CHAP 27 : HOLD ME
As they walked down supporting each other, all the figures present in the sorrowful event looked at them as they descended the stairs. Jungkook felt hollow watching his mother's corpse lying lifeless once again. His friends and Sohee watched him kneeling down infront of her with shaky breaths passing by his body.
" Mom." The feeling of the word felt too foreign to him , making his condition worse. With a shaky breath he continued " I always knew you loved Jin more than me. But I never thought that you would leave me alone to go to him.-" he stopped for a moment, gripping his fingers into a tight fist to prevent himself from crying more. He had to stay strong. For his father and sister. "- I know you didn't admire me much but I always loved you mom. I loved you and I will always love you. Don't ask for my forgiveness now. Maybe one day when my soul and my heart will be free from all the burden that I had caged inside me and will find its serenity , I would. But I just want to bid you happily. Goodbye, mom." His vision went glassed by his tears. But somehow he felt light weighted. As if he could finally breathe again.
The entire funeral went blurry. All he could remember was having his loved ones standing by his side to support him. His father , Sohee, his friends and.. Y/n. He couldn't imagine himself standing so firm if it hadn't been her by his side. While he sat at the end of the swimming pool thoughts about Y/n surfaced through his mind. He surely wanted to tell her everything..all that he felt. But he wasn't sure how.
"Jungkook." His sister's voice awakened him from his thoughts. Looking into her direction, her expression masked his . Eyes puffy , red nose and cheeks stained with tears. Gesturing her to sit beside him , he shifted a bit to make some space for her.
The siblings sat in silence for a moment before the younger one broke it.
"Will you ever be able to tell me what happened between you and mom?" Her voice croaked before breaking into a sob. Jungkook took a deep inhale. He knew he had to answer her questions one day. He was answerable to all of them.
"I will. When the time comes , I will answer all your questions. Everything you ask me about." Sohee pursed her lips , leaning in her brother's embrace as he stroked her hair.
" I-I am sorry Jungkook. I always had dad by my side to love me and take care of me. Even if I didn't have a mother , dad always filled in for her place. But you. You were always denied it. You were so young when you were sent to London. I can't imagine how difficult it must have been for you."
"It was. But not anymore. I have everything now. A business empire , family , friends-"
"And love?" Sohee asked referring to her best friend.
"I don't know what you are talking about, Sohee." She smiled at her brother's flustered form as he blushed due to Y/N's reference.
"You very well know what I am talking about, Jungkook. I am talking about Y/n. Do you still feel that emotions make you weak? They don't Jungkook. Love gives the power to fight the world. Love can battle with death and win over it. It makes you stronger and firmer. "
His sister's words played in his mind , but he wasn't sure of his feelings yet .
" I don't want her to fall in love with me Sohee."
"But what if she already has fallen in love with you , Jungkook? Would you leave her?" He thought for a few seconds trying to process her words. It was true that he never wanted to fall in love. But if he did ..he was unsure about the consequences.
"How are you so sure about that. She doesn't love me Sohee. She just likes me." Sohee tried hard not to slap her intelligent brother who stood to blind to see the feelings.
"There's a difference between liking someone and loving someone, Jungkook. When you like a plant , you will pluck the flower and keep it for yourself ; but when you love it , you will water it everyday, and not only love it's petals but thorns too.. She has accepted you with all your flaws , all your scars , all your secrets. Are you sure she's not falling for you ?" Jungkook gulped at her words. He was no longer worried about his feelings. What mattered to him was not to hurt Y/n.
"She's too selfless, Jungkook. If you would say her just to stay as your friend, she will throw away all her feelings just for you. But I want you both to be happy. And your happiness lies in each other's. Everyone can see. Let her mend you. You both have so much of love in your heart for everyone. Your love will be epic. And you don't have to fall in love with her now , you have your entire life for that..but don't close your doors for her. Tell her you like her. Give her a sense of security in this relationship. Life is too short Jungkook. Don't drown yourself in your sadness only to regret it later." Jungkook wondered what she told was true. Love seemed too heavy for him right now. But he also didn't want her to go away.
"So what am I supposed to do?"
With a mischevious glint Sohee looked into the direction of his brother , and he already knew something huge was cooking up in her mind.
"Just do as I say."
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Walking up the stairs , he entered his bedroom. The one which held so many memories for him. He knew he had to confess his feelings for her someday. Afterall, she was the one who taught him to express. But he was scared to be heartbroken too.
A smile crept up his face as he saw Y/n leaning against the window , soft breeze flowing throughout the room , making her close her eyes. She looked no less than an angel waiting for her devil. Walking closely to her side , he looped his hand around her waist , while pressing her against his body and placing a kiss on the length of her neck.
"Jungkook." She mumbled licking her lips while inhaling his masculine scent of pine and citrus. With a hum he turned her in his embrace , pressing a kiss on her temple. She could sense his hesitation. She could read him like an open book now.
Opening her eyes, she cupped his cheeks, wanting to see a clear portal of his expressions.
"What happened Jungkook? Are you fine?" He shook his head, holding her hands between his. He had never felt his mind being this nervous and chaotic before. He was known for his calmness and patient behaviour, but right now what happened to him was complete opposite.
"Y/n..I need you to come with me somewhere."
"Where?" Her eyes searched for a hint in his eyes..but he masked them perfectly.
"I need to confess something."
With fingers intervined and bodies staying close to each other's Jungkook and Y/n made way through the slightly dampened grass which led to the graveyard. The sky was changing it's colour , beholding a beautiful sight as they moved further into the town.
Jungkook knew this was a very big step that he was taking from his end. But Y/n had already managed to strip a part of him , so he wanted her to invade another part of his too. Finally , standing infront of his brother's grave , he shuddered at the sight infront of him.
The grey marble was covered with green moss , and the rain kept it drenched and clean. Kneeling down , he gently ran his hand over the stone.
"Jin." He whispered before burning into another set of tears. His shoulders shook as he looked at his brother's grave that he visited after twenty years.
"I know I might have disappointed you alot. I know I am not the best brother. I failed to realise your sacrifice but I don't want to do that anymore. Because someone has made me realise how wrong I was-" he took the time to wipe his tears before turning towards Y/n who was watching the scene with a sad smile. She looked at him confusingly as he offered her his hand, pulling her closer. “She taught me the real meaning behind my life..the real love behind your sacrifice. She's just like you , Jin . Guiding me through my difficult times and always staying by my side. She never judged me just the way you did. She not only believed that I am a better person , but she also made me realise that I am one." He concluded looking into her eyes that were stained with tears too. Their tears falling from each other's eyes met into one passionate drop. This time the tears weren't of sorrow and sadness rather they contained pure emotions, adoration and love that they withheld for each other. However both of them were too ignorant to notice the new budding feeling between them . His heart skipped a beat, when he witnessed a small smile plastered on her lip as the wind flew past her gracefully. They conversed through their eyes and their bodies followed suit. Y/n instantly blushed under his affectionate gaze which made her turn away.
"Hey , Jin." She spoke in her velvet voice providing Jungkook the instant feel of warmth that he craved for. " I am Y/n. I have heard alot about you from your brother. Must say , you are the best brother in the world. I wonder if I have ever met someone so forgiving and selfless in my life. But I am here to thank you today-" she reached over for Jungkook's hand , rubbing his knuckles over it. "- thank you so much for saving him that day. I know I might sound a bit selfish but if it weren't you who would have saved him that day, I would have never found him. He would have never entered my life and I would have never met a man who would be capable of holding my soul and make me love all my greys." She sniffed looking down at their intervined hands before continuing " Eventhough he's a bit crazy..no very crazy and irritating, he's the best man of my life , I will make it a point to always stand by his side through his thick and thin. To always keep his happiness before mine and to guide him through his right and wrong."
With a smile he nodded at her and both of them bid his brother a happy goodbye.
"Goodbye Jin. Take care of mom. She loves you alot . I know you will keep her happy."
Walking a few steps they sat in silence on the wet grass looking ahead at the massive blue water lake infront of them. However Jungkook's mind remained wandering somewhere else.
As she spoke those words , Jungkook's heart started thumping against his chest as if his brother had given him and indication of his feelings. He was still unsure about the exact words to name that building emotion within him but he knew that he had crossed that border of "just sex" with her. It was never a plain fuck between them..their intimacy had the spirit of fire that could leave people tight lipped and envious.
With no words being said , he cupped her cheeks before crashing his lips against hers , moulding them perfectly as if his life depended on it. He sucked onto her lower ones caressing them gently with his parted lips , making her feel all the softness of his mellow cushions.
" I like you Y/n." He whispered connecting his head with hers. She tried pulling away to look into his eyes , but he held her in place wanting nothing but her against his body.
"I like you...I really do. Maybe from a long time..maybe right from the moment I saw you in the ball , but I like you. Faithfully, eternally and sincerely." His words were like vows. Vows of companionship , vows of support and vows of affection.
"But I feel I am not worthy of you Cupcake. You deserve someone better." Y/n shook her head sadly, she knew deep down there were a few more things that made him feel guilty. She knew all the hate , all the guilt that was bottled up inside him for years couldn't submerge in a day . But she knew he was trying.
"Then be better for me Jungkook. Be better for us. Because I don't want anyone else but you." The billionaire had to blink a few times to register what she said. It was also a reminder of what attracted him to her so much. Y/n was the strongest and the most formidable woman he had ever met.
She walked into his life knowing exactly what she wanted , not caring if anything got in the way. She managed to love all his personal flaws and dark sexual deviancies that had managed to bring her closer to him.
She was the only woman for whom , Jungkook was ready to go down on his knees and worship her any moment.
"Our connection is far more than physical. We share a closeness, an intimacy that stretches beyond that of past lovers, Kim Y/n. Our bodies, our energy, we vibrate on the same frequency. I’ve never wanted another woman the way I want you.Your laugh reaches the darkest, dustiest corners of my soul and brings it to life. When you’re near me my heart feels fuller. My breath comes easier. My smile…fuck…I can’t wipe it off my face when I’m near you. I connect with you on every level of my being, Y/n.You’re the only woman I can really talk to. I just want you. Inside, outside, upside down and fucking sideways. You’re the only woman I want in my bed when I wake up every morning and the one to whom I want to kiss goodnight everytime I go to sleep. And I don't think I need a stupid name for our relationship , any name , any tag is too juvenile to trace everything that we have between us. You are mine and I am yours. This is what matters to me the most.-" Jungkook spoke setting her on his lap. He wasn't sure how was he able to express so much when until a few months ago he didn't speak anything more than two lines , but he was sure that he wanted to take the next big step in his life with her. "- but I still do want to show you to the world as mine , Y/n. Not just as a mere partner but as an important woman in my life. I want to take you out , have you by my side and say that you're mine, even in front of your mother , my father and the whole goddamn world and I want it now."
Inhaling a shaky breath , he prepared himself for slipping the next few words.
"Can I be your boyfriend, Kim Y/n? Can you make me yours?"
Y/n felt her world getting stopped at the hand of the minute. She wasn't sure if she heard him right. A relationship? She was never ready to get in one. Oweing to what her past with her father was , she wasn't sure if she wanted a label of any relationship. But with Jungkook, things weren't the same. They were always opposite of what she thought it would be.
Jungkook pushed her hair behind her ear so it didn't mask her face , letting his hands cup the sides of her neck gently. He made sure his eyes never left hers. He wanted the sincerity to be crystal clear.
" I know it is going to be hard , but I am willing to try Y/n. I would risk everything for every second with you. My empire, my reputation even myself." She couldn't stop the tears that kept welling up in the waterline of her eyes , eventually falling on her cheeks.
"B-but you were the one who said that we shouldn't involve ourselves into anything other than sex." She attempted to speak , choking on her words. She attempted to rise a hand to wipe the tears staining her face , but the billionaire beat her.
" And I am the only one who's breaking all those rules. From not sleeping with anyone on my own bed to kissing..I have already broken alot of rules with you Y/n." He spoke as he let his thumb run over her dampened cheeks. " So ,I will ask you again . Can I be your boyfriend, Cupcake?"
"You already know my answer." She smiled shyly pressing her hands flat aginst the billionaire's chest. "I know but I want to hear it from you."
Holding back her tears she did.
"Yes. I would love you to be my boyfriend, Jeon Jungkook."
Jungkook caved at her words. Be swiftly lifted her up , pinning her body against the tree. She meant what she said , in that moment and right now. She meant it with all the meaning of her soul. Once only seeking out for someone who could please her , she found someone who would care and protect her too.
" I will protect you with whatever I can Y/n. I would burn the world alive if someone would dare to hurt you and I promise I will make you the happiest person in this world."
"I know that Jungkook. I know you will protect me."
Jungkook pressed his lips against hers once again, letting her softness flood his senses . They stood in each other's embrace for a while and Y/n felt a true sense of security and comfort in his arms. He deepened the kiss , letting his hands pull her in by her waist as she wrapped her arms around his shoulder to maintain balance.
She did not want to run away or let go. She wanted to stay in the moment, forever. Because right now both of them were vulnerable. Neither of them could stop the heat of the moment from intensifying further. Her leg hooked around his waist allowing him to grab her thighs and pull their bodies closer.
Y/n gasped as she began feeling him kissing everywhere. He kissed along the neck and collarbone, exploiting some extremely sensitive areas. His hand trailed up her thigh along the outside and eventually slipped inside making her moan and fill his ears with his most favorite sounds.
Everything was fast and daze at the same time slow and passionate just like their first time , first kiss. Y/N's hands were in Jungkook's hair , tugging as he found his way to explore her bare body beneath her shirt. She pulled his body harder into her , pressing their bodies together so that there was no room to breathe.
The couple's devouring act slowed down eventually , allowing both of them to catch breaths and immerse themselves in the sacred moment.
"Babygirl." He whispered huskily against her lips, smoothly rubbing her bottom lip which was ruined by him, making her smile at his sultry tone. She knew what this name meant and what they were going to be doing next.
She felt the cold sensation of keys passing through her dermis as he handed her over the car keys.
"You have thirty minutes. Drive the car to our house. Get naked and kneel in our bedroom. Am I clear?"
"Yes sir."
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Kaya stood infront of her wall sized mirror. Her curvaceous body , wrapped in a thin red lace covered by a silk robe as she waited for her husband. The entire room was decorated with the soft velvet petals of red rose that matched her attire and the fragrance of the flowers ran throughout the room. With a wicked smile painting her face she drank gulps of the intoxicating liquid , preparing herself for her next move.
She was going to travel through the same path that she used years ago , to seperate her husband from his ex wife. It was ten years ago , when her now husband had come to attend a charity ball . Aiden William was a well known and rising businessman during that time. Adorning a perfectly tailored suit and holding the attractive grey eyes with a few grey strands of his hair , he looked totally ravishing during that night. Kaya attended the ball as someone else's partner , but ended up finding her new trap. The entire night she managed to strike a few words with Aiden . But all her plans failed as she came to know about him being already happily married and a parent of a ten year old beautiful girl.
However Kaya wasn't someone who would loose. So she planned for a perfect trap for him. The following three days she followed him , trying to meet him and pretend it coincidentally happened just to lure him. Aiden could feel himself falling for the younger woman. All the thoughts of his family went out of the window and he could just think about the homewrecker infront of him.
The following night , was his biggest mistake. Getting smitten by the illusion of Kaya's beauty, he couldn't stop himself, thereby resulting into him sleeping with her. That was where Kaya knew she had hit her jackpot. She was successful yet again. And it was not long enough that she took to drug Aiden and sleep with him in his own house , on his couch and make his wife and daughter witness the heartbreaking scene.
She was very good at emotionally blackmailing. She knew Aiden was too attached to his family, so she took that opportunity to blackmail him that she would end her life if he didn't marry her. Being held by the two end of ropes..one side he had his family and the other side he had his love..so he chose the second one.
Kaya didn't think twice before leaving all of her flings to get married to Aiden. Which included Jungkook too. Money was all she wanted. Power was all she craved for. Jungkook was an eighteen year old boy when she married her husband. But now looking at his success, her hunger couldn't calm down. Little did she know, Jungkook had found someone worthy of his love..worthy of his heart..worthy of him.
With Jungkook moving to Korea and Aiden transferring all his shares to his beloved daughter Y/n , Kaya had nothing left with her and she knew she had to do something to lure her husband.
And so she was going to use the same trick that she used years ago. Seducing him and stopping him from transferring all his shares to her stepdaughter.
Hearing the door click open she smirked as she heard faint footsteps nearing her direction which indicated her husband's arrival. Turning around she walked towards him , swaying her hips and biting her bottom lip seductively. Aiden watched his wife's bold moves as she lowered herself on his lap , before she started kissing his neck.
"What are you doing Kaya?" He asked gently as he stroked her long hair. Shifting in his lap , she was quick to remove his shirt and throw it in one of the corner of the room. " Make love to me Aiden." She internally cringed at the mention of that phrase , but she needed to do that.
Not giving him any chance to speak , she crashed her lips with his. All the clothes were discarded on the floor while the couple continued their intimate moments for a long time. The entire room was full with the sound of moans and the smell of sex with sweat covering their bodies. With a loud groan , they reached their highs , calming down thereafter. A smile played on her lips as she saw her husband falling besides her , she knew he would never deny her of anything after their love making. He never did. Running her finger, through his sharp jaw , she lowered his mouth for a kiss.
"I love you Aiden." She spoke the lie with no hint of shame in her voice.
"I love you too , Kaya." She mentally grinned thinking that her plan was shaping up perfectly.
"Then why do you not keep the property shares unchanged?" Aiden furrowed his eyebrows, before shaking his head when he realised the real intention behind his wife's words. Shaking his head he got up from his bed , making his wife look at him confused.
"So this is why you did all this..this decoration.. this-" he stopped feeling disgusted and used. "- I have told you time and again Kaya, I am not changing any documents. So stop trying hard and get to your work."
Kaya slammed her fist against the night stand. She had tried every way to please her husband..love , lust , seduction..all that she could do. But things weren't getting easy for her and she needed to use her last weapon. Threat.
" Then be careful about that Aiden , because Kaya always gets what she wants. And I can go to any limits for that , you know me." His eyes burned with fury and anger as he stared at his wife who sent him a devilish smirk . He very well understood the meaning behind her words. Sprinting towards her , he grabbed her jaw , forcing her to look into his eyes.
"I dare you to look into her direction, Kaya. Don't even bring any thoughts about hurting her or else-"
"Or else what."
"Be ready to get divorced." Her eyes popped out at his statement. "Be ready to be thrown out of my empire and pack your bags to stay on the roads.I dare you to do anything to my daughter, Kaya and you will face the worst of me."
A sadistic laugh rang through the empty room as she saw her husband walking away. He was too naive to think that Kaya would be one of those woman who would be scared by these baseless threats. He loved his daughter alot , she could feel that ..so she would be the exact person who would be on her radar.
Dialing up the number she called up her secretary. But before he could speak anything, Kaya spoke those words that could shake many lives.
"Meet Y/n. Threaten her with love and if she doesn't understand..Kill her."
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