Sun Saiyaan

"Another story that's sad and true, I can feel the pain, can you?"

- ROSÉ -

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Chapter Two

Parvati walked out from her house and into the joyful atmosphere, blinking at Swara and Lakshya who were taking blessings from their elders with a huge smile over their faces, 'after ruining my Laado's happiness, how can you two smile?' She thought to herself, eyeing them with bitterness.

She burned with anger within whilst watching the two who snatched her beloved granddaughters happiness, leaving her broken and devastated. She had never accepted Swara as a part of her family to begin with, her facade of acceptance was merely on the wish of Ragini and Shekhar, otherwise Parvati being Parvati would've died than letting Swara and Sharmishta in her house and in their lives. Her sternness melted in front of the cries and requests of Ragini.

"Maa. . ." Parvati cocked her head to the side the voice was coming from. "Is Ragini awake?" Her expressions remain bland and bitter as Sharmishta stood in front of her.

"Yes. She's awake." Parvati replied and exhaled slowly, "but she's not coming down." She further added and Sharmishta creased her forehead, "why? Is she not feeling well?" She asked concernedly and Parvati nodded her head positively, replying to Sharmishta's question "and there is no point in her getting changed now, the wedding is over and Swara will leave soon."

Sharmishta released a tensed sigh, "I'll go and check up on her." Before Sharmishta could even move her foot in the direction of their house, Parvati shook her head negatively and cleared her throat, "no!"

Sharmishta flapped her confused eyes at Parvati, who softened her tone a little, "I think it's better to go up with Swara and Lakshya. They can meet her before they leave and she can also congratulate them that way."

"True, Shona can meet Ragini and Ragini won't feel bad about not being able to bid her off either." Sharmishta agreed to Parvati's decision, "I'll go and talk to Swara."

"Why? Won't she come here to take my blessings?"

"Hmm?"

"We will wait for her here, she'll come to take my blessings anyways, unless she doesn't want to."

"No Maa, Shona will come. You're right, we will wait for her here."

"Hmm." Parvati hummed and turned her head the other way, glancing at Swara and Lakshya who were still taking blessings from elders.

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"Everything is over. . ." Ragini mumbled to herself, swallowing as she felt her dry throat starting to suffocate her. She let a small cough escape her mouth, but her breathing pattern changed. She slowly exhaled, making a fist and hitting it against her chest.

Having no control over her tears or cries anymore, she closed her eyes as they continued once again. No matter how hard she tried to stop herself, she felt suffocated if she had kept her cries within. She continued hitting her fist against her chest while crying, hating herself this very moment. Her life had no meaning for her anymore, she was nothing but a mere looser right now in her own eyes.

He inhaled, controlling his emotions while staring down at her. Guilt pierced through his heart as if he was being sewed with needle and thread. He swallowed, staying strong and bent down, sitting on his knees while holding her by the shoulders. "Ragini. Calm down."

She opened her red and watery eyes, raising them to meet his. "This is all your fault!" Her breath hitched for a second and she screamed, pushing him as hard as she could. He fell onto the floor, hurting his elbow and she continued screaming amid her cries "you're the reason this happened!" Anger, pain, heartbreak were all just named emotions, she couldn't explain what she was actually feeling. "I hate you!" She further shouted and sobbed, falling onto her knees while moving towards him, starting to hit him.

"Why. . ." She started feeling weak and gave up, "why did you do this?" She cried, feeling her hands starting to pain.

He closed his glistening eyes, swallowing to try and console himself. He sat in front of her properly and opened his eyes, inhaling to control his emotions. All he knew right now was to take care of Ragini and help her understand rather than being angry at her too, he knew that if he spoke to her the same why she was, she wouldn't listen to him. He wanted to talk to her calmly, having a hope in his aching heart.

"I'm sorry." He apologised and she met his eyes again, "I wanted to stop you from doing something you would've regretted for the rest of your life."

"Who are you to make that decision?"

"Lakshya doesn't love you and he will never love you after he found out what you did Ragini. Do you actually think he would like you after finding out you killed Swara?"

Her heart skipped a beat and her sobs became silent, she was shocked by his words. Her mind diverted from him for a second and she lowered her gaze, starting to think. Was she really going to kill her sister for a man that sadly didn't love her at all? The answer was yes, she loathed herself for thinking like this but this was the only choice she had left.

"If you hadn't betrayed me, then I would've never thought of doing something like that. . . You're the reason why I, I nearly. . ." She stopped, loathing herself to infinite. Her heart ached everything she reflected back on her decision of pushing her sister Swara down just so that she could marry Lakshya.

He felt ashamed, embarrassed and guilty. He was indeed the reason why she walked on this painful path of selfishness, evilness and obstruction. A path that encouraged nothing but crossing all limits to obtain what you want, even if it caused harm to the people standing in the way of it. "I'm sorry." He apologised, genuinely feeling bad and guilty, "I'm sorry Ragini, I really am."

She closed her eyes, crying until her heart began to feel cold and numb. "All, I, wanted, was, Lakshya, and, him, to, love, me, was that, too much, to. . .to, ask?"

His eyes glistened. He knew how it felt when the love of your life isn't with you. After loosing Kavita, Sanskaar was scattered similar to how Ragini was which is why he could relate to her. He hated himself to the core for using her love for Lakshya to support him in the battle against his family. She coughed and tried to calm herself down, inching closer to Sanskaar.

"You had promised me Sanskaar. . ." She held his hand, reminding him of the promise he made her and sobbed, trying her best not to cry out loud again. "You said Lakshya would be mine. Why. . . Why is he not mine? Why, is, he, married to, Swara? Why?"

"He was never yours to begin with Ragini." She was disappointed with Sanskaar's response, refusing to believe it, "I could've made him mine but you ruined it!"

"If it wasn't written then it wouldn't have happened." He firmly uttered and she scoffed, wiping her tears while sobbing. "You said we had to write our own destiny if we wanted it to work, so which destiny are you talking about?"

"The destiny that we have no control over." He replied and she emotionlessly blinked at him. "I refuse to take it. . ." She trailed off, and inhaled, clenching her hands. "I don't want to take it!" She added and closed her eyes, exhaling.

All of a sudden, she felt nothing but a void. She couldn't sense anything, or think straight anymore. Her mind was filled with her memories with Lakshya, and her heart felt cold, empty and numb, it was as if her heart had been trapped in a locked room without a key. She opened her eyes and stared into Sanskaar's eyes, he could see the coldness in her eyes and his heart skipped a beat of fear.

"I have nothing to loose or gain anymore. . ." She trailed off and stood up slowly. She was fully on her feet and stumbled but grabbed onto her bed. "I lost my love to my sister. I was about to kill my sister. I disappointed my Daadimaa. . . I don't deserve anyone's love. . . I'm a bad person." She continued and he flapped his confused eyes at her, not sure why she was saying all this.

He stood up too, keeping his eyes glued on Ragini who sniffed. "I don't deserve happiness, I'm a bad person, that's why happiness never comes my way right Sanskaar?" She cocked her head in his direction and he shook his head negatively, "don't think like that Ragini."

"It's true. Everything I wanted I always lost." Her tears seeped down her tears while she stared into space now, "I was never blessed with happiness. . What is happiness Sanskaar? What does it mean to be happy? I feel like. . ." She closed her mouth to avoid crying and closed her eyes for few seconds, inhaling and opening her eyes again, "I feel like I never had the chance to experience happiness. I am really unlucky and cursed!"

He disagreed and shook his head negatively, "stop hurting yourself like this Ragini. Please." She sniffed and wiped her tears, nodding her head at Sanskaar. "I'll stop."

"I have nothing to live for." She uttered and headed towards the window, he was confused at first until he realised what she meant. "I don't want it to pain anymore, neither hurt anyone anymore." She continued and leaned forward, he ran towards her and held her arm, pulling her with all his strength. Her chest hit against his and he stared down at her with anger and disappointment.

"Are you mad?"

"Let me go."

"Please Ragini. Just stop."

"I'm trying to stop, but you're not letting me stop either! What do you want me to do?"

He lost his cool and grit his teeth, "will jumping out of the window end all your problems?"

"Yes! It would!" She shouted, "it would end everyone's problems! If I die then I won't have to be in pain anymore! If I die then Swara and Lakshya would be able to live their lives peacefully because I can't see them happy! I don't want to see them happy, I want to ruin it for them, I want to separate Swara from Lakshya! I want to. . ." She stopped and closed her eyes, starting to sob. "I want to destroy their lives." She honestly spoke and he pulled her into a hug, letting her head rest on his chest and titled his head, trying to stop his tears from rolling down.

'This is all my fault.' He thought to himself, blaming and tormenting his within self. If he had never asked Ragini to join him, would she have been happier? Would she have moved on from just alright and decide to be happy for them? His heart was throbbing with pain and regret. Maybe if he never came back then things would've been much better, he truly carry's the thought that he was nothing but a pain for everyone and shouldn't have returned.

The door creaked open as wide as they could, and Sanskaar moved his head to the direction while Ragini opened her eyes, lifting her head from his chest and tilting it to the side, staring at Parvati, Annapurna, Sharmishta, Swara, Lakshya and Sujata.

T o  B e  C o n t i n u e d

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Done done done done doneeee! I did it guys! I wrote it 🥰 And now it'll be updated for all of you earlier than decided. Thank you so much for showering your love on this story, I actually am really overwhelmed with the amount of support I received. But I cheated 😂 I'm sorryyyyy.

I am not who you think I am. I am who you think I'm not. I asked Fizo for a favour, which was to post the RagSan story that I was going to write on her account for me because I don't really know much RagSan fans and I thought it would be best to post it somewhere where there are RagSan fans who would read, so we did this. Fizo is a well known RagSan writer so I used her account to make this story reach out to all of you. Fizo is not the writer of this story, please don't be mad 🥺 She did post a new story I admit to that, but she didn't write it at all. It was meeee 🙋🏻‍♀️🙋🏻‍♀️

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By- 👹Halo Dayan _Hxl1m4_