Sienna Stone

His words have stunned me. I didn't know what or how to react at such a request, or was it an order? Doesn't matter, all I know is deep down his words had affected me immensely.  Like spilling hot water down my body then the chill air cooling it off and giving me shivers down my spine.

I remember Greta saying something about him sharing, hell, I remember that talk me and Donovon had that one day about them sharing with one woman in the past.

Was I...

Into that?

Could I...no, would I like being shared?

It's like one of those things where you believe you are that type of person until the opportunity happens...what reaction could one have?

So I did one thing that probably would have you think, I'm one hot mess.

"Hold on." I say and press the mute button on the phone.

Yes, I just did that. I have put Nico on hold after he just told me to let Donovon touch me. To be fair, we are outside in the cold and in a treeline outside of a party.

I look up to Don as he is now so close, his eyes intently watching me, "car...let's go to the car." I announce with a shaky breath. Grabbing ahold of his arm and force ourselves away from the trees and back to the bonfire. Laughter rings around the air as I tug him along with me until we get close, "hey guys! Want to play another game!?" Sam calls out to us, waving her hand.

Honestly, I wasn't having all that much fun...is it bad that I think now all this seems pointless? I mean, they are all the same age as me but at what point does someone find out that they'd rather be content with a homestead life, staying home, watching anime, reading books. That was me through and through, my college life was over a about a year ago. That life had made me miserable. I think the reason why I wanted to come in the first place was because I was thrilled to actually have someone invite me, as a friend.

So yes I'm going to blow them off but that doesn't mean I don't want to lose what's in front of me. So I tell her, "we are leaving but you and the rest are more than welcome to come by my place during the New Year and we can have a small get together."

I wanted badly for her to say yes. I wanted their company, I couldn't dismiss the opportunity, or I'd end up being lonely if my husband or the twins are busy one day.

Sam smiles, "of course!" She looks to Ryan, Jude, and Ari, "sounds fun huh guys?"

They all nod. My chest heaves out in relief, "great! I'll see you all soon!" I wave them off, grabbed my purse and tug Don with me.

Don hasn't said a single word as I practically barge through the crowded house, until we finally made it out the front door and towards the car that's parked along the side of the street. The car is black on black, tinted windows so dark it's like painted black. So no one can see inside the backseat windows.

I open the back door and whirl around to grab Donovon by his arms and push him into the back. He grunts, "what are you--?" He is cut off by me climbing in behind him and slamming the door shut. Continuing to climb on his lap and straddle him. I pick up my phone and unmute my husband...

"Did you seriously put me on mute?" Nico grumbles.

I giggle, "sorry, I just wanted to find a spot for us to be alone."

"Alone? You are not home?" He questions.

Oops, forgot I didn't mention the party to him, "um yeah."

"Sienna." He starts chastising but I cut him off.

"Do you really want Donovon too touch me? Are you sure you want that? Are you absolutely okay with that? Does he need a condom?? Because I don't have any on me..." I blurt out, flushing. Don gives me an intriguing expression as I blush like a hot tomato in his arms. His smile breaks free and my heart thumps to life seeing how beautiful he looks with that smile on. He didn't look the slightest bit his age when doing so. He looks...younger and care free.

I hear Nicolai chuckle deeply to my hesitated thoughts that spews out, "baby, I wouldn't have told you to let him touch you if it'd bother me. Remember what I said before I left?"

Donovon will accompany you with all your needs.

Guess he meant my pleasure as well.

"And for condoms, well, the twins have had vecetemies years ago. Since they are devoted into the Russian laws of taking place as my men. They decided since they wouldn't be married or have a family they both got one. I didn't want them too incase they regret such a decision but they told me they decided full on that they were getting it." Nico says, voice low and deep.

I look into Don's eyes as he is staring into mine, as if waiting for me to say something while the phone is up to my ear.

I won't get in between what the twins have decided years ago, but it bothers me that they didn't give a lick of concerns for their future. They both decided that they didn't want anything to do with having a family. It saddens me still, how bad the system of the Russian Mafia can take from a man.

My grip tightens around my phone against my ear, "okay," I whisper, "I-I'll call you tomorrow." I have decided to do this game only with myself and Don. Nico seems to fully trust me and his men, "goodnight."

"Good night, darling." He husks out before the line goes dead.

Placing my phone away, "with that face you're giving I assume he told you that me and my brother are sterilized." His voice breaking the silence as he finally speaks up.

I lift my hand slowly, the pad of my thumb caresses his cheek, he leans into the touch while keeping his eyes on me, "haven't you given too much of yourself, you and your brother? You've given up a family, how could that not make me sad at the fact that you and him will never feel or see a chance like that. It devastates me, Don." My voice cracks, "what--" I choke in my tears, "what if I and Nicolai have a child of our own, wouldn't that make you feel deep resentment?"

In all heartedly, I don't want them to feel left out of my and Nicos life as a family some day. To be them, to see us grow and they stay stand still watching a child be brought between us. What will happen...would they regret their actions then? That's the last thing I want the twins to feel is regret, that they lost a chance of family, to have some one to love and adore.

After a few moments of deafening silence Don speaks up, this time his brings his hand up and grips my chin, forcing me to look at him as tears flow down my face.

He says, with utmost sensible composer, "what makes you ever think we---I---would resent you or Nicolai if you both make a life with a child? If anything, it gives me meaning to my devotion to both. Don't think less or more of this, sweetheart." He leans closer, lips almost mere touching my own, "your child will be under my protection as well as Dimitri's. We will love that child as if ours. No matter what. That's what family is too me, Sienna."

My heart is beating so wildy I can't even imagine how it's still in my chest.

His words are true as he says them, I know because his eyes show so much more, expressing his life is more than content.

Which means, he is saying that this is more than enough.

Without another word I lean closer and kiss his lips, he let me. His gentle hands both place on each side of my face as we kiss in the back of the car.

We head back to the mansion. It's been an hour since our makeout session in the backseat in front of the house party that's still probably going on. But I decided I need rest and so does Don. The night didn't go as much but I still had fun. I learned more about Donovon and Dimitri. 

When I look out the mirror into the dark forest on the outskirts of town, the trees are still cover in snow and ice sickles. Where the sun can't reach from the shadows.

A bright shining light reflects off my rear view mirror side, a car is behind us. It's speeding...

I look over to see Don, he looks rigid and his grip on the steering wheel tightens until his knuckles turn ghostly white. "Shit." He growls, "hang on tight, Sienna." He orders before stepping into the gas pedal, exeleraiting the speed to almost 110mph on this dirt road.

My nerves start to spike up as I look back and see that there are now three cars following us.

Oh my god! What is this!?

Don maneuvers the car and makes a sharp turn of the road, peeling rocks from the tires, hearing peebles hit the side of our car at max speed. Scaring me beyond belief that we may get into a wreck.

"Don!"  I scream when one car makes it to the side of the driver's side and rams into us. Don grunts but still refuses to be bested by the attempt.

Another car rear ends us from behind causing our car to swerve a little.

It was like in slow motion, hearing my heart beat in my ears, my breathing escalates, and nothing but a silent battle beyond when Donovon yells from a distance. I was too shocked and scared to think or hear anything other than deaths door on the other side.

"Look at me, dammit!"

My eyes snap to Don while he is now looking over at me for a split second. I knew what his eyes were telling me.

"Brace yourself. " He says, with a calm but dark tone to his words.

And when he said those words my eyes shift to the front and see that there is another car blocking the road. He presses the gas down to the floor---heading straight forward. We were going to collide.

I was going to scream at him that he was crazy, but then know in my heart.

I trust him, implicitly.

Just a mere second before colliding into the car infront of us, I look over at Don and he looks over to me. We share that one split moment before a harsh screeching noise and the sound a metal wrapping---

Feeling pain, so much pain...

My head hurts...

It's cold, so cold.

Tree limbs, snow, shadows.

The sound of a river before my world goes into unknown darkness.