“ They said he doesn't care ,
he doesn't feel...
little did they know
he does care... more than anyone.”

Third Person's POV

A puff of poisonous smoke left his mouth, his lips parting a little. His steadfast gaze was fixated on the big and very beautiful glass chandelier on the ceiling. His head was resting on the dark maroon leather couch , his left hand spread over the headrest and his fingers holding the burning cigar between them.

While his right hand was busy playing unmindfully with the black silk scarf with threaded diamonds around the lady's neck who's head was resting on his lap , laying on the couch beside where he sat, her dark mahogany coloured expensive thigh slit dress’ flair part falling down from the couch with her legs visible , the platinum and diamond studded anklet shinning on her right ankle .

She watched the man's hand tug and play with her scarf in silence, her eyes also unmindfully following his gothic platinum rings, his silver Patek Philippe watch and the beautiful tattoo over his back of the palm.

" You're restless baby..." The lady finally uttered, keeping her voice as low and timid as possible . She didn't have the courage nor the power to raise her voice over him or even the same tone of him.

The man didn't reply, his gorgeous face had nothing but sleeping destructive anger and irritation. His grip over the scarf got a little tighter and she thought it was out of the turmoil that was going on inside him.

" Baby...you shouldn't go ... sorry... I mean...you... I'm sorry...but...you don't have to go to South Korea you know..." The lady said nonetheless cause even if her brain knew she should not say this to this man ...her heart didn't listen.

She knew she was just a nobody to him, a thing to play and fuck , whenever he wanted but it was her unfortunate mistake that she loved him. He became the only one to her while she was just one in many to him.

She was smart enough to know that she shouldn't care about him but she did...and that's why she couldn't stop her words, risking the upcoming consequences .

Her heart shivered when she heard his dark chuckle and he finally looked down at her with the same ominous smirk .

" Is that what you want mio caro ? "
He asked, his voice felt like a cold chill mixed with a psychopathetic tone which was his true natural tone and that he can fake with a sweet and precious one so easily when needed.

Yet she tried to nod and he raised his pierced eyebrow up at her.

" And why is that ? " He asked, his grip tightened on the scarf and she might have felt a little hard tug on it which was making her neck hurt.

" Y-you d-do-don't have to go to korea to ki-kill Ma-master , you can j-just- " she was trying to say those words properly cause the scarf was getting tighter each second but she also didn't realise that she has uttered a word that he despised with each cells of his body.

" Enlighten me more Anna dear ! Why don't you want me to go and kill your fucking Jimin oh sorry, MASTER YOU SAY ! " This was enough for her to know that she has wished a death.

" I-sorry- uhm -ah no... I mean I no please - y-you will g-get ahh-ahh hurt"
She still tried to speak as he was pulling her up with the grip over her scarf.

" Do I really look like I care ? " He asked with the same sinister chuckle as tears ran down her face.

" Y-you c-ah can Just k-kill him again l-lah like you did be-before ! Leh-leht him come b-back- th-then pl-plahn and ex-execute- pl-play s-safe like you always d-did . H-ahhe loves ahh you- " she said and the scarf grip around her loosened a little and she was now panting for breathe.

" That's no fun. Come on, Nothing is more entertaining than breaking trusts. " He said like a matter of fact and his voice could literally make one feel a heavy hit of chill down their spine and veins.

Tears after tears left her eyes and she just stared at the man while her hands were trying to pull away the scarf .

" Wh-what if- uh- he gets to ah- " this time she couldn't even Complete her words as he suddenly sat straight and held the scarf with both his hands.

The horror of few seconds went completely silent as he suddenly pulled the scarf knot in opposite direction with a deadly strong pull.

Her chest rose up to protest, her back arched, her face immediately reddened , her lips parted but no sound came out of her mouth as that one twist of scarf and few seconds of strangulation were enough for her neck muscles to jam and her craniovertebral joint to get twisted .

And in seconds she was nothing but a deadbody who's eyes were still open , staring at the gorgeous monster for whom she fell for so stupidly.

" I do what I fucking want to ! okay Anna darling ? " The man asked with a cool and calm voice while staring at her dead eyes with no remorse or not even a hint of emotion in his eyes.

" Seems like you thought high of yourself like your dear Master Jimin. A motherfucking Prince for everyone huh !? My Moon huh !? Dearest fucking Moon. I'll fucking make your Master Moon darling Jimin a star real soon. " He said gritting his teeth with each words as he twisted the scarf harder in the dead body’s neck.

“ Puttana stupida ” he said and threw her body away on the floor before getting up and striding towards his desk with few long steps.

( Translation : Stupid Bitch )

Grabbing the wine glass on the way, he chugged down the remaining from the glass and threw it away.

Picking up a Gold made fountain pen from the pen holder with his left hand ...he almost tore the notepad while bringing it under his pen with his right hand.

He wrote something on the note and did it really very first before finally signing the note in the end with a big beautiful cursive ‘ J ’ word.

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" Minah ! You're finally here damn ! " Taehyung said as his eyes fell on Jimin immediately who entered the mansion. Jin and Taehyung was waiting for Jimin in the living room for past one hour.

" What took you so long though ! You were making us worried as hell " Taehyung approached Jimin immediately and for some reason Jimin stood on the same place.

" Yeah Min ! You took so long since we talked on call ! " Jin said from behind as Taehyung stood just infront of Jimin.

" Stopped to get this. " Jimin answered shortly and showed them the box of chocolate that Jin loved so much.

Jin and Taehyung both felt a hint of surprise and then happiness. Even though they knew how much Jimin cares for them, the later hardly could show it.

Jin knew, Jimin wanted to ...wanted to show his love and care but the poor boy was shackled by the demons in him that he ironically loves. The boy can't even name most of his feelings now.

Countless therapies couldn't bring  back Jimin's lost abilities to feel things.

Now Taehyung knew better than to make it a scene that Jimin did something so unusual . He should never make Jimin feel that he rarely expresses his emotions.

" So Only for hyung huh ? What about your bestfriend ? " Taehyung asked, acting like he was angry .

Jimin looked at Taehyung with his always distant looking eyes but Taehyung knew there was still a warm hint somewhere but it hurts when he remembers those beautiful eyes sparkling so gorgeously once, so bright that it outshone his diamond studded jewelleries.

But little did Taehyung knew what exactly was going inside Jimin's head.

All Jimin could think about was that sad face of his assistant in the store earlier. Now Taehyung's cute faking of sadness also pressurised on the memory of Jungkook being sad, most importantly when... Jungkook didn't do anything to deserve it.

Well, Park Jimin never looked back , never cared about someone's fragile ego or anything but this time.

Maybe this time Jimin wasn't feeling as empowered of being superior as before.

The entire drive to kim mansion has been hell for Jimin.

Was it because Jimin never wanted to hurt anyone who's innocent ? Was it because Jimin always had a weak spot for the people who has no one like him...more likely no family ?

Ofcourse that's the reason Park Jimin owns countless orphanage and NGOs across the nation officially and at some point unofficially, not publically dragging any of them for reputation.

Those kids were his heartbeats in a sense.

And sadly Jimin couldn't stop thinking about the death of Jungkook's parents past this hour after seeing him sad.

Oh how ironic. He didn't even know what exactly happened to those people.

But Jimin felt the unhealthy, unsettling guilt creeping up his veins.

“How could those shop keepers yell at his assistant !? ”

“ YOU DIDN'T EVEN TELL THEM YOU KNEW HIM ! FUCK YOU. ”

Jimin's mind was filled with conflicts and he didn't know he zoned out.

" Jimin ? "

But suddenly he flinched, getting out of his thoughts and unfortunately almost stepping back as he felt a light touch on his shoulder.

But then Jimin realised it was Taehyung who touched his shoulder and his reaction made the older take his hand back with another guilty expression.

Oh fuck. Everyone was looking forward to make Jimin Feel guilty today.

" Uhh huh ? " Jimin tried to fix the situation as he asked Taehyung and stepped closer to Taehyung, to atleast let him know that Taehyung would be the last person on the earth to make him uncomfortable.

" Minah , come here, sit down. You don't look okay. What happened ? " Jin asked approching the duo with hurried steps.

" Uh no no I'm fine. " Jimin tried to play it cool .

" And Kim Taehyung should know that Park Jimin would bring him anything and everything if he wants. " Jimin said with his monotonous voice and expressionless face but his attempt of making his loved ones happy were crystal clear.

Taehyung immediately smiled and nodded.

" Perks of being the best friend of a self made, powerful ,richass CEO. " Taehyung said like a matter of fact and flipped his imaginary long hair, earning a laugh from Jin and a glare from Jimin.

Well, no one would believe that Kim Taehyung can be this goofy around his loved ones if the didn't see it by themselves

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The lunch was awfully silent in the Kim mansion. It's not like Jimin ever spoke unnecessarily while eating . He always had some kind of highly Royal etiquette.

Jin and Taehyung still remembered how politely Jimin had explained them once. Even in a very young age, he always was elegant like a crowned prince.

« A little Flashback »

“ Jiminah ? Did we say something wrong ? Why aren't you saying anything ? ”

Jin asked softly, after debating whether to ask it for atleast 10 minutes but Taehyung's “ Please ask him ” expressions weren't helping.

The three of them were having a private dinner in Jin's suite at one of the most expensive five star hotel in New York.

But ofcourse Jimin wasn't supposed to be having his lunch with them like that. He might have had 12 continental dish prepared by the best chefs , decorated perfectly in his dinning room which might cost triple more than this luxurious suite also.

But Jimin rather chose to spend his time here with his friends. Well, he was honestly happy in their presence.

Jin's sudden question made Jimin look up from his plate immediately with big apologetic eyes. Oh how pretty he looked with his smokey eyeshadow and two rhinestones placed under his lower eyelid.

A little amount of food was still in his mouth but he swallowed it immediately to answer and defend himself.

But would it be really weird to say that even he ate so elegantly ?

" No no Hyung Please don't mind my behavior. It has nothing to do with this . I beg your pardon for making it look like that. Please accept my sincerest apology. " Jimin apologised in such a way while putting his spoon down and half bowing immediately. His voice sounding truly apologetic yet calm and royal.

Taehyung didn't even know how to reply to that but he sure as hell wasn't expecting this.

" Oh no it's okay Jiminssi ! Nothing to be sorry about ! We were just worried that you didn't like something or we've said something wrong. " Jin was quick to say.

The twenty years old Jimin smiled and nodded .

" No hyung. It's not about any of that. You two bring absolute joy with your company and I tend to love every bit it. I was listening all of it , honestly. " Jimin said with his as always calm soothing voice.

A lot coming from a Billionaire Princely boy like Jimin with a heart of gold who chose to have his Sunday lunch with a Doctor of overseas and an aspiring model.

" And you tend to make us shy with your charms Jiminssi ! " Taehyung couldn't help but say before he could stop himself .

Thankfully it earned a beautiful small laugh out of the twenty years old and his beautiful hands with all 10 fingers decorated with expensive rings and one disgustingly expensive and gorgeous wedding ring went to cover his mouth as he laughed.

Taehyung and Jin smiled too .

" Actually... actually we... I am not used of talking while eating . Especially when it's a meal. " Jimin tried to explain and assure the other two.

" Uhm...why ? " Taehyung asked curiously.

" We shouldn't talk much while eating . Hyung also doesn't like it until and unless we're alone or it's needed. " Jimin explained with such simplicity but Jin and Taehyung immediately glanced at each other.

Well, they still did not understand why. Everyone knows that they can choke on food if there's too much talking but this certain reason didn't sit well with those two brothers.

May be Jimin was avoiding to tell all the details which might reveal too much without his husband's permission or consultancy or on the other hand it was just plainly toxic like those Kim brothers found it.

But nonetheless Jimin tried to make it sound easier.

“ actually I was as confused as you two when I was kid and heard that we shouldn't talk much while eating . Certainly no one told me the reasons too...but Hyung always had my back. He would never let me feel unsettled about anything. ” Jimin said , hiding his gulp in the process as he debated if he should go on or not.

But certainly Jimin never could let anyone think anything bad about his husband.

" Then... what was the reason ? ” Jin asked , expecting to hear something courtly , something strict like a rule cause his mind was stuck thinking why would one not talk with their husband while eating ?

‘ until and unless we're alone ’ Jin replayed those words in his mind. Was it also a rule or just privacy ?

“ Food, it's really precious , isn't it ? Unfortunately not everyone has the opportunity to have it daily. It's sad but it's reality...when we eat without any thoughts , nor caring but there's people who works day night to make their ends and feed their family. Every ounce of the food we swallow should be respected and we should be thankful to have it always... Gotta appreciate it . Just like it's god's providence to make one born with power and everything ready infront them in a golden platter, they should respect it and be thankful for it." Jimin said before stopping for few seconds and looking at the Kim brothers respectively who were staring at him with stunned silence.

" Even if it's just a way of appreciation that our family shows... I whole heartedly believe it cause I have had this reason explained to me by hyung when I was just uhmm 11 ?
... that's it  " Jimin said, smiling and the truthfulness was oozing in his voice.

Taehyung never in his wildest imaginations could think that this much powerful people can be this appreciative.

" Wow... you're really... really one admirable boy Jiminssi... " Jin complemented truthfully .

« Flashback Ends »

So it was not really expected that Jimin would talk while eating and after the accident it's even a dream to think about him smiling and looking like he feels something.

It was like his soul was sucked out.

Everything can change and be forgotten but habits that you picked up from a very young age, will always come back in any way possible.

But today's different. It's not an usual silence. Jin told Taehyung about Jungkook's visit in the hospital and the conversation between them.

Both the Brothers knew something was bothering Jimin really bad and he wasn't okay. Either ways you'd never see Park Jimin space out.

" Jiminie ? Can I ask you about something a ? " Taehyung asked , not being able to hold it for anymore time.

Jimin looked up and if eyes could hold questions then his eyes might have asked ‘ What is it ? ’

" Don't scold me and Please don't shut me off saying ‘ it's nothing ’ or something like that. " Taehyung said straight and Jimin raised an eyebrow while Jin was silently trying to make Taehyung understand that he should take it slow.

" That's an interesting way to present some topic. It brings immediate attention. " Jimin said putting down his spoon and taking the water glass in his hand while still looking at Taehyung.

" Did it bring yours ? " Taehyung asked playfully, trying to make Jimin more comfortable if possible.

" Certainly. Anyways I'm obligated to hear what you have to say. I'm at your house. " Jimin pointed out and Taehyung chuckled even though Jimin had zero expressions.

" You're a man of words. I know. Then tell me truthfully, what's the thing that's bothering you. Now don't shut me off Min ... I know there's something. You don't- you don't " Taehyung couldn't complete it as Jimin spoke.

" Don't look okay ? Yeah. Of course. " Jimin said now completely losing his appetite cause he remembered the same words Jungkook had said the other day.

And remembering Jungkook brought immediately guilt that rose above his chest.

" Yes that. And it's because you're not okay. And I'm asking the reason behind it. " Taehyung said and Jin repeatedly glared at him cause Taehyung was supposed to take it slow.

Years went by but Taehyung still couldn't understand that Jimin wouldn't break like that. Taehyung was emotionally driven. He never could see Jimin in pain and here it was.

Jin was thankful that Jungkook told him about Jimin's sudden headache and symptoms .

" When people are in the depth of misery, they don't often know what's the reason behind certain hits of it. " Jimin answered getting up from his seat.

" Excuse me please, I'm done with my lunch. " Jimin said making the two brothers startled .

" Jiminah I'm sorry- "

" Jiminie you have ate nothing, sit down. Please Min " Jin  said immediately standing up along Jimin.

" Please hyung. I've ate enough. Now excuse me. " Jimin said and they knew better that Jimin would never sit back for lunch.

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Jimin knew this would happen. He knew Taehyung and Jin would ask these things and he wouldn't be able to escape it everytime.

He didn't want to go back to therapy again. No he couldn't.

He stood before the balcony railings , resting his forearms on the railing with a burning cigarette between his fingers.

He wanted this misery to end .

But nothing was helping him.

This same insufferable misery that he have faced in the early years after all those happened. But past these, 3-4 years, he was slowly losing himself to work and was avoiding to feel anything.

But now ?

Park Jimin hated to accept it.

Thousands of employees under his company and only one between them makes his skin burn... without even being bad.

Jeon Jungkook is too good. That's the problem.

" Jeon Jungkook Jeon Jungkook Jeon Damn Jungkook ! Ugh " Jimin gritted his teeth while crushing the cigarette between his fingers before throwing it away.

" Ahhh " Jimin felt his head ache rise up again as he frustratedly groaned clutching his hair before sitting down on the couch on the balcony.

That sad and dissapointed face of his assistant weren't leaving Jimin's brain. What was wrong with him !?

If Jin and Taehyung was thinking that Jimin was restless and the reason being his past and past related things... oh how wrong they were.

Jimin even dreaded to acknowledge it that... it's his chief executive assistant , The Jeon Jungkook himself that was making Jimin feel restless... making him think about his past more.

Will apologising help ?

" But I fucking didn't do anything ! " Jimin fought with himself.

“ You did. You yelled at him for no reason. ” Jimin's mind screamed back at him with full force...scaring him shockingly.

It was like his heart and brain were two different people. He was trying to stick on whatever his mind commands but his damn fucking heart decided to play the danger again.

" He was annoying me " Jimin fought. Not even accepting his defeat to himself.

“ Annoying you !? How the fuck Park Jimin !? By helping you !? ”

“ Not everyone is supposed to fucking know that you can't tolerate being touched ! He didn't even bump on you!”

“ You made him feel ashamed ! Shame on you and fuck you also ! ”

“ you let those stupid people insult him and watched it ! ”

“ What a disgrace ! Always hurting people! Everywhere ! In every fase of your life ! ”

“ you couldn't even fucking hold onto your identity ! Your fucking reality ! YOU HURT THEM ! ”

“ you hurt him ! ”

" S-STOP ! " Jimin almost screamed at himself . He didn't even know when his heart beats picked an unusual beat and honestly, it was hurting.

He couldn't let himself get engulfed in his dark thoughts again. Atleast for Jin and Taehyung... Jimin couldn't make them dissapointed by being the same broken record Once again.

Jeon Jungkook was bringing restlessness in his life and it was hurting him... hurting him more than he acknowledged it and the thing that made Jimin more dissapointed was...he was hurting Jungkook also.

Jungkook wasn't supposed to suffer for Park Jimin's miserably life.

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" Hyung... May I come in ? " Jin was startled by the certain voice . He was in his study , checking certain reports and details of a case with so much attention .

He turned around in a speed of light towards the door .

" Jiminah , ofcourse come in ! " Jin said immediately and closed the file in his hand in rush. After all he didn't want to make Jimin more uncomfortable by letting him know that Jin was rechecking his medical history and reports.

" Come, sit here . Are you hungry ? Want some snacks ? " Jin asked and Jimin quietly sat on the dark brown couch while eyeing the file Jin just kept on the table... knowing well that it was his own reports. But he chose to ignore it.

" No it's okay. I'm not hungry. " Jimin answered and looked outside of the big glass window.

" I understand... Tae should not have asked those things like that but...you know... he's worried about you... right Jiminah ? " Jin asked and sat on the opposite couch, right infront of Jimin.

Jimin just nodded, looking down at his clasped hands.

" You aren't sleeping enough. Not eating enough and just...you know it's not good for you ... It's not gonna help these headaches. " Jin said softly yet it was clear that he was complaining.

But being a doctor and most importantly Jimin's surgeon and guide through the entire traumatic years, Jin knew, pressuring Jimin to know things weren't gonna work.

" I... I'll try to do better hyung... " Jimin wanted to say a lot. He wanted to scream and say that it's hurting him to pretend like he's okay. He wanted to say that he can't sleep, can't feel appetite. Can't not want to become desperate to go back and turn the world upside down to reach his past and make them embrace him.

What is the worst thing that can happen ? He'll die ? But isn't he already dead without them ?

And why was he feeling this things stronger than ever ?

Jeon Jungkook ? The employee of two days ? Who doesn't know first two things about his Boss yet looks at him with Galaxy shinning on his beautiful eyes ?

People came and went away, Park Jimin never let anyone inside his closed heart. Not even a little liking . Refused thousands of offers, true love as they said ... People called him arrogant ... Called him self centred.

But he, stayed loyal. To someone who wanted his death.

Now why...why this Jeon Jungkook was making Jimin feel scared ? That he might get trapped, might lose himself ?

No... Jimin didn't have the strength to stand up again if he falls apart.

He didn't want to be a cheater.

" Are you even listening Jiminah ? " Jin was saying something but surprisingly or unfortunately Jimin was spacing out again.

Jin was hella worried. So keeping his calm composure was really hard. What was happening to Jimin again ? Atleast he knew that Jimin's coldness was a way to hide himself and cope up with his misery, his strong will to get better and not get hurt again.

Ofcourse Jin wanted Jimin to improve more, feel happy and completely wipe off the traces of his past and he was sure it'll happen one day...may be few more years but this ?

Why was Jimin showing symptoms like this ? Like he'll let his dark thoughts consume him totally ?

" Jimin ? Talk to me ! " Jin said and Jimin looked like he broke out of a trance.

" I am ... I'm Sorry to him Hyung... I hurt him, irrationally. Shouldn't have done that..." Jimin's sudden words made Jin shocked and confused.

No it couldn't happen again ! Jimin can't bring this same topic, same words once again after years ! No he can't hurt himself again thinking he was the one hurting his husband ! Not again !

" Ji-Jiminah baby no - you - not- " Jin felt too overwhelmed with sadness and shock to utter anything immediately.

" Should have stopped those shop attendents before they disrespected him. I ... I was being totally irrational"
Jimin said now shocking Jin more and at the same time confusing him double .

Shop attendents ? Disrespect ? What was Jimin even talking about ?

" He's not my employee and I'm not his Boss outside the company gates..." Jimin kept on saying on his own while twisting a thin platinum ring on his index finger , the one that Taehyung gifted him . Either ways Jimin avoids to wear any kind of jewelleries now.

Jin was trying to calculate so hard in his mind. He was trying to believe in his wildest imagination of Jimin saying all this about Jungkook !?

They met today !?

What happened !?

And Jimin is spacing out and guilty because he thinks he hurt Jungkook !?

Jin blinked, not being able to hold back a gasp.

" Is it about Jungkook ? " Jin couldn't help but ask, not quite trusting his own voice and the situation. Jimin only confesses things like this when he feels extremely helpless.

And it's really very new after almost 6 years.

" Oh... yeah. " Jimin sounded like he didn't even realise that Jungkook's name wasn't mentioned.

‘ There's no shame in acting upon your mistakes and apologising ,tesoro mio. ’ Jimin's head throbbed with that distant, faint yet beautiful female voice in the back of his head. It made him want to clutch his hair and bang his head on the nearby hard surface but he didn't want to get caught by Jin.

Jin didn't know what to ask now. He was too stunned to speak. If Taehyung was in the room, he would have been lying on the floor with shock by now.

" D-Do you wanna apologize to him...? He's... he's even older than you Minah" Jin pointed out, still not sure what Jimin was actually thinking.

How much guilty could Jungkook make Jimin feel ? He was even looking sad for gods sake !

The very collected and composed Park Jimin blinked twice , lips slightly parted to say something but nothing came out.

" You're having some guests over tonight if I'm not wrong... then could you invite him over dinner too ? " Jimin asked in reply and Jin almost felt like he was hearing things.

" Ofcourse...why not ! " It was Jin's instant reply.

Obviously Jin wasn't going to squeal infront of Jimin and tell him that he and Taehyung so wanted to invite Jungkook but they thought it'd make Jimin uncomfortable so they didn't !

" And please, don't let him know that I said it. He'll bug me more then. " Jimin said and got off the couch in the next second while Jin sat there...amazed, worried yet happy and stunned.

Jimin walked towards the door but before leaving he turned towards the older again and said " Thanks hyung " and left the room .

“ Guilt is not true when it's forced.
It's only true when you feel it's choking you. ”

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Here's another chapter !

I've said it before and I'll say it again. This story is about details. If you miss them, skipping lines to get Jikook...then you'll be missing so many things . I'm sure so many of you didn't notice all the hints given in the last chapter and this chapter also.

I'm sorry but it's a complex story. And you'll get a lot more Jikook than you expect . So sit tight . It's gonna be a rollercoaster.

★ Thoughts, opinions , theories ?

★ I hope you all are enjoying it ❤️

Take care, Borahae 💜