Tuesday, 04:06

I'm a coward. Just like before all bark no bite.

I couldn't do it, I just couldn't. I was scared. I was terrified. I don't want to go now But at the same time I do. I'm confused. I'm hurting and the only way I can get rid of it is by dying and I want to die but at the same time I don't.

I don't like this feeling. It's confusing and hurts me more than anything.

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12:47

I've decided that I'm going to confront uncle. I need the closure. I can't die not knowing what his motives for doing what he did to me were.

I have to do it now. Mom's going to pick me up soon. This is the only opportunity I have. After today I'm not going to associate myself with uncle.

Okay Mason. You're about to enter the fire. Do your best!

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20:00

Because he wanted too.

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23:06

I can't sleep. What uncle said keeps ringing in my head.

"Because I wanted too."

That's what he said. Out of all things he could've said, he said that. What does he mean because "he wanted too"?What makes you want to hurt and force yourself on your nephew.

I hate him more than ever. That man isn't my family. That man is a stranger to me. He's dead to me. I despise him. A person like him doesn't deserve to live. People like him should die. They don't deserve to live.

The pain I was feeling before, that pain is deeper than ever.

I hate this. I hate this world I live in. Why was it ever created if people like him where going to be in it as well.