You have all these expectations for me that I will never fulfill. I have never been the person that you want me to be and I never will be that person. You can't change me so stop trying. You always told me to never grow up. But now, you get mad and say I need to be mature and act like I'm an adult. The thing is, I'm not an adult. And do you really want me to act like all the other girls my age? Wearing slutty clothes and too much makeup? Is that how you want me to be? You told me that I should always be myself, no matter what. But here we are with you trying to change me. 

You expect me to be a certain person. You expect me to automatically know things. You expect me to be something I'm not. You expect me to be perfect. You expect me to never do something wrong. You expect too much of me. 

I will never fit the mold that you have created for me. I will never be the person you are trying to force me to be. I will never care what you or anyone else thinks. I will only change for the person that is worth changing for. And it just so happens that, I am the only one worth changing myself for. If I want to change, then I will change. Only I can make that decision. You can't make it for me. 

No matter how hard you will try, I will never change. Not for you, not for a boy, not for a teacher, not for anyone. If you don't like me, fuck off. I don't give a shit about your opinion. I know who I am and that's all that matters. 

You can expect whatever you want from me. It's not gonna happen. I will wear my knee-high socks if I want to. I'll wear mismatched clothes of I want to. I will play tag at lunch break if I want to. I will do whatever the fuck I want, and you can't change that. You. Can't. Change. Me. 

8/24/18 

Peace for now. Stay alive.