These events occurred after the events of Sam accidentally killing Orb in me and LynneDa_Wolf 's rp-

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No... No no no no no no...

My thoughts were swirling with the word 'No'. I couldn't think straight.

Lucinda's words rang in my head, "Yes, yes, yes, indeed! How could you be an angel and a 'goody-two-shoes' when you just commited a murder yourself!". 

I'm no angel. I don't deserve to be up there with Connor. I deserve to suffer. I'm a failure. I killed an innocent creature. He had a future. A life ahead of him. And I killed him. 

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I promise it was all an accident. 

I can't breath right anymore- 

Everything is so blurry- 

I'm dizzy.

I can smell his blood on my hands. 

I can't speak. 

I want to go back. I want to redo everything. I want this to have never happened. 

I'm sorry, Orb Weaver..