A savior is someone who saves another. 

You are my savior.

I've tried to figure out a way to tell you this for a while now since I'm not very good at putting thoughts into words. I'm not very good at expressing my emotions. But I'm going to try. Just so you know how much you saved me.

I'll put it bluntly, I wanted to die. I wanted to leave and never return. I was ready, I had plans. I was going to turn my back on humanity and never return. My world was falling apart around me and no one cared. Not one single person. Not when they had their own issues to deal with. Not when the drama at school was more important then me. I fell into a state of blankness. I was blank. I didn't even bother with a mask. No one noticed anyways. They told me I was fine, that I was pretending to have depression. But I wasn't depressed. It was worse then that.

And then I met you. And at first I was wary, cautious even. I was reluctant to tell you certain things because I didn't want you to leave like the others. But you didn't leave. You stayed. And you cared. You gave me something l had never had before. It scared me in the beginning, the new things that I had never had before. And I'm not going to lie, I'm still a little bit scared now. I'm still scared that even after all this time you'll leave me. But this isn't about me, this is about you.

You're my savior, my light. The only thing that keeps me going at this point. You're the only thing I'm living for. I don't know what I would do without you.

You're my savior. And I thank you for that. I thank you for everything you've ever done for me. I thank you for catching me when I fell. I thank you for being there for me when no one else was. I thank you for giving me a reason to live. I thank you for it all.

And I know I'm a few days late in writing this. I was going to do it a few days ago. I wasn't entirely sure if I should or not. I'm still not sure. But I don't know how else to tell you. So, I do apologize if this wasn't the right way to handle it.

You're my savior. Please don't ever forget that.

Peace for now. Stay alive.
9/10/18