He felt a sense of deja vu in this room. The same white depressing walls,no windows indicating he is somewhere underground. The same hospital bed from the time he was here before,when he got injured because of what happened with sungjae. Though there is one difference though,instead of being alone here he got Taehyung sleeping with him.

When they entered the medical department of base,Taehyung refused to go far away from Jeongguk,his glares and death grip on Jeongguk's wrist was proof enough and he is the boss of this whole place so no one dared to say otherwise. Jeongguk convinced him to just get checked up first and then he can come back to him,thankfully he didn't argue and listened to Jeongguk.

In the middle of the younger man's operation,Taehyung barged into the room and He sat in the chair as they put stitches into Jeongguk's head after disinfecting it and giving him painkillers to subside the pain. Jeongguk felt his gaze on him all this time and he is pretty sure him sitting there during the whole procedure even made the doctor and nurse nervous as he could feel the doctor's hand shaking a bit when he stitched his head up.

The soft hearted man that cried in his arms a few hours ago suddenly turned back to this leader of the mafia around his subordinates. The change was quite scary. Even though he was staring at him,the younger boy knew there was something else going inside his mind. Maybe the thought of his strange personality changes? The trauma of killing two people...he has killed more so maybe not that. The guilt of involving Jeongguk in this? He hopes that's not it because Jeongguk himself indulged in his business.

The second they left the room,Taehyung immediately came over to Jeongguk,looking at his head which had a bandage around it now. Moving it around to see if there's anything wrong. "Does it hurt anywhere?" he asked,very concerned. Jeongguk grabbed his hand and rubbed his palm. "No,you guys got some good doctors here because i don't feel a thing right now"

"Are you sure? Maybe i should ask her to come back and check you once again"

"No,hyung, I swear I am completely fine, it doesn't even hurt anymore"

"But-"

"-shh! Just lay down with me,that's all I need right now" He grabbed his arm and pulled him into the bed with me. He won't lie, the bed was quite comfortable. He can sleep here so easily or maybe he was just dead tired.

Taehyung laid next to Jeongguk,pulling the younger one closer to him."Are you okay though?"

"mhm,The doctor gave me some pills that made me throw up and now I am as sober as a judge. Didn't have any injuries,Just...feel dirty" Taehyung confessed to what he was going through. Jeongguk's eyes softened when he looked at the boy.

"I know,it must have been so hard for you to go through all that and being so defenseless,I am sorry I couldn't help much. I would have never let them touch you" He kissed Taehyung's forehead,laying back down.

"It's alright,I owe you my life either way because my mind was all over the place and if you hadn't come I wouldn't have even made it Alive so thank you"

"Don't thank me for that. I would do it again in a heartbeat if I have to" Jeongguk told him,Taehyung's face fell.

"But you shouldn't. You got heavily injured tonight Jeongguk, the way you screamed when your head hit the door...I have never heard a scream so fucking painful and since it was you I fucking lost myself. I can't have you going through all that again" Taehyung told him.

"So you wanted me to just sit and wait for your friends to save you??? I am sorry Taehyung but I can't do that when I know my boyfriend's life is in danger. It's just- do we really have to talk about this right now I'm tired"

"Tired of me?"

"Don't twist my words. Tired of having this same conversation every time. I know what I put into when I started to like you so let me go through the consequences of my decision" Jeongguk declared to him. Taehyung sighed, even though he was tired of having this conversation.

"I get it but you can't fucking interfere again,Jeongguk. Please I fucking love you so much I can't lose you,you are everything I have" His voice broke in the end trying not to be emotional.

"So do I,I love you too much to not follow you into dangerous situations. I told you Taehyung,If we want to be together we have to live like this" Jeongguk told him. He looked at Taehyung.

It seemed like Taehyung thought of something,a solution for their relationship but he didn't like it so he didn't say anything.

"I know you don't want me to be in dangerous situation,I know I shouldn't worry because you are really strong and you can fight for yourself but I am sorry I can't help it when I know I can help you I will always but fine just for you I would try not to get myself into complicated situations that involves your job" Jeongguk tried to comfort him that it's alright.

"Ok,let's sleep" He turned away from Jeongguk,his back facing the younger boy now. A lump formed at the younger throat. Sighing dramatically and turning around to the other side too.

Trying not to feel sad. This all is just making him think if their relationship is even healthy. They have fought about this topic not once but multiple times. Taehyung's job will always be a problem and It will always be like that If Jeongguk doesn't stop getting involved Intentionally or unintentionally. Is this worth all the stress? Is it really?

"Hyung,give me the strongest shot you have" Jeongguk declared to Jin who gave him a strange look.

"First of all fuck no because its 3pm on a Saturday so yeah nope. Secondly,Answer my question first? what the fuck happened to your head???" Jin said as he took a seat next to Jeongguk,Telling the bartender to bring them non-alcoholic drinks.

"I fell down the stairs?"

"That's not a valid excuse Jeongguk,tell me the truth because your head is hard covered in bandages so yeah no tell me now!"

"Hyung just I don't want to talk about it,I am already a having a shitty morning,I woke up with Taehyung nowhere around me and now I remember we fought last night and now I'm scared because I think he will actually break up with me" Jeongguk blurted out,Jin let out a sigh.

"So this is why you have been so irritated ever since you stepped inside this place. Wait, did Taehyung...."

"Hyung,no god no. He would never hit me. Why would you even say that?" He asked the older man who just shrugged.

"Hey,I barely know him and we both know what his job is like. It wouldn't be shocker If he turns out to be a violent person"

"I get where you are coming from but please don't accuse him of shit like that. My head is just bursting" Jeongguk told him.

"This drink will calm your headache,it's non-alcoholic" The bartender put a glass in front of Jeongguk with some kind of orange-red liquid inside. "What is this?"

"If He is saying it will be good for you then it will be,Guk-ah just drink it. He has been working here for the past decade. He knows what he is doing" Jin was going to say more but his eyes fell on the door.

A large group of men walked in,they looked quite young and they were all just laughing and talking with each other. Must be here for some kind of celebration.

"Well more customers are coming and one of my waiters took a day off today so I'll just do my work. You drink and go home please,Don't worry about Taehyung he will come around. You just focus on healing your head,okay? I'll go now" He patted the younger boy's shoulder,walking towards the new bunch of customers.

He nodded and grabbed the glass. Taking multiple sips,it roamed around his mouth,leaving a strange taste as it went down his throat. He just hopes whatever he is drinking works and fixes his headache. He should have asked for medicine before leaving the base. Guess he will just have to drop by the pharmacy before he goes home.

Feeling a presence beside him suddenly. Someone sat next to him on the stool. He chuckled,thinking just why he is back at Mi Casa after everything that happened last night. He can't just leave anyway,He has to sing before he leaves...If his body doesn't give out till then. He really should have just stayed home.

"My,my..I didn't know I got this lucky to see the angel himself today" The man beside Jeongguk suddenly spoke up.

He turned his head towards the man,eyes locking with the strangers. He looked around his late twenties,Hair slicked up and a midnight blue designer suit. He looked rich,he probably is some kind of CEO.

"...do I know you?"

"Not yet. I do know you though. You sing here almost every night,I come to watch you and I have to say your voice is really beautiful" The strange man told him. He is glad he clarified how he knows Jeongguk because the younger was second away from thinking he had a stalker.

"Ooh,Thank you so much I am glad you like my songs" He gave a forced smile too tired to process.

"That's not the only thing I like about you"

"Excuse me?"

"Hm? Did I say something? Anyway, do you want a drink" He quickly changed the topic. This is interesting.

"I am not allowed to obviously" He pointed at his bandaged head. He chuckled.

"Ofcourse,my bad. Can I ask what happened though?"

"I don't even know your name,stranger what makes you think I will tell you why I'm a dead man right now?" Jeongguk asked him,Scoffing at his response.

"Oh,Sorry I tend to get nervous around attractive people. I am Ahn Yamane" He put his hand out forward and Jeongguk shook it.

"Jeon Jeongguk. Yamane? isn't that a Japanese name?"

"Ah stranger we just got on first name basis why should I explain that?" He mocked Jeongguk,Making him roll his eyes. Laughing at his action."Kidding,My mother was Japanese,Jeongguk-sshi. Therefore,I am half Japanese and half Korean" He flashes the younger a charming smile.

Jeongguk didn't know how to react. He would be lying if he says this man isn't dashing and has a very outgoing personality but he is really not his type. Well he doesn't even have a type. His type is Kim Taehyung,If you are Kim Taehyung he will be yours.

"That's cool,Yamane. So what do you do? it's fair that I should know your job too since you know mine. Wait, Let me guess...you are some High class CEO of some big corporation. You have 2 secretaries and you drive around a black Mercedes. Am I right?" He laughed afterwards,totally joking.

when the silence took over from the other person. He looked at Yamane. The man's eyes were wide open,Looking very shocked. "...What? don't tell me.."

"How did you know? that's creepy as fuck because I literally came here on a black Mercedes...Did you do a background check on me?" He said jokingly,making Jeongguk laugh.

"I didn't even know of your existence before today Mister"

"Damn,fair enough. Now that someone as handsome as you has finally acknowledged my presence I'm grateful" He was clearly flirting with Jeongguk. The younger had no interest in him at all.

"I like you,you know...So I was wondering if you want to go-" Yamane was cut off by Jeongguk's ringtone.

He quickly picked it up as his eyes lit up when he saw the name of the person who was calling him.

"Hyung, Hi" He tried not to sound too cheerful because they were still in the middle of a fight. He glanced over to look at Yamane who was staring at him intensely.

"Hey,um did you get home safely?"

"Do you know what time it is? The sun is setting now. You didn't contact me the whole morning,left me alone in your...place and now you asking me this now? Do you even care about me?" Jeongguk got carried away a bit. He got thrown back into reality when he saw a strange expression on Yamane's face.

He was in public and this conversation is too private to be having here. "Jeongguk I'm-" Taehyung was cut off by Jeongguk.

"Wait a minute. Um I will just go take this call,I'll be right back,Yamane" He flashed a fake smile to Yamane,getting up from his seat and going into the staff room.

Entering the empty small room as everyone was out working right now. He sat down on the couch in the corner of the room.

"You were saying something"

"Who is Yamane? Who are you with? where are you??," He bombarded him with questions.

"I am at Mi Casa and who I am with shouldn't be your main concern here,Taehyung I am actually mad at you"

"I know I am sorry. Last night wasn't pleasant for us and I had so much work I had to leave you there so you can rest longer and as I said work was piling up so it slipped my mind to check up on you,does your head still hurt?"

"A little but I drank this drink and its getting a bit better. That's all good,Taehyung but do you even know what happened last night? it was such a traumatic night for both of us,how are you still going to work after that?!?" Jeongguk exclaimed,unable to understand his reasoning.

"I am a gangster,Jeongguk. This is my job,I'm used to it-"

"-You are used to it? you are used to getting taken without your consent? you are used to crying so much to the point of a mental breakdown?? Taehyung just because you didn't have any physical injury doesn't mean you are perfectly able to do your daily task. You need to be mentally okay too. I just don't know why you are doing this to yourself. I don't know why I'm having such an important conversation over the phone!!" He yelled the last sentence. Cursing himself trying to keep it down when he heard the door open.

Inside came Jin with a worried look on his face. He noticed Jeongguk was on the phone and suddenly it made sense. "Is everything okay?"

"Yeah,Sorry hyung for yelling like that"

"It's alright...I'll leave you to it" He quickly exit because of the intense atmosphere in the room.

"Jeongguk..."

"...Taehyung,do you know your behavior wasn't normal yesterday? don't you find it weird how you suddenly become this enraged crazy person and the next second you are an emotional wreck. Don't you think it's a bit out of ordinary. I am not a doctor but do you think you have a personality disorder?" Jeongguk asked him lightly. It was silent on the other line for a few seconds.

"Are you calling me insane? Is this what you think of me?"

"Taehyung,don't twist my words. I am serious right now,There's nothing wrong with you even if you have that disorder you know that right? I will still be with you and I will still love you so please...I think you should see a doctor about it" He told him,totally serious because this is a serious matter.

"No,I am not insane. Stop diagnosing me with shit you have no clue about. I wanted to apologise for being an asshole to you last night because you were in a vulnerable position but now you are just accusing me of being mentally ill. I can't believe you Jeongguk" Taehyung snapped at him.

"Why are you getting so defensive- hello? hello??? Did he just hang up on me?" Jeongguk asked himself in shock.

Letting out a sigh because he is tired. Pushing his hair back,brushing the hair through his finger. He wanted to scream out loud. He has been noticing this for a long time now and the first time he brought it up,Taehyung got so defensive about it.

He just got up and went out of the room once he saw some waiters coming back inside the room. Making his way towards Yamane who was still here.

"You are back...and you look like shit. Did you fight with the person on the phone?"

"Yeah. He's my boyfriend and that's what I was going to tell you before he called me. I am sorry I am not attracted to you" Jeongguk apologizes even though he has nothing to apologise for.

"I figured when your eyes were shining so brightly just from receiving a call from him. I am too late I guess,sucks to be me"

Jeongguk just chuckled,looking down at his lap. Sadly,he really wanted to cry right now. He misses Taehyung and he wishes he could just hug him for some time.

"Can you sing a song for me as compensation for breaking my heart?" Yamane asked sarcastically. Jeongguk shrugged as he chuckled.

"Fine,I was going to go sing anyway. But this one's for you stranger. What song do you want me to sing?"

"Boyfriend by dove Cameron"

"I have never listened to that song...sorry I will definitely check it out once I get home though"

"You definitely should,the lyrics are really relatable...for me at least. Anyway sing anything you want" He said to Jeongguk. He nodded and got up from his seat and went to the stage.

Tapping on it multiple times to see if it's on. Once it didn't make a sound he went back to turn it on. Tapping once again and it made noise. He quickly went to the laptop backstage and put an instrumental of the song he was going to sing.

"Hello Guys,Did you miss me? probably not. I am going to sing a song for Mister Yamane right there. I am going to sing When I RIP by labrinth...here we go"

Crossing his legs over another as he sat a bit more comfortably on his seat. Closing his eyes,trying to relax for a few seconds in this cold office of his. Though soon his relaxing time was interrupted by Yoongi who knocked on his door twice and then entered.

"Yes?"

"Mr.Sasaki responded to the email and he is ready to collaborate with us on our new product but the thing is, he says he wants to meet you in person before he signs the contract" Yoongi told him,tapping on the ipad in his hand. Waiting for his boss' response.

"Does that mean I have to go to Japan? for how long?"

"Yes,But we can make it quick. You can go there for a day, meet him, stay at Tokyo for the night and take the first flight back to Seoul. What do you think?" He explained the plan to him and Taehyung nodded in agreement.

"Sounds good,Instead of staying the night can we just fly back home. I don't want to stay and the flight is what? 2 hours?" He asked Yoongi.

"Yeah sure I can arrange something. I will book your tickets for tomorrow as I have already cleared the schedule for tomorrow and got an appointment from Mr.Sasaki because I knew you would agree" He gave him a smile,making Taehyung smile too.

He is glad he hired Yoongi as his secretary. He is a much better help to Taehyung and because of how close they are, he feels comfortable going to all these meetings with him.

"Great,what about those snakes? did we got any response from them after killing Seomin and Yeosang?"

"Nope,nothing at all. I thought they would attack our base after that but nothing guess their boss doesn't give a fuck about their members. Good news for us we have eliminated 60% of their bases"

"That's great, what about the boss? any news about him? literally why is it so hard to trace that we don't even know their name" Taehyung was frustrated,as messaged his forehead when he felt a sharp pain follow through.

"Their is absolutely nothing about them online,they have definitely made sure to delete everything about themselves online so it's a bit hard but Hobi is trying his best '' He came for his boyfriend's defense.

"Great,Since we are done for today I will go home. You should head home too,hyung" He got up from his seat,grabbing his phone and car keys from the table,putting them inside his suit pocket.

Yoongi nodded and bowed to him once he walked past him out of the office. Going towards the elevator with just one man on his mind.

Jeon Jeongguk. Things really haven't been the same for a long time now. They just got together and already fought barely a week in. He gets where he was wrong at some times and how Jeongguk is right about some things but something about Jeongguk telling him to go to a doctor to see if he is sane just made him a bit mad.

He knows what he is talking about. He has noticed his immediate mood changes,the way he absolutely loses control of his own body and goes feral. But it's because of his job,he needs to be strong enough and intimidating enough and- he is just convincing himself at this point. He doesn't need to be all that he is the leader for fucks sake.

Maybe he should seek therapy... This is all just messing with his mind and all he needs to do right now is meet up with Jeongguk. He just wants to see him and apologise. He doesn't like it when they are like this. He owes the man his life; he can't be treating him like that.

Deciding that he is going to go to Jeongguk's favourite coffee shop and getting his favourite coffee from there would make him less mad at him.

Stopping quickly by the shop and in just a few minutes he took the order. He was going to just head to Jeongguk's house but then he realised that Jeongguk mentioned he was at mi casa when he was on the phone with him.

Quickly turning the car around and just driving to where Mi casa was. Thankfully it wasn't that far, just a 20 minute drive. With the traffic of Seoul you should be glad you get anywhere in a span of 20 minutes.

Parking right in front of the bar. Getting out of the car with the coffee for Jeongguk in his hand. Walking close to the Bar as he looked through the windows to see if Jeongguk was even here or did he go home.

He scanned through the whole bar just for his eyes to fall on Jeongguk...sitting with some other man. A very familiar man but he can't pinpoint where he saw this man. He saw how Jeongguk was Laughing with him and he just looked happy.

He won't lie, he felt his chest tighten at the thought of seeing Jeongguk with another man. He could just a friend he knows that but fuck he feels so jealous. He can't help but feel a bit insecure,the fact they fought just makes this situation worse.

Turning his heels around and throwing the drink into the dustbin. He walked back to his car and drove off to his own home. He can't do this right now,he really can't.

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You guys must hate me because I give one fluff chapter and then make them suffer for next 5 more chapters but this is a slow burn with heavy angst so you guys lowkey signed up for this.
Hope yall liked it
LoVe yall
-K