I have been sick for so many years about three years, from sixth grade, I can't live so badly with the fixed thought if tomorrow will be another day of 💩 I hate everything about this lifestyle .. the school the country people the house I ...
Sometimes I think I want to give up everything and leave this world forever but I don't have the courage because I'm just a mistake in the world something to be canceled like an error 404 disappear. I am sure that if I did it many people would be indifferent because nobody cares about me, instead there are times where I would like to kill many people and torture them to make them understand what it means to be invisible and despised by everyone, nobody wants you or pretends to want to. nobody wants you to go out to eat to walk to sleep to dance to go out for everything ... I hide everything, I lie, I do nothing, I'm always sulking, that's true but have you ever wondered why? No because you don't care . Anxiety, nervousness, disappointment, continuous panic attacks, suicidal thoughts, crying, insomnia, bullying, falsehoods of people, messes where I was to blame when it wasn't ... is the most I do, beatings screams, insults from my father, unpleasant glances ...