"Jake please stop.."

I tried to talk this out with Jake once again, pinuntahan niya ako ng halos 12 am na sa apartment ko.

"C'mon Hannah, this will be quick" he whispered in my ear.

He's currently on top of me, topless.

"Jake ayoko.. please.." naiiyak na ako sa kaba pero hindi nakikinig si Jake.

"Boyfriend mo ako Hannah, ibigay mo na yung gusto ko" mas lalo lang akong natakot sa mga salita niya.

Tinulak ko siya bago tumayo.

"Jake nangako kang irerespeto mo na ako, which is the reason I'm trying to make things work out"

This past week nagstart ulit si Jake touching me where I don't want.

Lagi ko siyang pinipigilan, minsan umaalis nalang ako sa sarili kong apartment para makatakas bago uuwi pag nakaalis na siya.

Siguro swerte lang akong lagi akong nakakaalis sa posisyon na yun, but tonight seems like I'm hopeless.

Wala akong rason na ipapaalam sakanya.

Tumayo rin siya at tumingin sakin ng masama.

"Paano yung gusto ko Hannah?!" napasigaw siya.

"Jake this is not something simple"

Nagulat nalang ako nang lumapit siya sakin at bigla akong sinampal.

"Ano? magrereklamo ka pa?" he smirked.

I held my cheek sa sakit.

"Jake umalis ka na" I tried to sound and look strong baka matakot siyang ituloy ito.

But he hit me again, this time I fell sa floor sa tabi ng kama wincing in pain.

"Tangina Hannah! dalawang taon na tayong magkarelasyon hindi mo pa ako hinahayaang makuha ka!!"

I was already crying when I looked back at him na galit na galit.

"Oo! magkarelasyon tayo Jake! pero wag mo sanang kalimutang napilitan lang kong sagutin ka"

He grabbed my hair before hitting me again.

I can already taste blood, I touched my lip and felt it was busted.

"Wag mo akong sinisimulan Hannah" he firmly said.

"Ano pa bang gusto mo?! you already have me! I left everything for you!! I broke up with Ali para sayo! hindi ko inakalang aabot ka sa ganyan, wala kang kwenta!" he grabbed my face bago nagaakmang sasampalin ako ulit.

"I knew it" he laughed evily.

"Si Ali parin pala ha" he pushed me sa kama.

"Ngayon mo mararamdaman na walang kwenta si Ali kumpara sakin Hannah, ngayong gabi ka tuluyang mapapasakin.." he climbed on top of me again.

I tried fighting back but he was too strong, he ripped my shirt off and tried taking off my shorts.

"Jake tama na! please! parang awa mo na!!" I kicked him but he didn't even twitch.

He was holding my wrists hard na nagmamarka na yung pasa.

"Please.." I was crying so hard hindi na ako makahinga, I'm starting to accept my fate.

Ito ba yung consequence sa ginawa kong pagpili sakanya? I was so stupid, I should've chosen Ali. I knew one day I'll regret everything.

He was already on my breasts when his phone rang loudly.

He stopped before sighing and standing up to answer the call.

"Hello dad?"

Thank God, I was saved again.

Tumakbo ako sa banyo before locking the door to make sure na hindi niya ako masusundan.

I can hear na nagdadabog siya sa kwarto.

"What the hell?! how did it happen?!!" he sounded stressed out.

Only after half an hour that I decided na sumilip sa kwarto, simula nung sumigaw siya sa call I didn't hear anything else.

He was not here already, I sighed in relief before laying down sa kama.

I started crying again. Why is this happening to me? I didn't think na magkakaganto ang lahat.

Where's Ali.. I remembered everything about her, about us. I threw her away, maybe I deserve this.

Now I need her, I was such a coward before.

I cried myself to sleep again, like it's something new.

"Huy gurl, bat parang makapal make up mo ngayon" napansin ni Ella pagupo ko sa tabi niya.

Wala pa yung prof namin at kalahati ng class, maaga kasi talaga kami pumasok ni Ella, si Keily lang naman palaging late.

"Huh? uhh.. may bago kasi akong cream baka mukha lang makapal" pagrarason ko.

"Ah ganon? tatanungin ko sana pero di pala tayo pareho ng shade hahaha" she laughed bago bumalik sa pagbabasa ng notes niya.

Nakahinga ako ulit, akala ko mahuhuli niya na.

I really did my make up twice as thick today, medyo malaki kasi yung pasa na nakuha ko from last night's fight with Jake.

Halata pa kasi sa may left cheek lang nakaplasta.

I suddenly looked sa may right wing ng room and saw Lance na nakatingin sa direksyon namin ni Ella.

He quickly looked away when our eyes met so I just shrugged it off, maaga rin pala siya, pag di galing ng US hahaha.

The day went by quickly, it was already our last class when Jake called.

I declined the call before writing again. He'd probably apologize like last time, I don't want to hear from him muna.

I got out of the building with Ella and Keily when I saw Jake's car sa tapat, I stopped in my tracks.

"Oh, bakit ka tumigil jan?" tanong ni Ella when they're already two steps ahead of me.

"Gaga ayun si Jake oh" tinuro ni Keily si Jake na nakaupo pala sa bench and immediately stood up to walk towards us nung makita niya ako.

"Uhm.. hello" bati niya sakanila.

"Hi" I know Keily, that smile was fake and Ella did not even try to look at him.

"Una na den kami ah" Ella said before pulling Keily with her at umalis.

I can't blame her when she acts like that pag nakikita niya si Jake or pag naaalala niyang kami parin, I hurt them too nung ginawa ko yun kay Ali.

I just sighed before walking, nilampasan ko si Jake.

"Babe magusap naman tayo oh.." hindi ako tumigil sa paglalakad kaya hinahabol lang niya ako.

"Babe sorry na" he apologized but I just rolled my eyes.

"Babe sige na sorry na, tumakas lang ako kay dad" he reasoned, I stopped walking before looking at him.

"So? hindi ko na problema yun Jake, you were about to rape me last night tapos magsosorry ka lang akala mo okay na?" galit kong tanong.

"E ano bang gusto mong gawin ko?" he sounded sorry but still agitated.

Hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko, I want him to leave, to let me be.

Gusto ko mawala na siya sa buhay ko, sa buhay namin, it's all I ever wanted ever since he came.

But it's too late isn't it, I already lost everything. He already destroyed everything around me, all I have is myself now, I can't lose me too.

"I want us to break up Jake" I said with all courage.

He just laughed bitterly after realizing what I just said.

"C'mon babe, that's not true, that's not what you want" he said with all confidence.

Huminga akong malalim and looked him in the eye.

"Let me go Jake"

I saw a glint of confusion in his eyes but then got covered by rage.

He grabbed my wrist before pulling me with him papunta sa sasakyan.

I can already feel na may mga tumitingin samin sa paligid, hiyang hiya ako sa nangyayari.

"Jake bitawan mo ako nasasaktan ako" I tried pulling my hand away from him pero hindi siya bumibitaw.

Malapit na kami sa kotse when someone blocked his way.

"Anong problema mo pare, umalis ka sa dinadaanan ko" he said firmly.

"No." it's Lance, in his black sweatshirt and fit denim pants, paired with a silver watch.

Hindi ito yung gamit niya kanina sa klase ah, ambilis naman niya magbihis.

"Gago ka ba? anong problema mo?!" Jake was ready to throw a punch.

"You" Lance shortly answered.

He held my other left wrist before grabbing Jake's hand and removing my right wrist from his hold.

He moved swiftly na hindi nakalaban si Jake at nabitawan niya ako.

"Tangina!" Jake pushed his right shoulder but he didn't fight back, still holding my wrist gently.

"Sino ka ba ha?!" Jake pushed him again but this time umilag siya.

"I already called the guards, so if you want to get away, better do it now" he threatened Jake.

Jake just scoffed.

"I'm not bluffing, a guy to a guy, kahit manyak ka, I'm giving you a minute to escape, you won't want to be popular this way in your alma mater" Lance was serious, his voice was low and full of superiority.

Tumingin sakin si Jake, he looked pissed and dangerous.

He pushed Lance once more before he got in his car at nagpatakbo ng mabilis.

I was stunned sa nangyari, how did Lance even appear sa scene kanina, sobrang bilis ng lahat.

He looked at me with raised eyebrows.

"That's your boyfriend?!" iritado niyang tanong.

Nagulat ako sa boses niya, completely different from his voice kanina nung kausap niya si Jake.

"Uhm, uh.." I stuttered while looking at him. Medyo awkward nga kasi matangkad talaga siya kumpara sakin.

"You know what miss? break up with him, tch tch" he said before letting go of my hand ang started walking away.

"I think I just did.." bulong ko sa hangin.

Hindi ako nakagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko, I looked for a nearby bench para maupo.

"What the hell was that.." I was left surprised, everybody else was just watching, but Lance.. he stood up for what he saw not thinking if he misjudged it.

I kept thinking of it until night time. Tapos na akong kumain at wala namang gagawing school works kaya I decided na ivideo chat si Bri.

"Bri!" I waved sa camera.

"Oh bakit?" walang gana niyang sagot.

"Grabe naman, it's just that I can't sleep" I reasoned.

"Well I can, bye" she shortly answered.

"Hoy! umaga nga jan e! di mo ko maloloko no, nagaaral na ako" I retorded before laughing at her.

She smiled.

"Right, so what is it Soph?"

"Wala nga, mangangamusta lang" I answered.

"I'm fine thank you, okay na?" pagbibiro niya ulit, some things never change nga talaga.

Natawa lang ako sa mga sagot niya.

"Saglit nga may kukunin lang ako" I reached for my earphone sa may right side table habang nakaharap parin sakin yung phone.

"Magearphone lang ako para marinig kita ng maayos" I told her before putting it on both my ears.

When I got back sa phone, Bri was looking serious.

"Oh bakit naman ganyan itsura mo?" pagpuna ko.

"What happened Sophia?" she seriously asked.

I was confused with her sudden mood change.

"Huy, what do you mean?" I laughed nervously knowing Bri.

"Bakit may pasa ka?"

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uwu :<