Hi everyone!!  SylveonKwami here.

I'm finally finished with school YAY.  Good news is that updates will be very frequent for this book- I wouldn't be surprised if it was finished near the beginning of July!!

This chapter will be a little different than most, but I hope it is still enjoyable to read.

Anyway, enjoy ^v^

Marinette

Dear Diary,

Last night was... out of hand, to say the least.  Well, good news is that HawkMoth was defeated... finally.  Except he turned out to be Gabriel Agreste... not a good thing for Chat AT ALL.  I haven't wrote in here since the whole Shrinkinator incident, but to update you Diary, I finally figured out Chat's identity- he's Adrien, the boy I've been crushing on for who knows how long.  Turns out we loved each other all this time- or so I thought.

Things got out of hand last night and Adrien... Adrien killed his father.  Don't get me wrong, HawkMoth got me pretty hard last night too, in fact, I'm still sore and injured writing this, but watching Gabriel just turn into dust was horrible.  I tried to comfort Adrien, I really did, but he was so unstable he ran away from me.  

I had this REALLY heated argument with my parents, and I transformed in front of them.  I didn't care at that point- I wanted Adrien, only to see him turn me away.  I mean, I get he was upset, but still, you'd think we could get through it together!  But my parents forgave me, and they even made me a really nice breakfast, and baked cookies fresh for Tikki.  

I'm about to go to school, so we'll see how that goes.  It's Friday, so I won't have to go back for a couple days- at least that's what I'm telling myself to get me to go inside that building.

I'll tell you what happens when I get home.  

~Marinette

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Dear Diary,

Today was an emotional roller-coaster.  When I walked into class, Ms. Bustier questioned me on my injuries- thankfully, my classmates covered for me.  The good thing- or bad thing, depending on how you look at it- was that she left for a good fifteen minutes to photocopy stuff, and that left my classmates ample time to ask questions about yesterday.

I tried to vaguely explain it as best I could.  They asked me questions about Ladybug too and how I came to be her, and eventually, they all got to meet Tikki.  Most of them were shocked at first (it was especially funny to watch Kim's reaction) but in the end everyone loved my kwami.  I'm not surprised- she is extremely loveable.  

Then someone asked me about Adrien, and it... it all came flashing back to me- the pain, mental exhaustion, the blood... the blood was.... everywhere..... like the dust...

I started breaking down right there, but Alya came and held me and explained what I had explained to them briefly last night.  I sobbed and told all of them that Adrien didn't want to talk to anyone, even me.  It was really kind what they did, and how they showed their support- I think I'm finally ready to forgive them for what they did- more on that later, Diary.  But anyway, my classmates said we should meet up tomorrow morning at his house to talk things over.  I agreed instantly.

When Ms. Bustier came back in and told us that Adrien was found again but refused to testify, I almost cried again, but I didn't.  I have to thank Alya for that- I couldn't ask for a better friend.

Oh well, I'm going to try and get some sleep, it's a little late.

~Marinette

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Dear Diary, 

I think something's wrong with Adrien.

I mean, we went to his house, where he was still living apparently- I heard it had something to do with money and inheritance and stuff, not my forte.  But we all went there, and basically demanded Natalie to let us in to talk to Adrien.  She refused every single one of us, even Chloe and Nino, who she knew- at least a little.

I even explained that me and Adrien were... a thing, and that I needed to check up on him- she still denied me.  Alya whispered to me to transform, as I might have more authority as a superhero, so I went.  I came back as Ladybug and demanded to let all of us in.  She literally shoved me backwards and it was all I could do to keep standing, because she disturbed my injuries.  But yeah, long story short, we didn't get to talk to Adrien.  

I did see a little bit of his face as we left, though.  I could see it in his eyes... a distant longing, but a coldness and emptiness clouded in front of it.  All I knew was that I needed to see him.

I'll try and keep you updated, Diary.

~Marinette

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Dear Diary, 

It's been one month since HawkMoth's defeat.  I sent at least a dozen texts to Adrien everyday and called him at least 20 times, but he never responds.

Maybe he's not at his phone?

But he's still not talking to us... I'm really worried about him.  What do you think, Diary?

~Marinette

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Dear Diary,

To get his attention, I tried sending double the texts and calls- no response.  

I know deep down that he's ignoring us.  He's ignoring everyone in his grief and stress.

My parents have been starting to worry about me too- they suggested I go to therapy or something, but with my extra duties as Ladybug, how can I?  Especially since I haven't seen "Chat Noir" lately.

Anyway, time to begin another round of calls.

~Marinette

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Dear Diary, 

Three months.  It's been three freaking months.

You know, I don't know why, but I always had this feeling as Ladybug that if I went up to the Eiffel Tower and sat there, Chat would see and come to my rescue.  Afterall, I did that for him, and that's what started this whole thing, right?  

So I did that... every single night, even in rain.  And of course, he doesn't come.  What to expect?

Still, I know I'm gonna keep doing it.  Everyday, until things are finally settled again.

Wish me luck, Diary.

~Marinette

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Dear Diary,

Four months have passed.  It's August now, and everyone else is outside enjoying their summers.  What am I doing?

Trying to contact Adrien.  Still.  Every. Single. Day.  And still I get nothing.

I keep assuming the worst has happened, so I go by his house everyday to just make sure he's alive- hey, I don't know what he is capable of in his state.

Oops, I'm late to go check on him today.  Tikki is a little tired right now, so I hope she won't mind.

~Marinette

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Dear Diary,

Five months have gone by and school's started again.  Of course, even though he's enrolled in our class, I didn't see him.  I admit there was still a little part of me that hoped he would show up...

Scrolling through my messages and phone logs, I have over one thousand messages sent and over 200 phone calls.  But, because I've fantasized over this meeting so much, I decided to go with an earlier decision I made and decided to finally do something.  I'm not telling you Diary, I'll be spoiling the surprise!

On a side note, not having bruises and blood all over you definitely makes it easier to walk to school.  

Anyway, have to go give Tikki her cookies.  At least I can do something right.

~Marinette

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Dear Diary, 

I've decided that six months is enough time to wait for Adrien.  I'm going over to his mansion, and I'm busting in whether he likes it or not.  

If he hates me after this, that's fine.  I.. I just need to make sure he's okay.

I'm hoping Plagg will help me.

~Marinette

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Marinette looked back through her diary entries, feeling the nostalgia.  She had just finished writing the last one; tomorrow, she was determined to save the love of her life from his emotions.

When she told everyone she was trying tomorrow, a lot of people said they wanted to as well- her entire class is going again.  Hopefully, they would get different results this time-

Phone.  My phone!

My phone rang!

In a flash, Marinette raced to pick up and unlock her phone.  It was a new message, and her eyes watered when she read the contact name.  The message was not very elaborate at all, nor was it filled with emotion, but just reading it made her want to cry.

I want to see you.

Interesting chapter huh?  I thought this style of writing would be best for this chapter, what are your thoughts??

But yeah, we've reached the end of Chapter 23.  I don't have much to say here, but stay tuned for the next chapter everyone!! :D