i thought i have, but i'm realising that i've never lost you

you're in the words i put together to write the pain away
you're in the song lyrics i can't forget
you're in the situations, objects, phrases that once made sense to us

when you loved someone, they never go away
no matter how hard you try to move on there will always be these evenings where they suddenly come back to you

it isn't good, but it isn't bad either
you remember the good times with a certain nostalgic tenderness
you know it used to work
it used to be what mattered the most

now it's just another abandoned book