Alexs POV

"Why isn't she crying?" I repeat. A nurse takes my crying daughter away from me while Austin picks up my other daughter. "Austin?" I ask. Tears fall down Jacks face, his body wracked with silent sobs. After five minutes of checking, Austin looks at us with a grave expression.

"Don't do it." I warn. "Whatever you're about to say, don't say it. Please, just...don't." Jack is still as stone in my arms. "What do you want me to say Alex? That she's alive and happy just asleep?" He asks. "Yes!" I shout. Jack starts to shake again.

"I'm sorry." Austin says. "Whatever." Jack says. I stare at him in shock, his face a little blurry. "Do you know why?" He asks. Austin shakes his head, then pauses. "Actually...remember when you came in after that fight with Andy?"

"Yeah?"

...

"I'm gonna kill him!" Jack screams. "Jack, babe calm down! We have to look after..." I realise she doesn't have a name. "Melody Jasmine Gaskarth Barakat." Jack says. I look at him. "Actually, how about Melody Jasmine Gaskarth?" He looks at me confused. Breathing deeply I get down on one knee.

"Yes, yes!" He squeals. "Hold on, I haven't asked yet." I laugh "Jack Bassam Barakat"

"Yes"

"Jac-"

"Yes yes!"

"Really?"

"Yes"

"JackBassamBarakatwillyoumarryme?"

"Yes!" Grinning I slip the ring on his finger as a nurse slips in with Melody. "Hey beautiful girl." Jack murmers. I smile and notice Austin beckoning me. Tiptoeing away I say "yes?"

"What are we gonna do about..."

"Sapphire."

"Sapphire?"

"She's called Sapphire Marina Gaskarth."

"Ok. Well what do you want to do about Sapphire?"

"I think," I look at Jack and Melody. He's going to be an amazing mom, yes we talked about it, he's mom, I'm dad. "I think we should hold a funeral and she should be cremated," my words stick in my throat and I tremble. "I'd rather she was kept with us rather than be six feet under."

Tears roll down my cheeks. The way Jack is with Melody, holding her, singing to her makes me wish I had Sapphire. I already love them both. They say you never get over losing a child, I know I never will.

"Alex!" Jack calls me over. Wiping my tears and plastering a smile on my face, I walk over. Jack passes Melody over to me and at the same time whispers "You don't have to pretend. Just let the tears out, the more you fake the smile and the more you repress those feelings, the less you'll be there for Mel." My smile falters and I start to sob.

Clutching Melody to my body I let my fat, hot tears run onto her little baby grow. As if sensing my pain Melody cries as well, curling into my chest. I sink onto the bed, cuddling into Jack with Mel inbetween us. I feel his tears flow through my hair but I don't care. We need each other. I'm never gonna let them go.

Three weeks later and it's Sapphire's funeral. "Baby you don't have to do this." Jack whispers. Melody is asleep in her carrier next to him. I feel like I have been hit by this harder than Jack. Melody will understand as she grows up and I'll be there for her but I feel like it's my fault. I've never told Jack because I know he would deny it. If I hadn't upset him, if he hadn't left, if I hadn't pissed off Andy then maybe she'll still be alive, maybe I'll still have my daughter in my arms and not in a box, waiting to be burnt.

"Alex, it's not your fault." Jack says.

"I never said that."

"But you were thinking it." I shake my head, how does he know? Does he know about Andy? I hope not. If he knew I beat the living shit out of him, Ashley, Jake, Jinxx and CC then he'd be pissed. He told me not to but do I listen? Fuck no! Especially when it comes to my dead daughter.

"You're up." Jack whispers. Clearing my throat I stand up and walk down the aisle and up to Sapphire. Picking up a chair I put it next to her and look at her and no one else.

"Sapphire Marina Gaskarth. I always hoped that when I walked up this aisle it would on your arm and I'm walking you to your future husband or wife and not up here. I always hoped I would help you get ready for dates and tell you all about what I would do to anyone who broke your heart. I would always help you organise shit with your friends and laugh when you swore and tell you not to because I'm meant to be a 'responsible' parent, fuck that shit! I love you so much baby and I'm so sorry we never got to spend any time together. One day I will see you again and we will have forever. Forever and always.

Time to lay claim to the evidence
Fingerprints sell me out but our footprints' washed away
From the docks downtown
It's been getting late for days
And I feel myself deserving of a little time off

We can kick it, hang for hours
And just mouth off about the world
And how we know it's going straight to hell

Pass me another bottle, honey
The Jager's so sweet
But if it keeps you around, then I'm down

Meet me on Thames Street, I'll take you out
Though I'm hardly worth your time
In the cold you look so fierce
But I'm warming up because the tension's like a fire

We'll hit South Broadway in a matter of minutes
And like a bad movie I'll drop a line
Fall in the grave I've been digging myself
But there's room for two, six feet under the stars

I should have known better than to call you out
(On a night like this, night like this)
If not for you, I know I'd tear this place to the ground
(But I'm alright like this, alright like this)
I'm gonna roll the dice before you sober up and get gone
I'm always in over my head

Thames Street, I'll take you out
Though I'm hardly worth your time
In the cold you look so fierce
But I'm warming up because the tension's like a fire

We'll hit South Broadway in a matter of minutes
And like a bad movie I'll drop a line
Fall in the grave, I've been digging myself
But there's room for two, six feet under the stars

Time to lay claim to the evidence
Fingerprints sell me out
But our footprints' washed away
I'm guilty but I'm safe for one more day

Overdressed and underage
Do you really need to see an ID?
This is embarrassing as hell
But I can cover for it so well
When we're six feet under the stars

Thames Street, I'll take you out
Though I'm hardly worth your time
In the cold you look so fierce
But I'm warming up because the tension's like a fire

We'll hit South Broadway in a matter of minutes
And like a bad movie I'll drop a line
Fall in the grave I've been digging myself
But there's room for two, six feet under the stars

Six feet under the stars
Six feet under the stars"

I don't wait for anyone to say anything. Instead I just kiss Sapphire's head, run up to Jack and Mel, kiss them both and run out the church. Tears blind me, my vision blurry, my heart pounding in my ears. I don't hear the horn or the shouts, don't see the sleek, black car. I only feel it slam into my side, the gravel stab into my flesh and the rain splashing onto my blood stained skin.

It's over. I have ideas for a sequel but I won't write it unless you want me to. I don't know who's reading these but if you want another one, please tell me! Thank you all so much for reading, it really means a lot :) xox

falling_skies_x should I make a part 2?