I feel like I annoy you. Is that why you didn't hold out a conversation? I'm not sure. Maybe I just need to stop clinging to you so much. Maybe I'm just obsessed over you because you've saved my life. I know you'll never read this. You're not on Wattpad anymore, but I really am sorry. And you always tell me not to be, but I am.

I'm sorry I'm me. I'm sorry I cling to you so tight. I'm sorry I always need your approval. I'm sorry I always push you into things. I'm sorry I like you so much. I'm sorry I'm whining. I'm sorry I'm suicidal. I'm sorry because I get frustrated with that shit too. I'm a fucking hypocrite about that. I constantly need help and I constantly need reassurance but I always get annoyed when other people ask for that from me. Because I'm exhausted. And I shouldn't be that way, because I should be a good person, shouldn't I?

I'm not sure anymore. I just wish you honestly did adopt me, though. Because I'm not happy here.

I told my stepmom a couple nights ago that I keep getting depressed and she asked why and I said I'm not sure why. When I'm at my Nana's I'm not depressed but all I do there is watch movies. So she tried to have me watch movies at home but it felt forced. I didn't know what to watch and she got frustrated when I couldn't think of something and it just made me more stressed and depressed than I was before. Because I keep fuckint up. And I put people in these positions where they get stressed out because of me. And it's my fault. Everything's my fault. Why else would the world be so hard on me?

I'm missing Her now. I wonder if She still hangs around Wattpad anymore. I fucked things up with Her. And I miss Her. And She was the only thing I had left. And I fucked it all up.

I'm sorry.