[Harry's P.O.V]

Its been a whole day and still I haven't heard a single word from Anon. Did I really crossed the line with the stuff I told about Louis? I should have obviously now that he isn't answering.

I should really apologise for my actions.

harrystyles: Can you please answer? I have something to tell you.

Lets leave it to that, I hope he replies soon.

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[Louis' P.O.V] (Don't be mad at me for the wee bit above; I promise it will make sense soon)

A plush big banana or a plush big strawberry. Which one should I put in the crib? Well if he is anything like (which is kinda impossible) then banana it is.

Finally done.

I sighed and looked around the baby room for any signs that may cause any discomfort to the baby.

The room was in the shade of a buttery yellow, very soothing to the eye, it was decorated with all the things a baby might need, toys, tethers,pacifiers, diapers, soft squeeze stuff that's just bizarrely weird and many more.

"I think my job here is done" I mumbled to myself slowing stepping out of the room, closing the door behind me.

So this is finally happening, I want to be happy about it, my kid is coming to stay with me, but I can't. 

I soft tugging in my heart has continued to grow since I last talked to Harry, I tried my best to put on the facade but it seems like it has somehow gotten rusted over the year, it won't even work properly now!

How am I supposed to take care of him when I am falling apart myself? living off of alcohol and you think its a great idea to suddenly shove a new born in my hands?

Fucking no!

I can just get away from all this if I want though, I can just be my selfish shelf once again and leave everything but...

I am not that much of a sucker for attention.

What would Harry say to that? Would he be upset if he knows I am having these kind of thoughts? Would he be mad at me? Would he try to stop me? Would he even care?

Would he cry if I was gone?

Before I could even register my train of thoughts and wreck it, my feet carried me around the house, desperately trying to find the little device.

I found it sitting patiently on my bedside table.

I grabbed it as sunk down to the floor.

Once the screen lit up I went directly to the chat box of Instagram that I had muted the other day.

My phone felt heavier with the amount of unanswered texts from my beloved who apparently hated me now.

harrystyles: hey you there?

harrystyles: slow internet connection maybe?

harrystyles: I know how irritating it can get

harrystyles: um...are you ignoring me?

harrystyles: are you mad ?

harrystyles: Can you please answer? I have something to tell you.

There were many but those were the ones from today and the last one was only a few minutes  ago.

stupid_louis: Harry? which was you favourite chapter from the confessions?

The reply came immediately.

harrystyles: Oh Gosh! you are finally here! where have you been?

stupid_louis: I asked first 

harrystyles: tough question...I am multiple fav chapters but I would have to go with the one where Harry was bedridden with hay fever and Louis came regardless the fact that they weren't even on speaking terms!

Yeah that was a good  one, honestly he would do the same if it was the same scenario in the real world though he would never ever wish sickness upon Harry... or anyone as a matter of fact.

harrystyles: which one's yours?

stupid_louis: 'Illuminate' 

harrystyles: what happened in that part again?

stupid_louis: Its where Louis gets so desperate for attention that he cuts himself, it was pathetic you know because he single handedly pushed Harry away in the first place. haha

It was not only for the sake of the text, to make light of the situation, it was actually a bitter laugh that escaped me without any warning.

harrystyles: Please don't say stuff like that! Its my least favourite chapter

stupid_louis: maybe because its the closest to the truth?

harrystyles: what truth?!

stupid_louis: you know...the reality

harrystyles: the reality isn't like that at all!

stupid_louis: right now it isn't but who knows about the future, maybe Louis will end up just like that

My self loathing was starting to reach a whole new level, I wanted Harry to feel something, anything towards me other that hatred... at this point I would even accept his pity.

harrystyles: its enough! shut up!

stupid_louis: it makes sense though... he pushed you away  and then hit rock bottom just like in the story, he would have went to his mother for comfort but...she wasn't there, once again just like in the story.

stupid_louis: he might have no one in his corner... maybe he is thinking about ending it right now as we talk... who knows?

harrystyles: he has his family, his girlfriend, the boys, his son, his fans! everyone is there for him!

stupid_louis: do you really think that? I personally don't think so.

harrystyles: stop with your stupid fucking assumptions!

harrystyles: Louis would never do something like that! I know him like the back of my hand!

stupid_louis: reality check, you used to know him, not anymore and you said it yourself

harrystyles: as if you know him! shut the fuck up already! 

stupid_louis: yeah okay... it isn't like you would care anyway when he is six feet under the ground.

It didn't helped, it kinda worsened the situation. I quickly signed out.

Sleeping pills or rope...that is the question

My hysterical laugh echoed all around the empty room. I was losing sanity but i didn't wanted to, I wanted something to hold on to.

The phone in my hand glowed again. 

It was a text from Bree.

Banana: Someone is very excited to go to their daddy tomorrow! :) :D

Suddenly all the weight and anxiety and depression was lifted off of his shoulders. The innocent face clouded my mind, my baby was excited to see me. his daddy! I can't disappoint the little one.

"Seems like a good enough excuse to stay, right mum?" I looked up and smiled.

"I am okay with you being the centre of my attention of a while tiny head" I said fondly, staring at the picture of his boy.

Maybe I can hold onto him for now.

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Author: 1600... how? I must have saved a brinjal in my previous live to deserve something like that! ( I am allergic to brinjal) XD

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