It's nothing to serious, I was just being stupid in math (my last hour class) and didn't do my work, and the bell was about to ring so I sat in the hallway and panicked.

As you know, there's to many fucktards on my bus, so I have to run to my bus because it's on the other side of the campus where 7th and 6th grade are, and I need a window seat, I don't know why but I just like watching the outside pass by as I listen to music.

I couldn't get that luxury today. I can't pack up fast, no matter what. I was quickly shoving stuff in my bag and stressing out. My friend was trying to talk to me and I almost snapped at her, I did unfortunately snap at a 6th grader because she was trying to push me up the bus stairs, and screamed at her to "STOP FUCKING PUSHING ME." The bus driver told me to watch my language, and I sat down in the aisle seat, which had this girl that put no room.

So I was sitting there on the bus, trembling and telling myself not to break down. I ended up shedding a few tears, but that's it.

I think what made it worse, was in the front there's always these Mexican kids who speak Spanish and they're annoying as hell. So I had no idea if they were talking about me or not.

I think this is one of the best examples of my autistic behavior, if something in my basic schedule and routine is offset and I suffer because of it- even if it's by a little- I have some sort of break down.

I was also being bothered by these other kids in my hallway. They weren't really picking on me, they like to mess with me and I give a witty comeback (Today I told them to fuck themselves with their heads, and when they asked how I told them to snap their necks and find out) but as I was trying to shove through the crowd, they began the normal "HEY [Marie]!" And I swear if they were near me I would've hit one of them.

I just had to get that off my chest, any sort of stress or pressure can put me in a panic. I'm not the best person irl :|