I just feel like shit right now. Because I wasn't enough for ao3. And it shouldn't hurt as much as it does but I wish I was better than I am. Because I'm average and I've worked my goddamn ass off and still there are these people the same age as me who are better at writing than I am. And it hurts. And it makes me feel like shit. And I don't know. I just thought I would be better than this y'know?

I'm also really kinda bummed that All Goes To Hell didn't get make comments or anything. And on ao3 even you read just one of those chapters before you got bored. The same thing happened with Folie á Deux. Am I just not enough? Is that it? Maybe you're just busy and I'm overreacting. You only read one chapter of I'm Not Okay. You never even kudosed on cockslut. I'm sorry.

God fuck I'm so sorry I just know I've lost you and last night I broke down and you just told me not to say sorry and I know you're getting tired of my shit and I should probably just stop texting you and find someone else to annoy. Because I don't have anybody that I'm willing to get close to like I was with you.

Because honestly? I feel very fucking alone right now and you're gone. And you meant a ton to me. But I guess it just wasn't supposed to be. Huh?