
Thoughts of Dean have been circling your brain every day for the past three months. Making it imposssible for you to focus on your job.

"Y/n?" A familiar voice cuts throught the silence, and you jump off the car fearfully.

"Dean." You keep your voice level as you refuse to meet his eyes.

"Dean? Who's this?" A pretty brunette laces her fingers with his as his facial expression drops in sadness and guilt.

"No one important." You mentally plan out the quickest way to get into your car before Dean can reach you, and you flinch back as he takes a step forwards.

"Lisa.. this is Y/n." His voice is quiet and heartbroken as he lets go of the brunette's hand.

Understanding flits over Lisa's face, and she steps back.
"In that case, I'll give the two of you some time to talk." She looks down awkwardly as Dean opens and shuts his mouth slowly like a fish

"No need." You have to force your voice to be sturdy and your lips to not tremble, because you're seconds away from crying into Dean's arms.
"I'm leaving anyways."

"Y/n! Wait please!" His voice is rough and pained as he lunges towards you, and you hold yourself still as he approches.

"Please don't go..?" His candy-apple green eyes seem to stare into your soul as your lower lip trembles.

"I can't stay. "

His mouth opens, but before he has the chance to speak, you whirl around to open your car door.

"Why did you leave Y/n?! Why?" His voice breaks and his tough exterior fades as he tries to grab your arm.

"Because you're always chosing him over me! Every damn time! He told you not to go after him but you did! You left me alone every night. I cried myself to sleep because I knew I was losing you!
I left because I knew it would be better for you. So you could choose him for the rest of your life without guilt!" You snap as fat, warm tears slide down your cheeks and you successfully open the door as his hand meets your upper arm.

"Y/n I-"

"No! Stop. Just please stop. Don't follow me Dean. Just carry on your life with Lisa." The tears race down your cheeks as you hold back sobs.

"Y/n wa-!" You slam the door hard as you key the engine and press hard on the peddle.

'Goodbye Dean Winchester'

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Sorry this is so late. I went away during the weekend and then I've had a boatload of tests to study for this week.
Anyways, I hope you like it Liligoro!