Rae Sremmurd- Look Alive
Today was the day. The day that I fall into dooms arms. The day I finally jump off the cliff of denial. The day ​I meet my mate or so I hope not. Dae says that there is a acute chance that I may not meet my mate but she says it's very unlikely.
So today was the big day I had to get all dolled up for a man that I might not even like. I just a pretty little doll for him to toy with all he wants. Nope sorry I ain't going to take that I am not going to be a mate that submits just because he is the man in the situation.
I am not going to be the perfect wife that wears house wife clothes, never goes, cooks dinner, is there in when my man wants me (if you know what I mean.), Produce children non-stop then potentially rip my hair out because I have way to many and no one to share the load.
Nope if I am going to be in a relationship it's not going to be one sided.
Me and my sister don't get along on many things but one thing is how the relationship is going to be. And even though when she was explaining mates to me when she spoke so highly of them. Even this girl had some pretty rough expectation but I guess your mate is supposed to be your perfect match so I guess it will be just fine.
Meanwhile my wolf in my head wouldn't leave me alone. The whole time she kept saying 'we're gonna meet our mate we're gonna meet our mate.' God be my witness I will kill her.
How are you going to kill me. I am in your head I connected​ to you mentally so if I were to have to die you would die too. She replied pride radiating off her.
"Oh don't worry I'll find a way even if it kills me."
And it will. She mumbled
"I'll find a way."
But still we are going to meet our mate.
"Correction, your mate he is not bound to me. Without you I'd be a perfectly fine person and date someone, fall in love, get married, hav-" I was saying but was interrupted by my wolf.
Boring, it's easy. We submit, give him what he wants, and we get what we want. Unlimited humping.
"Woah, okay that's what you want. And won't I be in control during you know."
Sex, yeah but when stuff get really hardcore you will lose control and I will take control because of my animalistic needs.
"You dirty dog"
Yes, yes I am. I'm​ also related to the dog. So yeah I guess I am a dirty dog.
I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about meeting the supposed love of my life. What happens if he's abusive. Or worst of all what if he rejects me.
Dae told about the other unhappier things that happen in the mating process​. For instance if your mate doesn't like you the can simply say 'I State your full name reject your mates full name as my mate.'
From there things go pretty much down hill. There is slot of denial, fighting yelling and screaming, crying for both parties, then if things take a turn and someone gets​ a good pounding (if you know what I mean.) The there is usually some unrejection going on. And all it is, is what you said before just replace reject with unreject. So it's pretty simple.
Right now I am getting dressed. I had on my blue and gold dress and dark blue Mary Jane wedges that we had bought at the store. I went over to my vanity and decided on a dull pink for my lips and pink lip gloss. I then added gold eyeshadow with a little bit of mascara.
And for a person who has never wore make up I sure did a hell of a job. I looked myself up and down in my full length mirror outside of my bathroom. And even I have to say I look hot. In school I had never been the one to walk around half naked talk to all the guys and have butt loads of friends. At school I was the known nerd. Kept to themselves, studied non stop, wear plaid skirts and white button ups, big glasses, brace. I was the whole package. So I don't know what brought this wave of change in me.
We didn't talk much about the incident that occurred. And really I've been glad even though I will probably never forget that moment. When you say it out loud it just hurts more. I just want to forget about they day in time. Just want to let go but unfortunately as my wolf has told me before I over react. So I guess I'll just have to deal with.
My brothers are choosing to stay home from the ball because they actually have a choice. Since they have changed into a wolf they could find their mate but they have decided not to.
If only I had a choice I would not be going I haven't even shifted into my wolf. But Dae said that most females don't usually change untill their seventeen and most that do die and I am not saying that this isn't sexist but it was just the way that she explained it to me.
Oh stop complaining, the only thing that matters is that you're going to meet your mate and you have to look like a sex god.
"Umm how bout hell no and I just go like this."
Yes, go like that if you want him to think your a trash bag.
"You know what fuck you. Over here being hella rude like who the fuck she think she is." I said the last part to myself.
Girl you is so stupid. I can hear your thoughts.
Well I guess I never thought of it like that. I knew she was in my head but I didn't think she could hear my thoughts.
How the fuck do you think you've been talking to me.
"Hey no need to be mean, I just wasn't thinking."
You're never think you weren't thinking when I first came to talk to you, your weren't thinking when your sister was explaining the supernatural, you weren't thinking when your grandmother told you to be home before dark, and you're not thinking now. When you have you ever thought about your actions and the consequences. You never do because your just like your mother. Rash.
And the presence in my head was gone. I just sit there frozen in time trying to figure out what just happened we were joking around I got a little offended, then she went all ape-shit crazy. Just started speaking the cold truth, but most of the time I am telling her she's not taking things seriously.
"What on Earth just happened." Was all I managed to say.
As I finished dressing adding small touch ups every now and then. But I just kept thinking about what my wolf said 'when have you ever thought about your actions ... you're rash just like your mom.' what the fuck happened there. Why is so pissed right now.
I was broken out of my train of thought by opening the door. "the car is he-" and looked at me like she had seen a ghost.
"What is wrong is it my hair, my make up is smudged isn't it." I said ​suddenly becoming more self conscious.
"Wow, you actually look nice."
"I always look nice. What are you talking about."
"Oh nothing, the car is out front we need to leave before they drag us out." She laughed as she said that jokingly. But her laughter soon faded as she was probably thinking about how they would literally drag us out.
"Alrighty then, let's go." I said as I stood up from my bedroom.
We walked to the elevator where I seen their were already Girls and women of different ages and looks Standing by the elevator and others walking down the stairs. Some of the older women where talking to the younger girls. Most looking estatic others​looking as though they didn't want to be here.
"I feel your pain." I thought in my head.
Once me and Dae got to the elevator it was very crowded and mostly because this one girl had this neon pink and green puffy dress. And to tell you the truth it looked ugly as fuck.
Even that yellowish orange colored jump suit looked better. But I wasn't going to say anything.
Once we finally got out of the lobby. There were more lines one for the men the other for the women. We were slowly moving up in a line we're there was this tall very intimidating woman standing there with a frown plastered on her face. She looked as I felt I wanted to be anywhere else but here, but I covered mine with a convincing smile.
Once I got up to the women, I seen she had a table of roses one side red the other side white. As I looked over At the boys side they were just grabbing a purple orchid and walking away. As I was totally confused on what was going on the lady asked me a question.
"Are you a virgin?" She asked and I was tempted to ask why but Dae nudged me as I turned around she gave me a pointed look and mouthed 'don't'
I looked to see an even more agitated women.
"Yes." I answered and I felt blood rushing to my cheeks. She turned to her table and handed me a white rose. I take the rose look at it akwardly. And then put it in my hair that was already had some other gold designs.
After me and Dae got our white roses we just basically walked to a car that had its door open which can't be good because what happens if our driver is a rapist or something.
Look you're over reacting again. My wolf said in my head but I ignored her.
Oh so you're not going to talk ​to me. I stayed silent.
You know what I don't want to talk to you either.
"You were the one who started it."
Ah so she does speak. So I stopped talking again. Fine I'm sorry I got mad at you earlier for no reason. It's just you don't understand I've been apart of your life since you were 10 I was your consciousness​. And I seen the way all kids those treated you, and you only deserve the best. We deserve the best. She paused for a moment and it sounded like she was sobbing. I am just disappointed you are not pushing the point like I am. Do you not remember feeling like shit, like everyone hated you, no one wanted you, like you were a freaking of nature, a mishap?
"I do remember but if you want to push a point to me just tell me don't yell at me."
Okay
"I am sorry".
For what?
"For being so self-conceited, for not caring about how you feel. For pretending like you didn't exist. I am sorry for blocking you out now I feel like those kids. I am really sorry."
It's fine Thanks just​, try to love him,... As okay just try.
And she left and by that time we had pulled up to a large mansion an it looked to be something of the Victorian era. The driver got out from his side and opened the door bowing in respect​. I got out holding my dress so I would step on it and trip and ruin my whole life.
We walk into the ballroom and I automatically see men and women talking, emaculant dresses and suits, a large bird ice sculpture was standing by a sort of fountain. I stare in awe and Dae behind just has an impressed look like she's​. Like ​she's seen something like this, I highly doubt it. But it could be true because it turns out there is alot I don't know.
We head over to a corner where I will be hiding the rest of the night and maybe​ walk over to the food table and eat or something.
Then the lady that gave me my rose walked on stage wearing a very formal red dress with the brightest smile. Are all supernatural things bipolar.
"Hello ladies and gentlemen, it is a pleasure to be hear hosting the this year's annual ball." There as clapping from all around the room. "As you may all know when that clock strikes twelve," she pointed to a golden and silver decorated clock mounted on the wall across the room.
"Hopefully, all of you will find your mate. And I don't like to speak a bad Omen over people so I will say today you will meet your mate. Till then please enjoy." And she walked off the stage. Classic ballroom dancing music was playing.
As time went on there seemed nothing to do here some people were dancing on the floor while others were laughing while talking to friends. And the there was me sitting there with my sister not wanting to do anything but sit there and think about my life choices.
After sitting there for a while I had to use the bathroom after I asked one of the guards which way to the ladies room I headed towards the bathroom and did my business and walked back to the ballroom to find Dae not sitting in a chair but standing by the table drinking what looked to be wine while looking at the dance floor.
"What are you doing over here?" I questioned. And no I wasn't mad just afraid that she had left this lame ball without me.
"Nothing I just got up because my legs started to go numb so I got up to stand and then I seen some of these cookies and and wine so I got some food and waited for you."
"Okay what time is it though."
"11:59" she said cool as if it was no big deal that in one minute we would meet our mate. Then the counting started. Oh maybe less
Ten!
Nine!
Eight!
Seven!
Six!
Five!
Four!
Three!
Two!
One!
There was a chime then a couple of seconds people looking frantically for their mates. A moment of silence then two.
That's when I heard the roar a man was burst through the crowd as he screamed the word 'mine' he ran to a girl Who was small and had her head down short brunette hair and she was wearing a white rose.
She looked to see the man running towards her and smiled, when he was really close to her he slowed down and looked at her the kissed her passonitely.
The room erupted with howls and 'yeahs' and 'awes' and I could see.why the were a perfect match and it looked like they already loved each other.
They were more screaming and yelling as men from all across the room ran towards women kissing them heavily others leaving, I think I even saw a couple getting it on in the corner.
I stand there with Dae as we watch the ballroom empty more and more till there was only a handful​of people who were leaving with there. As I stand there I take a sigh of relief me and Dae didn't have mates this year. That was untill I heard a loud growl and I looked to see a guy  with pale skin and freckles all over his face, short shiny white hair and pale blue eyes runs for Dae I see his eyes darken as he got closer.
And Dae looked really happy and I was happy for her too he got up to her and kissed her and when they pulled away they looked at each other with the most love I have ever seen.
"Before we leave I have to wait for my alpha, for he knows that this is the year he shall find his mate." He smiles sadly at Dae, Dae looks at me.
" Well I guess this is goodbye."
"Yeah I guess so."
"Take care of the boys okay and tell them that I love them. And remember I always love you." She started crying and gave me and big bear hug.
"I love you too." And I hugged her back.
"We better go wait in the car because when he doesn't find his mate he's going to want to leave right away." He said
"Please just take care of yourself." She said and gave me a kiss on the forehead. And she left with her mate I just smiled sadly as they walked away.
As a way to cope I turned around and started to eat some of the food to instead of sulking. And yeah I know it sounds like a bad habit. But I'm going to do it anyway.
You know what I never really wanted a mate anyway so whatever, I would just take care of my brothers and never come back to this wretched ball ever again.
As I am thinking to myself ​I feel a pair of eyes staring holes into the back of my head. I turn around to the most handsome man I will probably ever lay eyes on. He had short black hair, and forest green eyes, his hair was done lazily raven black locks covered ​some of his eye making him look extra hotn. I could see some of his muscles through his tuxedo and I liked that he had muscles but didn't have to many he had the perfect amount​ his skin was a light brown color like mine so I knew he wasn't a vampire.
As I look at him and I think this is such a beautiful creation this is what God has made. But to bad it's not for me. And plus I couldn't have a mate, I have to take care of my brothers.
As I was lost in thought I hadn't noticed his advancement towards me he looked like a predator stalking his prey, and even I have to say it was kinda turning me on.
His eyes changed color as he walked closer it looked as if they were almost black. He began to take bigger strides and walk faster.
He was I front of me an did looked up at him and in my head my wolf was screaming something may, or meet, or ma, or was it mate. And that's when he said those faithful words, the words I never thought I'd hear today, the words that would change my life.
"Mate, you are mine."
And all I could think in my head was. I really don't need this right now. But all that came out was.
"Oh shit."
My mate looked at me confused as to why I must of cursed I had an urge to give him the rundown of things but I was so shocked and all I could think to do was run.
So that's exactly what I did I made a b-line straight from the doors I made it a point in my brain not to look back but I did anyway, I could see he was right on my tail. I was actually surprised I could run fast in this dress even though I was getting tired of holding the dress if I didn't want to fall I would continue to hold on to it and run.
When I finally made it to the doors I pushed them open with as much force in could and the door flew open to couples all around talking but they all stopped, when I came out.
breathing heavily ran down the street to see him not far behind me I ran all the way past the cars and people then I seen my sister with her mate having a conversation. I ran as fast as my feet could carry me to her she looked at me and when she seen me she had a worried look on her face.
I ran to her and she tried to ask me what happened but I was quick to go behind her and use her as my human shield​ well, supernatural shield as I look for him my sister continues ​to ask me.
What happened?
What's wrong? But all I did was point in front of us a couple feet away.
My mate a very angry but attractive mate walking towards us my sister stands up straighter and puts her hands behind her back protectively, protecting me from him.
He looked at us confused but Dae straightened even more becoming taller as telling him she wasn't going to move, but he only got angrier and growled at her. She growled back more viciously if that was even possible.
I hear a very low whisper of Dae's mate saying something to himself or talking to someone but they both seemed to be out of it. Dae's mate broke out first and said.
"Stand down." My sister looked at him but keeping my mate in the corner of her eye I however was keeping an eye on him fully.
"What?" She asked a bit angry.
"I said stand down." He stated a bit louder.
"No, I don't care who he thinks he is, I am not moving or abandoning my sister."
"I demand you to stand down." He sort of yelled but not to loud but enough to make her cower a bit and when she flinched I had about had it.
"No you stand down and don't EVER talk to my sister like that, or you will be signing your death certificate." I said with anger and you might have thought that I was pissed, oh no I wasn't​ even warm yet.
"She's my mate and I tell her what she can and can't do." He said.
"You mother fucker you will not tell my sister anything of the sort. She's not a piece of property so get that through your thick head. She is not yours she is not mine she is not his she's her own person and If so much as see you look at her the wrong way I will make sure you wish you hadn't. Do you understand?"
He growled at me and was about to protest but I stopped him. "I said are we clear." Me getting angrier and I have to admit even I sound intimidating.
I hadn't even noticed I was hovering over him and he looked scared and nodded.
When I was done talking to him I looked to see a very surprised looking Dae and my mate looking shocked​.
"Please I am sorry for whatever I did just don't run from me for you are mine, you are my Luna, and my mate."
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