"And it is...?"

I place my hand at the base of my throat, "Maybe-... maybe you could-... Choke me?"

"Damn. I thought you'd wanna be treated like a princess," I blush turning away from him, "I told you it was stupid..."

"I'll do it, you wanna choke me too?"

I shake my head, "I don't wanna accidently kill you,"

He chuckles, "You wouldn't kill me,"

"Yeah but I've only ever being bottom. I don't want to get carried away,"

"Yeah, I don't wanna go hard. It'll remind me too much of the first time,"

"Ok. Soft it is. Just run of the mill making love," I say beginning to wipe my thighs.

"Y-yeah..." He mumbles burying himself in the blankets.

I look down at him pulling his to lay facing me. I slot myself beside him putting his arm around my waist so I'm the little spoon.

"You finally done?"

I nod leaning my head on his arm fitting comfortably against him.

♡

I whine slightly as I move into the warmth behind me, my back and legs hurt really bad and I close me eyes snuggling into his arm further.

He groans moving to lay on me with his arms wrapped tightly around my waist.

I press my face into his shoulder kissing the bare skin lightly.

"You still wanna bath?" He mumbles tiredly.

"Uh huh" I mutter quietly my hand stoking the base of his spine, "I swear you would live in the bathroom if you could,"

"It's clean. I like clean," I mumble pecking his shoulder, "I know," He mumbles pushing his face into my neck.

I smile, "Yeah so you gonna carry me?"

"Not yet, I wanna cuddle," He grumbles hugging me tighter. "I thought you didn't do cuddling?"

"You're supposed to be my boyfriend... I can cuddle my boyfriend..."

I grin, "You're my boyfriend. It sounds weird coming from you. I like it"

"It's weird having a boyfriend... I don't know how to feel about it,"

"Feel happy. I do," I say kissing his neck with a grin.

"I don't know how to react though. I haven't had a proper boyfriend before," He sighs carressing my cheek.

I look at him in the eye his expression making me feel soft inside, "Well I'll try to be the most proper boyfriend ever,"

"I know you will," He smiles kissing my lips lightly before sitting up.

I look up at him admiring him and the way he looked with sex hair.

He gets off the bed reaching his hand out for me, "Com'on"

"Carry me?"

"Yeah I will when you get your ass out of bed,"

"But I'm sore," I whine, He rolls his eyes crouching on the end of the bed, "Crawl here then,"

I move to him, grinning. He hooks his arms under my knees and back hoisting me up into his chest.

I hug my arms around his neck resting my face against his neck.

He carries me to the bathroom, placing me in the bath before he turns the tap on.

I shiver at the water, "It's cold~"

"Better then it being hot," Taehyung mumbles sitting on the edge of the bath.

I pout hugging my arms around myself to warm myself. He swaps it to the hot tap taking his bodywash of the side.

"Aren't you going to join me?" I mutter, "When it's a nicer temperature," He says playing with the bottle in his hands.

"That's just mean," I whine.

"But the tap on in the middle. Cold and hot = warm,"

"Doesn't work," He mumbles letting the tap rest in the middle making it slightly cold.

I whine my arms hugging around myself as I pout, he steps into the bath shivering a little.

I shuffle forward so he can slide in behind me.

He reaches over my shoulder trying to make ut warmer, "I hate this bath. Whoever designed it is retarded,"

I hum in a agreement mean it against him to steal his body heat.

"There's a reason I only have showers," He complains pulling me into his chest.

As the water warms up I sigh in contempt my hand brushing over his thigh.

"I love you," He mumbles quietly, his head leaning on my shoulder.

I grin fanboying slightly fuck yeah I am loved!! "I love you too," I mutter.

He smiles, "I don't think I'll ever get used to this,"

"I think I already have,"

"Even though we still act like fuck buddies?"

"You saying you want to give up the sex?"

"No... That probably is a good idea though,"

"Awh but I love being fucked by you," I say taking his hand in mine. "And I love fucking you but we at least should try be a little more romantic about it..."

"Yeah. So like a loving fuck?" I mutter with a smile, "Like 'make love' instead of 'fuck'. I don't know, I'll ask Jimin later,"

"M'kay,Jimin" I say kissing the back of his hand before I reach for shampoo, "Wash my hair?"

"Sure," He squeezes the shampoo onto his hand massaging it into my hair.

I smile, "Hmm seems like your long fingers are good for more that one thing," I hum.

"So much for being romantic..."

"I meant it as a compliment," I hum leaning my head back, "A sexual compliment,"

"No, I just pointed out you have good long fingers,"
"That's so random," He mumbles rinsing the shampoo off his hands.

I smile, "You're the one to make it dirty,"

"Well you know you love my fingers when I fuck you," He says rubbing conditioner into my hair.

"Hmm. They just reach places," I say with a giggle.

"You're welcome," He coos starting to massage my shoulders.

I press my lips together humming at the feeling of his hands on me. "Are you still gonna fuck me...?" Taehyung mumbles awkwardly.

"Do you want me to? If it would make you uncomfortable then we don't have to,"

"I want to, it's just kinda scary y'know?"

"Yeah. I was terrified when I first came to yours. It looks some nerve to get through it,"

"And that was without the shitty experience I had..."

"Taehyung just know, I love you. None of the past matters because you're better than being a victim,"

"But I am a victim..." He grumbles with a sigh, "I just don't wanna remember it or how it felt..."

"We don't have to do it Tae. We could just stick with me being bottom if you'd prefer,"

"I already said I want to," He sighs stepping out the bath and grabbing a towel.

I lean my chin on the bath "Sure?" I ask.

"Yup," He hands me a towel with a small smile, "Why? Don't you wanna do it anymore?"

"No I do. I just-..." I mutter not finishing my sentence.

"You just?"

"What happened to you... I just don't want to dig up any memories of what happened..."

"You said it yourself though, I can only get over it by proving that it's okay now. I can't have that asshole interfering with my relationships,"

I smile, "I'm proud of you," I mutter. "For what?"

"You're choosing to be stronger than the memories hold on you,"

"Thanks," I smile shuffling closer to him for a hug. I hug my arms around his neck pecking his cheek.

"You gonna get out?"

"But I'm warm,"

"But I don't wanna get wet again," Taehyung pouts wrapping his towel around himself.

"Fine, fine," I sigh getting up out of the bath, I take the towel from Tae using it to dry my hair.

I wrap it around myself looking in the mirror with a sigh "How many marks did you have to give me?"

"Don't act like you didn't love it,"

"I do just don't go over board jeez,"

"Why not? It looks nice,"

"Yeah but people judge,"

"People don't matter," He mumbles snuggling against my back.

"And I supposed your not people then?" I ask with a chuckle, "I don't count,"

"Hmm ok them," I hum amused, "Would you feel better if you gave me couple?"

I nod smirking, "Definitely,"

"You can do it when you fuck me..." Taehyung mutters with a small blush.

"Aww," I say before I can stop myself. "What are you 'awwring' at?" He pouts giving me an accusing glare.

"You blushed when you said 'When you fuck me' it's adorable,"

"No I didn't..."

"You did. You're doing it now~"

"No, I don't blush!" He whines covering his cheeks, "Why you hiding then? Hmm. This is just too cute~" I coo with a giggle.

"It's only cause the idea of being fucked by you is embarrassing,"

"Oh but the embarrassment only makes it hotter~" I hum with a grin happy that I can use his line against him.

"This isn't hot!" He whines hiding his face in my neck.

"Oh but it is~ Remember how you always say it is. You haven't forgotten have you?"

"No... But it's only hot when I do it..."