Again from Arashi's POV

( a year later, I'm fixing this cringe chapter) 

- Next time, Can you be patient, please? - I ask him as we walk together to school.

- How about next time you hurry the fuck up? - He looks at me and says

- Stop cursing, Shadow! It's not good!

- You think you don't Arashi?  - He starts teasing me.

At this point, I give up. I'm so tired and too lazy to reason with him. He's so annoying. Can't have a serious conversation with this guy. He is so CHILDISH. Like how can a 12-year-old preteen act so much like a 4-year-old kid?

Every time we talk we never have a serious conversation and that pisses me off. But, I will always have my revenge.

- Dude move your feet! We're gonna be late~ Aliaa is waiting - As he whines at me and drags my lazy ass to school, I still didn't move. If he thinks he has enough strength to drag me then drag! 

Yes, this is my revenge. I know it's stupid but I can only think of this solution so.... yeah 

                                                                       ___ Flashback  ___

Shadow - One of my BFFS. He has dark blue hair which I thought he dye at first but it is just his natural hair, his eyes are the same color as his hair and he is shorter than me. He's blind on his left eye, but he always say he can still see with both.

Shadow just moved to this area three years ago. He is a nice person, not gonna lie. He cares and never hurts us. He brings joy to us and makes us happy.

Shadow is... a pretty strange kid. Just like me, that kid is depressed. He cuts himself. He lives with his relatives 'cause his real parents died when he was young. Even when his relatives decided to adopt him, he has been abused by them. His body is always covered with bandages and sometimes some of the wounds are still bleeding through the bandages. He has been through a lot and I know it, but the thing is... He always smiles. 

Ever since I met him for the first time. Even when he got beat up, even when he was hurt. That kind of scared me but seeing his smile made me better. His smile is one of the things that calm me down the most, they are so bright and somehow it makes my heart feel warmer... Somehow whenever I'm with him the voices in my head don't bother me anymore... 

It's weird, isn't it? I don't understand why. Why do I like his smile? It's because I lost it? It's because he is my best friend? And more important is... Why does he always smile? Maybe it's because of his personality that he smiles a lot. I'm not sure... I just know that I like his smile, I like to see my friends smile.

The first time we met is when I found him blade out near the rivers. I was standing on a cliff in the mountains, looking at nature as a way to reassure myself, and then I saw him in the distance: a small figure lying on the riverbank. His whole body was covered in bruises and scratches. At first, I didn't care. For me, that is what happens to me every day. But, when I tried to walk away, I had a weird feeling. Looking at him made me uncomfortable. At that time, I didn't understand why. Just know that right after that I ran down and helped him.

-"... He lost a lot of blood..." - I say to myself while trying to wake him up.

-Hey, wake up... - I called for him, but no response. Who am I kidding? He had fainted already. How can he answer me? There is blood on his forehead. Has he been hit on the head? That explains why he faints too...

The more I looked at him, the more I felt uncomfortable. Yes, Looking at him makes me uncomfortable. Maybe... because He just looks like me. He is another "me", the one from the past. He suffocates just like me and let me tell you. I hate my past self. Not like I love myself now either. Why? It's simple Because even when I'm in pain, I still have a smile on my face. Of course, I've lost it already. But this guy... He is still smiling when he faints.

-"Gesh... why am I doing this...." - I sighed as I carried him back home. I hate myself a lot for doing this but maybe I hate myself even more if I don't help him.

Luckily, my mother wasn't home that day, so I didn't get beat up and I could bring him home to let him rest.

Put him on the bed so he could lie down, I went away to get the first aid box and turned back to him. At the river, I've stopped the bleeding, now I just need to wipe through the dirt and fix the wound then bandage it. After finishing that, I left the room so he could rest, he sure had a rough day. Went downstairs to cook dinner, I think I'll cook for him too...

Shadow POV

*In his dream

- Pls stop crying Shadow... I'll be fine - As you said, you put on a beautiful smile. You wipe away my tears, I can feel the warmth of your palm. And just like that you turn around and walk to the door.

- No, Don't go... Don't leave me here... - I cried harder. Tears ran down my face, my eyes felt like they were burning. I run to you, begging you to not go through that door. My throat hurts so much, It's hard to scream and to run with one eye. My head starts spinning like crazy. But... no matter how much I cried, how much I begged you to stay, you still went through that door. And just like that everything went black.

- Hey, sis... will you wake up, please?  - Holding you in my arms, I can feel your heas fading. You don't say a half word, don't even move. Your eyes are closed and that makes me scared. Your body is covered in blood and that makes me terrified. Cold. Your body is cold. Your warmth is gone. You stopped breathing, you left me... I hold you tidier. 

Why? I told you to not go through that door. I'm just seven. Why did you do me like this? 

- Wake up, Don't leave me here... sis, please...

Suddenly, it started raining. The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and I still couldn't move even though I was soaked. Your blood mixed with the rainwater, dyeing my shirt a light red color. Rain starts falling on you, I wipe the blood off your face, and I wiped the raindrops away... Wipe my tears away. I look at your dead body, touch your face, and think Will I be able to see your smile again? I don't want this. I never wish for this...I trusted you, I loved you .... but yet you left ME.

-  Why? Why? Why does everything have to be this way!? I hate you! I HATE YOU!" - I scream, screaming as loud as I can. My throat is hurting but I can't stop. My heart felt like it was breaking, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't consecrate, I couldn't do anything... I can't understand...  Why do I keep blaming you while I'm the guilty one?

*Back to reality

- Hey! Are you okay!?  - I can hear someone calling me. But his voice is strange. Who is he?

I open my eyes and turn around to see the person that called me. 

- You okay? Did you have a nightmare? 

END Chapter 2

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 Sorry if this is a little confusing  and for end this chapter like that;-; The next chapter will explain everything or maybe I will explain it separately;v;

I write this for my BFF - Aliaa ^^ ( Who you will see in the next chapter) It was pretty hard at first but turns out it was very fun. Thanks, Aliaa for helping me with the idea for this story and for giving me motivation :3

 Again Thank you for Reading! Have a nice day ^^ 

Edited: diyasaini02 


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