So, I'll admit I have a really good home life.

But my friends in real life... don't. One has a narcissistic father who probably hits her, another has a father that threatens to beat her, another has a verbally abusive mother, one has an overly possessive mother and shithole of a father, and the last one has a verbally abusive mother and physically abusive brother.

Two of my friends, D (narc father) and M (verb abusive mom) cut themselves... D I known has cut herself, but she's trying to stop...

But today I found out M cut herself as well. I saw the scars today at lunch. I've known D and M for years, and I care about them, I care about all my friends!

But seeing M's scars scared me for some reason. I have a low pain tolerance, so I'm not the type who'd cut themselves... but still. I'm scared that they'll kill themselves. D says it will happen one day...

If they're reading this, I don't mean to call them out. I just had to say something. I'm to afraid to tell an adult, because the mental hospital near my area is terrible, putting kids in the same room as prisoners and such. I was there once, about 3 years ago, and my parents had to beg the doctors to not keep me there. So it's a bad place.

Besides those two, another friend is suicidal and has nobody to turn to.

I'm scared for them. I don't want them to die. I don't want them to get hurt, but I know you can't stop hurting yourself like that- I compare it to my trichrotillomania (hair pulling disorder, very common, a lot of people have it), it's addictive, but so bad for you.

I want to get M to stop cutting herself, because the scars looked recent (they were crusty and red) but I can't do anything...

But, I don't wanna talk about it to much. I'm going to delete this soon, because I don't want my friends irl to find it and feel ashamed of themselves.