I have been MIA on Wattpad for a few months now. Mostly off and on since I had gotten a new job with kids back in July. Just recently I have left this job, to go back to CiCi's Pizza as a manager. CiCi's was my first job that I had started back in 2018. My mental health plummeted as I was working with the kids for the past six months, and it wasn't because I couldn't handle the job, but rather I had felt discriminated against in the workplace, and I was very unhappy. I was not doing my schoolwork, I had no motivation to do anything, and spent most of my freetime sleeping. My depression was getting worse, and I had just felt numb, it was hard, and I struggled to push through every single day. And I did, I made it through the months without any self harming incidents, because I was sleeping everytime I had a moment of rest.

I start my official manager training on the first of the new year, and shall I say, I am ecstatic. I am finally happy again, and ready for a new adventure that awaits me.  during the past six months, and my first semester of college. I was so out of it, and not caring that I slacked on my schoolwork, I slacked on it extremely bad. Everytime I had tried to do it, I fell asleep instead, I didn't do anything, and I am now on academic probation. I am struggling to find motivation to continue, because it is going to be really hard and extenuating to get myself out of this academic slump, but I am positive I can achieve it eventually. 

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