This is going to be heavy, I'm not gonna lie 😨 also, this song is so fucking beautiful, I love listening to Slipknot, and Snuff has to be one of my favourites 💕 Corey Taylor has a wonderful voice and I've watched videos of him singing this song live and holy shit my feels ;~; k Imma shut up now before I go on a rant 😂

In which Changbin has extreme anger issues, and unfortunately he takes it out on his one and only love, Jisung...

Once again, another night dealing with another one of Changbin's bursts of anger. Glass shattering, plates breaking, yelling, screaming, hitting.

Jisung had had enough of it. He was sick of this. He knew that Changbin loved, he knew but...but this was too much.

Yes, Jisung should have known better than to hang out with his ex boyfriend turned best friend Minho, but he hadn't seen the older in a very long time, and he just wanted to meet up for a coffee and maybe a piece of red velvet cake. Changbin took it way out of context.

"I thought you fucking loved me!" Another glass smashed, and Jisung winced, "isn't that why we're together!? Huh!? Answer me!" Changbin had grabbed him by the shoulders roughly.

"I can't do this anymore" Jisung muttered.

"What did you say?" Changbin growled out, not liking how Jisung spoke under his breath.

"I can't do this anymore!" Jisung exclaimed, shoving Changbin away, "I can't do 'us' anymore" Jisung sighed.

That seemed to snap Changbin out of his rage, and his expression changed drastically from angry to shocked.

"W-what?" Changbin stuttered.

"You heard me Changbin" Jisung huffed, "I'm done. I'm sick of dealing wig you stupid anger problems. So what if I hung out with Minho huh? He's my best friend, idiot, and he was one hell of a boyfriend too, better than you" Jisung spat.

Jisung was upset and tired, he didn't really mean those words...

Or did he?

"Jisung, Sungie, p-please don't leave, I-I'm sorry" Changbin whimpered, looking genuinely sincere.

Jisung knew Changbin truly was sorry, but he just couldn't handle it any longer. He had to leave, because it was toxic. It was a toxic relationship, they both knew that, but still Changbin couldn't bare the thought of living without Jisung.

Jisung had stopped him from committing suicide years ago. He was the sole reason Changbin was still living and breathing, but just the thought of Jisung leaving him made it hard to breathe.

"If you're really sorry, and if you really love me, you'd let me go Changbin" Jisung's voice wavered slightly.

He honestly didn't want to leave, but it was for their own good. Or maybe, he was just doing this to save himself. Maybe he was running away to save himself, and to leave Changbin to rot here, alone.

Changbin fell onto his knees, staring up at Jisung with tears in his eyes.

"I really am sorry...you know that right? P-please don't leave me like they did...I need you" Changbin sniffled.

Jisung swallowed the lump in his throat as he glanced down at Changbin.

"I know you're sorry, but I just can't Binnie, I'm sorry too" Jisung shook his head, sighing softly as he turned around and went to walk out the door.

"Sungie, please, come back here, please" Changbin's voice was thick with sadness.

Jisung halted his steps for a few moments, but he said nothing. The younger then walks out of the door and out into the street, closing the door softly behind him beforehand.

Changbin stays in that position for a little while longer, before practically crawling over to the kitchen to pick up the pieces of glass and broken plates. The mess around him basically represented his shattered heart.

'I deserve this...I'm so stupid...why am I like this? Maybe I should just give up...I'm not worth it' Changbin's mind was slowly filling up with self destructive thoughts, and he began to get a bit sleepy.

He was exhausted, mentally and physically. He didn't even fully realise it, but he fell asleep in the still messy kitchen, leaning up against one of the cabinets.

The next morning, Jisung had come to get his stuff. After much thought, he decided he'd stay away from Changbin for a week or so, because he didn't have the heart to just...end it like that. He realised that Changbin needed help, and Jisung was too selfish to see that.

However, he was quite shocked when he heard soft snores coming from the kitchen. Jisung frowned, wandering over to the kitchen. His frown softened into a sad look. There was Changbin, curled up against one of the cabinets, dried tears on his cheeks and his currently closed eyes red and puffy. Jisung crouched down, shaking Changbin awake.

"Binnie, wake up. C'mon, I'll help you clean up" Jisung whispered.

Changbin groaned softly, his eyes fluttering opened as he nodded slowly, yawning. Jisung helped him up, and the both wandered around the kitchen, picking up everything they could, being careful not to cut themselves, and Jisung swept up the rest.

"You can get your stuff and leave now" Changbin's voice sounded dead and tired.

Jisung turned around, wanting to just say 'okay, but I will be back' but Jesse how broken Changbin actually was. The older of the two really didn't mean to get so angry. He's just always been like that, and it landed him in alot of trouble ahem he was younger.

"I realise that...I don't deserve you, and you deserve alot better" Changbin forced himself to smile, "you deserve to be happy without having to deal with my uncontrollable anger" Changbin's smile fell as he ran a hand through his dark hair and sighed heavily.

Jisung shook his head, not trusting his voice enough to speak, fearing he'd say something stupid. The younger walked over to the slightly shorter male, Changbin giving him a very confused expression.

"What are you-mmpf" Jisung had cut him off by leaning in and kissing him softly.

Changbin's eyes were wide for a few seconds and he was basically frozen before he relaxed and kissed back, his arms coming up to wrap around Jisung's neck. Jisung's hands rested on Changbin's hips as the kiss grew more passionate. Jisung was the one to break the kiss when air was needed, leaning his forehead against Changbin's.

"I'm sorry Binnie, I've been so selfish. You...you need someone who would be there for you and help you help yourself, and I didn't do that. I'm sorry" Jisung whispered.

"I'm sorry too. I honestly never mean to hurt you, it just...happens" Changbin leaned his head away, staring into Jisung's eyes, "I'll get help, I promise. I'll go to therapy sessions, I'll get medication for it, and I'll try my best to change, for you. I love you 'Sungie" Changbin was crying again, but only tears fell.

"I love you too Binnie" Jisung chuckled softly before capturing Changbin's lips in another passionate kiss.

OOF guys, I was so close to being like 'sike, nah, Jisung didn't come back and Changbin ended up killing himself 😈' but I didn't because I didn't want y'all to hate me and this was heavy enough for me OOF TBH, I nearly cried whilst writing this, not gonna lie 🙄