"I look at you, and I just love you, and it terrifies me. It terrifies me what I would do for you."
{unknown}

//

"WHAT'S WRONG?" I yelled out impatiently while holding on tightly to Dally's arm.

"Ponyboy slipped into a coma. I'm so sorry." The doctor apoligized with a sad look on his face.

I felt a spark of hope. "He has a chance of waking up though, right?"

The doctor was silent for a moment. "It will be near impossible for him to wake up. I'm terribly sorry. You may all go see him now. One at a time please."

I felt like my heart was crushing more by the minute.

"Oh, and there is still a chance he can hear you. So, be as happy and as positive as possible! If he believes everything is fine and he can wake up, his body will gain enough strength and hopefully wake up. So, act like I didn't tell you it was impossible." The doctor explained as we all nodded.

"Kieran, you go first. You've been with Pony the most out of all of us." Darry spoke, his voice weak from crying so much.

I shook my head repeatedly. "No, you two are his brothers. You go first."

Soda laughed and ruffled my hair that was caked in blood. It wasn't a pretty sight. "Ki, just go ahead and go in there. He's waiting for you."

I took a deep breath and nodded, walking towards Pony's room. When I saw his body laying there, lifeless, I had to hold back my urge to cry.

Be positive. Don't cry. Be strong. For Pony.

I sat in the chair beside his bed and took his gentle hand in mine. I chuckled out loud. "Pony, it's Kieran. It looks like you're the one that's in a coma now. I remember when I was here. I know you can hear me because when I was in my coma, I could hear you." I took a deep breath before continuing.

"Your voice got me out of my coma." I choked out the words.

"So," I took a deep breath, "I want to do the same thing for you. Ponyboy Michael Curtis, I love you so much with all of my heart. I remember when we were looking for the letter in the park. You were in the water fountain while I was sitting on the bench with Johnny and Dally. They asked me if I loved you. I didn't answer them because I... couldn't. I didn't know why then, but now I do know why."

A smile flew on my face. "I didn't tell them because I wanted to tell you. Just me and you. So, I love you. I love you. I love you. You became my partner in crime over the past few weeks, and I don't think I could've gotten through it without you."

"So, I just want you to know that I was in a bad place, and you helped me. Even if you didn't know what I was talking about, or know someone who's gone through it. You made me not feel alone. 'Cause I know there are people who say all these things don't happen. I know this will all be stories someday and our pictures will become old photographs, but right now, these moments are not stories, this is happening. We are infinite."

audio below of what she basically says, the song goes EXACTLY with Pony and Kieran's relationship. No joke.

If you just want to skip to the song go to 30 seconds

I was in tears by the end and managed to cough out the last few words I had for him. "I know you can get through this coma, Pony. I love you, superhero."

I kissed his forehead and walked out of the room, looking back one more time at him, smiling through tears. Once I walked out, Soda and Darry stood up.

I wiped the tears off of my face. "Go in there and pep talk him. You're his brothers after all."

Darry and Soda grinned at me and walked back to the hospital room. I turned towards the guys. "I need to go take a shower and get all of this blood off my body. I smell like human flesh."

Dally and Johnny stood up with me. "We might as well go with you. We need to take showers also."

I nodded and we walked out of the hospital, to the Curtis's house in complete silence. I don't think we needed to say anything. We just needed to know if our best friend was going to make it.

I hopped in the shower first, my thoughts consuming me. The only thing that was whirling through my mind was whether or not Pony was going to be alright. I need him to be alright. I don't think I can live without him.

I've already lost everything I've loved.

I can't lose him.

It took about an hour to get all of the dried blood off of me, but finally I was clean. I got out of the shower, dried off, and got into sweatpants. I put my wet hair in a messy bun, not caring how I looked at all. Looking in the mirror, I could tell that I didn't look good, but what can you expect from a person who just witnessed someone they love being shot, and finding out one of them is a killer?

It's enough to make a person go mad.

I stepped out of the bathroom, letting Dally and Johnny have their turns. Once we all finished our showers, we just sat in silence in the living room. It was so lifeless in this living room, and it never is. That makes me even more upset.

"Kieran, I really think you should stay here and get some rest." Johnny spoke softly.

I shook my head. "Even if I was here, I couldn't go to sleep. I would stay up all night worrying about him, so either way is not really going to help me."

The phone rang and Dally stood up to answer it.

"Yeah?"

//

Pony

"WE ARE INFINITE." Kieran finished, before kissing me and walking out the hospital room.

I felt so happy I could cry. I can't really do anything though because all I see is just pitch black darkness. That's it. I can't move no matter how much I wanted to.

I heard someone else walk in and heard Darry and Soda's voice. "You know, Pony, Kieran is so worried about you. I don't know if she told you yet, but Bob actually saved you all. Hard to believe right?" Soda started laughing, but it was a sad laugh.

"Well, anyways, Dale is gone now. You and Kieran don't have to worry about him anymore. You're safe. He about killed Kieran, but once Bob shot him from behind, blood went all over Kieran's face. She was scared, from what she told us, and I could tell, but the only thing on her mind was you. We all need you back, Pony. You have to wake up for us." Darry finished Soda's sentence, and I smiled, thankful that they both cared about me so much.

"I think Kieran, Dally, and Johnny went to go to our house to wash all the blood off of them, but once they get back, I'm sure they'll want to talk to you more. We love you, Pony. Don't give up on us." Soda spoke, ruffling my hair.

I felt something hurt. Like I was being shot again, and I started hearing the beeping go crazy in the hospital room. "Get a nurse!" I heard Darry shout, before I blacked out.

//

Kieran

"YEAH?"

Dally's face went pale which made me extremely nervous. "Dally, what's wrong?" I asked, my voice shaking.

Johnny put his arm around me for comfort, and I could tell he was shaking too. Dally hung up the phone and took a deep breath. "He almost died. They did CPR, and luckily he came back. His breathing is very weak though."

I started crying into Johnny's shoulders as Dally patted my back. "C'mon, Kieran. We have to go to the hospital. Maybe you can talk to Pony again and make him feel better."

I nodded and stood up, but felt sick, so I had to sit myself back down again. "Here." Dally spoke, and picked me up, carrying me bridal style.

Once he had me in his arms, him and Johnny ran out the door towards the hospital.

When we arrived, all of the guys stood up immediately. "What's wrong with, Kieran?" I heard Two-Bit ask worriedly.

"She's just too upset." Johnny spoke, sadness laced in his voice.

Dally sat me down in a chair in between Soda and Steve and I laid on both of them. My head on Soda's lap and my legs and feet on Steve's lap. Soda kept running his fingers through my hair, making me start to doze off, and soon enough I found myself falling asleep.

"We have more news on Pony."