~(Y/N)'s POV~ 

     He loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not. Though I have no flower to pluck petals off of, I still repeat this in my processor. The thing is, I know he loves me, and it's hard to show that I love him back in this state. I was a crying mess, trying not to break anything as my vision blurred. When Knockout came into our berthroom, I didn't want to look at him, not because I hate him, but because I didn't want him to see me cry, though I know I did a poor job of hiding my tears. I could feel his sadness when I passed him. How does he hide it so well? If it were anyone else, they wouldn't have noticed his anguish, but I know him better than anyone.

     He doesn't believe this might end in disaster. I'll most likely be locked up like the first time, imprisoned and no longer trusted, though there isn't to much trust in me at this point anyway. I just hope they're all understanding... 

         "Almost ready?" I heard Knockout ask as I picked up my human form, brain-dead and waiting for me to come back to it. 

         "Yeah..." 

He escorted me up to the launch pad of the Nemesis, Soundwave waiting patiently as he stared off to who knows where. He turned once Knockout made our presence known by clearing his voice box. 

         "You have the coordinates, I trust?" Knockout asked, to which Soundwave nodded, and opened a groundbridge. 

I hesitated, turning to Knockout, tears threatening to fall once again. 

         "Knockout I don't want to leave you again..." 

He brought me into his tight embrace, mindful of the human body in my servo. 

         "I-I know..." He placed his chin on the top of my helm, "I don't want to see you go again, but it's for your safety." 

         "S-safety can go t-to the Pit!" I sobbed into his chassis, making him chuckle, the rumble calming me down, but only by a small fraction, "Come with me this time!" 

         "You know I can't do that." 

I nodded, showing my understanding, but that doesn't mean I'll go by myself again. 

         "Will you at least walk with me?" 

         "Sure thing darling." 

I took hold of his servo with my free one. No matter what I wasn't going to let go. I'm not going alone again. 

     We started our way to the groundbridge, it's bright swirling colors almost foreboding, knowing where it lead to. I stopped in front of it, hesitating. I didn't want to go, they won't understand. For all I know they'll think I killed (Y/N) and pretty much sentence Wildstryke to death. Actually that might be an exageration... though there will be questions on why my human body is brain dead if Ratchet does a check up... Bumblebee might not like me anymore, I don't think I could bare not having Raf there asking questions about my street racer life... What a mess this will be. 

         "I'm sorry (Y/N)." 

Turning, I was about to ask Knockout what he meant, but was met with the sudden bombardment of both him and Soundwave, Knockout's servo leaving mine as I stumbled backwards through the Groundbridge. Once I was through, I stood in shock as the swirling vortex disappeared. I heard pede steps behind me, to which I activated my canon, pointing to where I assumed their faceplate to be. When I saw Optimus, I froze, my fear and sadness most prominent as tears sprung to my optics once again. I deactivated my canon, and fell to my knee plates, human body still clutched in my servo. Though I didn't want to cry in front of them, the energon tears thought otherwise as they fell freely. Optimus placed a servo on my shoulder plate. 

         "You are safe with us." 

I don't know that. 

         "Where is the girl?" Ratchet had come.

They still haven't found my name?

     I gently placed my human form beside me on the ground, my (H/L) hair now a mess and a slight bruise forming on my leg just below the shorts I had put on. I was careful not to allow my energon tears to touch the delicate human skin. I watched as Optimus picked my brain-dead body up, and the bag, most likely assuming I was asleep, and somehow not waking up from the intense crying of the femme they know as Wildstryke.

         "Please, you must get up." the baritone voice of Optimus said.

I debated on whether I should listen. I could go off on my own, though I have no resources. Then again I could simply find one of the Decepticon energon mines, it's not like I'll be shot at if I show up. Though there is the problem of my human form... I wish I could just leave it, but I don't know what might happen if I leave for longer than a day. I've always gone back to it after roughly 24 hours, so there's a chance something might go horribly wrong, not to mention the fact that the Autobots will question why I haven't woken up...

     I heard another prodding from Ratchet that I needed to get up, but I wasn't fully listening, either way I did get up, slowly and painfully as my legs were moved from their folded position. I turned my faceplate down, my sobs now small hiccups as I walked just behind Optimus. I found myself once again recoiling to the sound of a groundbridge as Ratchet stepped through. Optimus stopped as he waited for me. I brought my arms around me in a foolish attempt to comfort myself as I hesitated to take those last few steps. I'm alone again.

         "We need to go before any Decepticons come."

Glancing at the Prime, I passed through the groundbridge, being met with an enraged Arcee as she stomped off upon seeing me. Ratchet had just come back from placing my human body in the "bedroom" that was made once again.

         "I suspect she'll wake up within an hour or two..." Ratchet said.

         "I hope so," Bulkhead spoke up, "Miko's gonna want go off-roading when I pick her up."

         "She's not going to wake up." I stated bluntly

         "And how would you know that?"

Looking up, I saw Ratchet's warning in his expression, though I ignored it, and continued. They had to be told somehow, and at some point.

         "Because she's brain-dead, and will be until I go back to my human body."

Silence.

         "I'm afraid you are not making much sense..." Optimus stated before Ratchet could make his angry claims, and I hesitated to explain, but did once the base became quiet once again.

         "My Cybertronian name, is Wildstryke, as you most likely know... but my human name is (Y/N). I'm also known as Knockout on the streets, as I know you all know."

I was once again met with silence. I could tell suspicion, and confusion was rising every moment the deafening silence continued to permeate the atmosphere. I waited for the outburst, looking back toward the floor again. When none came, I turned my attention back up, and found Bee standing in front of me.

         :| So, it was you all along? You were the one who held Arcee and Bulkhead hostage? |:

I nodded.

         "The only reason they were aloud to be liberated back, was because I was no longer there." I explained, "Instead I was here, Knockout's orders." I found it hard to even utter his name as I choked back more tears.

I gazed at the rest of the team, who only stared back in both awe, and confusion.

         "I-if you don't mind... I'll set up my psychic-patch device... and go back to my human body. I'll be a bit easier to handle that way..."

How come all I seem to feel is defeat?

     I started my way to the vault, where I knew my body to be, when I felt someone grab my arm. Looking over, I saw Ratchet, his faceplate showing concern, which I found to be almost disconcerting as I weakly attempted to break his hold.

         "Was this... Was this an experiment?"

I debated whether I should tell him the truth, and found it to be the simplest and fastest way out of the situation.

         "Yes..." I heard small gasps behind him, "But I did it to myself, in order to be on equal ground with Kno... with the Decepticons." I gave one last sigh, and excused myself as I found my vault, and prepared to switch bodies once again, and probably for the last time while I'm here with the Autobots. 

~Knockout's POV~ 

         "It's for your own good, (Y/N)"

(Yeah... took awhile to write this one, but I think the time put in made it that much better! Thanks for sticking with me for so long! Thanks for reading! More to come! )