Guys...

i get it.

I get it if you hate role playing with my cringey bbieal characters and the AU.

I get it if you really hate bbieal and just rp to make me happy.

I get it if Penny-The-Gay-Clown just wastes her time making a pointless and terrible person like me happy, because she's bored.

I get it if you think I'm bossy and overpowering.

I get it if you hate me.

I get it if you have unfollowed me because I'm addicted to bbieal.

Ik underlusttt isn't interested in me anymore.

It's just like SugarSweets9987.

Close friends would move on, ignore your interests, and you have to care for them when no one else will.

I'm like that.

I'm that immature person that won't grow up and move on.

I want everyone to be interested in what I'm interested in.

I want everyone to be happy with me.

That's how the fight with me and (user in comments) started to fight.

Until I decided to give up. And grow up a bit.

And stopped being my immature self.

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I get why hardly anyone bothers with me. I get why my videos hardly get veiws in the double digits.

I get why my books suck.

I get why I'm a judgmental piece of shit.

I'm really a sick person that tries to be that one person on the internet that makes people laugh.

Saying that makes me laugh.

Who cares whatever chapter I post?

It's just some bbieal trash no one would bother to care about.

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I like it when people like JaseekaDarkblade2020 are interested in the things I like, such as bbieal.

I like it when people rp with me the way I like it.

I hate it when I get to controlling and spoiled to the point when they leave me and I act like a baby trying to get them back.

I hate how people like Blazcklight Cupspirit47 and MxggerTheNxko don't give me any attention.

Like I deserve any.

I hate how no one likes what I like.

I hate this chapter.

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I might go on hiatus for a while.

I'm sorry that this chapter was SO incredibly edgy.

I truly am a retarted attention whore, aren't I?