Hey guys.

I had my first panic attack today!!! (I mean I think it was)

So I was at a Canaries (the select choir group I'm in) and she asked for people who wanted to audition for a solo (the only solo for Canaries in this season, there are solos for the grade choir). I raised my hand.

My brain:

"Okay, okay. I'll sign up, I'll have time to practice, and I'll try it!"

but then the music teacher calls the first girl up

My brain NOW:

"WAIT WHAT SHE'S DOING IT NOW AHHHHH IMMA FAIL AND NOOOOO IM NOT READY AHHHHH!"

So thats what was going on in my brain. That escalated VERY quickly, like, 0.9 seconds

As each girl went up (there were about 9 of us who wanted to do it), I felt my chest hurting, my breath hitching and going quicker, my heart beating faster, and my body visibly shaking (well I thought so).

When it was my turn, I was shaking, and I was still panicking, but I made it through

And not to be rude to the others, but I think I was actually the best one. 

1, all of the girls had REALLY quiet voices except for me and this one other girl 

(GUESS WHO IT WAS?!?! That's right, Bertha the endless trash pit! But she missed a coupe of notes so I think I'm good)

2, I think I had the most... feeling... in my voice (except for one other girl, but she was really quiet)

3, I got the most comments and congrats I think. Wherever I went, everyone said "great job!" or "u did great!!" or "wow you can really sing!"

I think I have a pretty good chance!

But she might pick the people in the grade higher than me (I'm in the second highest grade) because they "have less time in this choir".

If I get it, it can be a good or a bad thing tho

Good: I mean, if I get it, I achieved my goal and got it!

Bad: JESUS CHRIST HERE COMES PANIC ATTACK 2.0!!!!!!!

I'll update and make a quick chapter when we get results back!

Comment what you think about this. Do you think I might get the part?