Weekends, I know, for few people, weekend is the day you have previlage to pamper yourself, go out for a date, dine with your family or simply go shopping and sip iced coffee at your favourite coffee shop, but for me...

Weekend,

Is the day this tall man, name Colossal, will teach me anything about sex, or have sex.

"Are you even here with me, Ynna?"

Kumatok pa siya sa white board na sinadyang pinakabit niya sa kwartong binigay ko sa kanya. Kung anu-anong nakasulat doon at para akong nahihilo dahil sa detalye.

"Lick the tip first, then slide your tongue around the head, slowly put in the head inside your mouth, making sure it slips slowly between your lips..." pagbabasa ko habang paunti-unting nararamdaman ang hiya, masyado bang lumipad ang utak ko sa outer space at di ko namalayang nai-discuss na pala niya sa 'kin ang mga yon?

"Kailangan ba talaga 'yan? Eh, isusubo lang naman yan tapos okay na!"kunwari ay nabo-bored na sagot ko at nakita kong nagkamot si Colossal.

"Hindi nga ganun 'yon! Boring kasi kung isusubo mo lang!" umiling-iling pa siya. "Sa dami ng naging babae ng fucked up fiance mo, baka tornado na ang dilang sumubo do'n," lumapit siya sa akin at yumuko, "papatalo ba ang future legal wife?"

Napa-straight ako nang upo nang malanghap ko ang minty breath niya. Tapos, ay bigla ko pang naalala yung nakita ko few days ago,

yung ano niya.

"Alright!" Tumayo na siya nang  tuwid saka lumapit ulit sa white board na akala mo talaga ay Prof. siya. Tinitigan ko siya nang matamlay at nangalumbaba.

"I want iced coffee, tapos may overlooking," nasabi ko at narinig kong bumuntong hininga si Colossal.

"Sige,"

Biglang tila nakakita ako ng fireworks nang marinig ko yung sinabi niya. Tinitigan ko siya habang nagbubura ng kung anu-anong isinulat niya sa white board.

"Sasamahan mo 'ko magkape?" excited na tanong ko sa kanya.

"You can go and grab iced coffee and do whatever you want, just make sure na may natutunan ka," seryosong saad ni Colossal at nanuyot na naman ang lalamunan ko kasabay non ang matinding kaba na hindi ko alam kung saan nagmumula. "because just like at school, we'll be having test and hands on activity, if needed."

Those sends shiver down my spine. Ako na virgin until today ay magiging submissive at hahayang mawala ang virginity ng ganun-ganun lang. Na, para akong nag-workshop to prepare myself for the real deal. And those thoughts hurt me so much, at first, pero parang wala na lang sa akin. Everything goes casual as day passes. Ganito siguro ang nangyayari pag desperada ka na.

"Wait!"

Tiling sabi ko nang maramdaman kong biglang nasa balikat ko na pala ang mga palad ni Colossal, minamasahe niya iyon nang marahan.

"Just relax, Ynna. You're too stiff and cannot focus," Colossal pressed my shoulder lightly "ni hindi mo nga namalayan na nandito na ako sa likod mo," he continue to massage my shoulders and it somehow made me relax bit "and that also will not help on making you wet," nagulat ako sa sinabi niya at biglang sininok.

"Stiff ka na naman!" Tumakla pa siya pero patuloy na nagmasahe. "Stop breathing for how long you can then slowly breath in, nakatutulong yan sa pagkawala ng sinok," payo niya at ginawa ko naman. I was amazed nang sa ikalawang try ko ay nawala na nga ang sinok ko.

"Bakit di mo na lang ako samahan?" I asked.

Biglang tumigil si Colossal sa pagmamasahe ng balikat ko. Pero ilang segundo lang ay ipinagpatuloy ulit.

"Di ako mahilig sa kape," mahinang tanggi niya.

"Eh chocolate? or, any restaurant na gusto mong kainan?" I asked again, waiting na may sasabihin siyang lugar na gusto niyang puntahan. I was hoping, I don't know why.

"I want to stay home," he answered.

Hinawakan ko ang mga kamay niyang nagmamasahe sa mga balikat ko at napatigil naman siya.

"May pinagtataguan ka ba?" Bigla kong naitanong. Napansin ko rin kasing never siyang lumabas ng bahay since dumating siya rito. Kung may kailangan siya ay madalas niyang ipinapabili na lang sa mga kasambahay kung may pupunta sa pamilihan.

Inalis niya ang mga kamay sa aking balikat. Mabilis akong tumayo at humarap sa kanya, tinitigan ko siya nang matagal at naghahanap ng sagot base sa expression niya, pero buntong hininga lang ang isinagot niya sa akin.

"May sinabi ba sa'yo si Taehyung?" He asked back.

Umiling ako bilang tugon. He sigh again then crossed arm on his chest.

"You don't have to worry yourself about my being or what I will do when the deal is off, Ynna" Nakita ko siyang nahiga sa kama "Please, close the door when you leave."

I chuckled "Wow! Lloydie! Is that you?" tumawa ako at narinig ko rin siyang tumawa pero maiksi lang. Pa-mysterious type pala ang  teacher ko, at ito ang first time na narinig ko siyang tumawa kahit saglit lang.

"Oo na po, Prof.! I will close the door when I leave," tumawa na lang ako sa sarili kong joke dahil hindi man lang niya ako pinansin tapos ay nagtaklob ng kumot.

Lumabas na ako at maingat na isinara ang pinto, tapos ay diretsong tumakbo ako sa kwarto para kumukha ng plain black hoodie at nagsout ng blue jeans at white sneakers. Huli kong isinuot ang hoodie at kinuha ang susi ng kotse sa drawer tapos ay tumakbo ako palabas ng bahay.

I was about to get in the driver seat when I saw a familiar car arrived and park, blocking the gate.

My heart skip a beat as this man hop out the car carrying bouquet of sunflowers, he is about to press the doorbell located at the side of the gate when he saw me standing beside my car.

Ngumiti ako at mabilis na tumakbo palabas ng gate.

"Going somewhere?" Tanong niya sabay abot sakin ng sunflowers.

"I'm planning to have me time at some coffee shop, do you want to join?" I gladly invited him.

Jimin smiled at me, making his eyes so small. "I just stop by to give you those, I don't want you to forget that we're getting married soon," his smile fade away that instant.

"I... You know, I won't forget," I can feel my hand shivering. Humigpit ang hawak ko sa bouquet ng bulaklak. I can feel my heart hammering and my stomach feeling empty, like I'm riding a roller coaster at the moment.

"Bye," Jimin tap my right shoulder then speedily hop in the driver seat not waiting for my answer, or to my goodbye.

I can feel my eyes itching, cheeks numb and tears forming at the corner of my eyes, but, I inhale so much air to stop my attempting tears.

"By the way, I will fetch you tommorow morning to meet the wedding planner!" Jimin shouted from the car, I didn't notice he pull down the car window.

I sniff then nod, then look at him. My eyes then landed on the same bouquet of sunflowers safely located on the passenger seat.

That's when my tears fall like they're having marathon, it wet my cheeks very fast and Jimin saw it,

But he smirk, eyeing me then finally face the road and drive away.

I gradually get in the gate then slam my back on my car. The bouquet slip my hand and landed on the cement. I cried so loud then anger kick in. I guess, Jimin will not stop having an affair.

My eyes landed at the poor sunflower and a scene of him giving same flower to another woman fumes the anger more and after one long scream, I see myself stamping until it's totally destroyed and finally felt satisfied as I watch the slow breeze take away the dirty petals.

"You done?"

I almost jump due to shock. I didn't notice him coming and I felt ashame because I let him see me that miserable.

"I'm sorry if you have to witness that---"

"I can make you a delicious iced coffee and a patient ear that can listen to your useless tantrums," Colossal show me his genuine smile for the first time. It somehow touched my wounded heart

"Thanks, really, thanks,"

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