" Losing and gaining are the part of life but sometimes we don't really know what we lost or if it's even lost. "

Third Person's POV

Jungkook was literally in his happy bubble since morning. He actually was losing the hopes of getting back his belongings for past few days but it seemed like the luck was giving him the golden card . After all he deserves it ...

" So happy now huh ? Jungkookah ? " Taehyung asked with a smile as he glanced at the delighted Jungkook beside him in the passenger seat. Taehyung was driving them to Park IT.

" Yes ! I never knew that I loved my Phone, laptop and documents this much god ! Gotta keep them safe from now on. " Jungkook said with a determined enthusiastic voice and Taehyung chuckled.

" Ofcourse. And you too should try to stay safe and not fall in these snatching traps again. " Taehyung warmed and Jungkook nodded.

After that there was a moment of silence in the car till Taehyung broke it again.

" Jungkookah... I know you told me to forget it but...but I'm really sorry... I shouldn't have said them. Just tell me once that what I can do to make it fine again... " Taehyung said again and Jungkook almost face palmed.

" Do you want me to throw you away from your own car itself ? " Jungkook asked frowning at Taehyung who looked at him with a shocked gaze.

" I- uh- " Taehyung couldn't find any words.

" One more time you mention about it , I'll proceed to think that you don't think me as your brother and I'll stop talking to you. " Jungkook said crossing his arms over his chest.

" Okay okay ! I'm sorry Mr. Jeon Jungkook !! " Taehyung said laughing.

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A new day in office and Jungkook literally felt the anticipation to see his Boss once again. Taehyung failed to notice how Jungkook was again and again checking his watch cause Jimin would arrive in few minutes.

Taehyung was waiting for Jimin to arrive as well while he sat on the couch of his Best friend's luxurious office room .

" Jungkookah...calm down. " Taehyung couldn't help but say when he saw how Jungkook was checking the files again and again neatly placed them on Jimin's desk . He realised that Jungkook has almost an obsessive behaviour towards making everything perfect. Jungkook has shown Taehyung his office as well and to be honest, Taehyung was shocked that how neat and organized the room looked.

" Uh huh ? Should I bring you a cup of coffee Taehyungssi ? Boss would probably want one as soon as he arrives. He'll arrive in 7 minutes. So I should bring it now. " Jungkook said and Taehyung couldn't help but stare at the younger.

" How can you calculate that how many minutes are going to take Jimin to arrive ? " Taehyung asked amazed .

" Uh it's easy. He's a very punctual person and judging by yesterday's arriving time and today's weather, he'll drive a little faster and reach 3 minutes before and his walking speed and the milliseconds that will take him to response the greetings...yeah. " Jungkook said and Taehyung gasped. How was he supposed to believe that Jungkook was this calculative ? And how was Jungkook so sure about all these ?

" Easy my ass . The fuck method is this kookah ? " Taehyung asked and Jungkook gave him a small smile.

" A method that I can use. Hehe. If you don't believe me, start counting. He'll be here in 6 minutes. If I'm right, you have to visit Jae-wook today with me and if you are right, I'll give you a treat after we meet with Jae-wook today. Lemme bring the coffee now. " Jungkook said and before Taehyung could process anything, Jungkook was out of the office room.

It took Taehyung few seconds to understand Jungkook's win win plan and how he presented it witfully. But there was more surprise for Taehyung in few minutes.

Jungkook's words made Taehyung restless. He didn't know if it was to know if Jungkook was right or to know that how Jungkook was right .

And breaking Taehyung's scale of amazement, Jimin entered the office exactly in six minutes, not even a difference of second.

" Good morning T- " Jimin couldn't complete his words as he realised how Taehyung was staring at him like he has seen a ghost.

" Tae ? " Jimin's voice was quite light today but now seeing Taehyung like this, made him all serious which was actually his tension while he approached his best friend.

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Jungkook was walking out of the food court with his Boss's coffee and threw smile at anyone who greeted him, bowed at him or smiled at him . Did he now that how many people were crushing over him right now ? May be he did but the question was, did he care ? ...it was a no.

But before he could reach the door , someone held his forearm, making him stop on his tracks. The unexpected hold made his jaw clench but he quickly put a smile on his face before turning around.

" Slow down there Mr. Jeon. What's the hurry ? " The female voice asked with her naturally attractive yet now mocking voice.

" Good morning to you too Ms. Manoban. " Jungkook greeted snatching his arm away with a smile and only Lisa knew how forcefully Jungkook moved away his hand but if anyone else saw it, they wouldn't understand it by the way Jungkook did it.

" Lets see if this Good Morning stays good for you. You know, shits happen sometimes. Who knows ? " Lisa said with her sly smile but her tone was dangerously poisonous.

" No one but the person who causes it and the one who faces it. But you know Ma'am ? sometimes the tables can turn and trust me, it's more shitty." Jungkook said leaning down towards Lisa's ear a little and suddenly the female got hit with a realisation of the other male's domineering aura.

" What do you mean Jeon ? " Lisa asked with her beautiful face showing Nothing but anger now.

" Nothing but a reminder of reality ma'am. Hope you have an amazing day ahead. " Jungkook wished to the fuming Lisa who was eye burning him.

If Lisa could kill Jungkook right now, she might have done it. In her mind she was imagining hundred ways to brutally kill the man to calm herself at that moment. She could never show her destructive side infront of the entire office while all most everyone in the floor was staring at them with curious eyes.

Lisa couldn't tolerate a mere employee of two days beating her work records and talking back to her with this much slyness and domination. According to her, Jungkook had no right to look or act this domineering with her when everyone practically didn't have courage to talk to her . Lisa couldn't tolerate Jungkook having the goody goody vibes around him , masking his authorative side which jumps out everytime she talks to him and she would lie if she says standing alone with Jeon Jungkook wasn't somehow scary.

" Please excuse me for now ma'am " Jungkook said with his always polite honey smooth calm collected voice . She didn't reply nor Jungkook actually waited for it before walking away.

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" Tae ? Are you okay ? " Jimin's worry was breaking out through his monotonous distant cold tone as he approached Taehyung on the couch who was staring at him with shocked eyes till now.

" Min...? You're litrelly on time ! The exact time ! " Taehyung suddenly chirped aggressively making Jimin halt on his steps and stare at Taehyung with confused face and a
" What the fuck are you talking about "
expression.

" Huh..? What ? " Jimin asked crossing his hands over his chest and narrowing his eyes at his best friend.

" You're exactly here in Six minutes ! Like what! The exact moment god ! How is it possible ? " Taehyung exclaimed confusing Jimin more.

" If you don't explain what you're saying and plan to keep ranting about it , you better shut the hell up. " Jimin scolded and Taehyung got startled.

" I ...ah " Taehyung was fumbling with his words as he didn't know what to actually tell Jimin . A sudden knock on the door certainly saved Taehyung at the moment.

" May I come in Sir ? " It was Jungkook's voice for sure and Taehyung saw how Jimin's face hardened for a second before he said "yes".

Jungkook entered the office with Jimin's coffee and his eyes met straight with his Boss and only Jungkook knew how everything seemed to stop around him. Could he hold himself sane everytime his eyes met with the gorgeous eyes of his Boss.

" Good Morning Sir... " Jungkook greeted, somehow bringing back his polite smile as he still couldn't blink. His Boss was looking too gorgeous today . Was it even legal to look this bewitching ?

Taehyung was waiting for Jimin to say something but his eyes shocked him when he saw the sudden coldness in Jimin's eyes.

Taehyung knew that Jimin was never like this with anyone but Jungkook. Jimin was always a person of polite reply and all respectful towards his each and every employee ...all that made him scary was his perfectionist mindset and intolerance of lies, excuses and anyone lacking in their work ...but Jungkook wasn't doing any of them.

" Are the reports ready ? " Jimin asked as he sat on his chair. His eyes were still attached to his executive assistant's tall silhouette. Jeon Jungkook, seemed the word 'perfection' itself in Jimin's eyes.

" Yes sir . Here they are. " Jungkook said with a smile and indicated towards the said files on Jimin's table while placing his coffee there.

" And here's your coffee Sir. " Jungkook said extending the cup on the table towards Jimin. His masculine veiny hands were looking too irresistible with those perfect ink works over them.

Jimin's eyes unintentionally or helplessly noticed the tattoes going up towards Jungkook's wrist and then Invisible beneath his shirt cuff. So Jungkook has a full arm tatto ?

Jimin wondered from where Jungkook got those tattoes done. They were so perfectly done and probably looked that attractive because of the person they were inked on.

Jimin suddenly remembered about his tattoes...he has various tattoes as well which makes him face various questions from the media every other day but he never answered any of them. His ' Nevermind ' , ' Youth ' ,
' Young Forever ' , ' 13 ' tattoes were most questioned one.

But there was more... the most important ones may be ? Or the ones that Jimin never wanted to show anyone. The ' Moon Circle '... Jimin has always tried with his everything to keep them private. He had deep affection for them and one more... the huge ' Dragon and Roses ' tattoes that Jimin had in his right leg, starting from his thighs and ending just on his ankle. Both these tattoes were like Jimin's secret treasure safe ...but somehow Jimin lost the key of this treasure safe.

" My work schedule ?" Jimin asked and Jungkook immediately handled him the digital notepad .

Taehyung stayed silent all the time, watching the other two with hitched breathe. He really didn't want to face any lash out today . He didn't want anything to go wrong or anything to happen which could make Jimin disturbed and Jungkook sad.

" Recheck this and reschedule the client meeting of one hour with the evening one. " Jimin said after few brief seconds with his monotonous cold tone while taking a file from his desk and placing it infront of Jungkook .

" Okay Sir. But the client meeting in the evening can be long . It might get extended past office hour. That's the reason I scheduled it at 11:00 " Jungkook reasoned in a explaining tone.

" Can't you just do what you're told Mr. Jeon ? Seems like you can't do anything without questioning it. " Jimin snarled in a poisonous voice which could break apart anyone's confidence in a split second. Even Taehyung felt the insult when he wasn't the one who's getting scolded.

May be the words were simple and employees are used to hear it every other day from their Bosses...but something about Jimin's certain tone or Jungkook's pure soul made it feel more hurtful to Taehyung.

" I'm sorry Sir... I'll do as you told. " Jungkook said looking down and Taehyung could see how the later was trying to hold himself while biting his inner cheeks. His sharp jawline was hardening because of it and anyone would mistake with anger but Taehyung knew, how anxious Jungkook was.

" Leave now. " Jimin said turning his swivel chair in a different direction and this gesture was another reflection of Jungkook's Boss's irritation towards him.

Still Jungkook nodded and bowed to his Boss and then bowed to Taehyung before leaving the office room.

Taehyung couldn't even meet Jungkookie eyes as the later didn't look at him. Just this morning Jungkook was so happy and joking with Taehyung in the car and now this...but what worried Taehyung more was Jimin's behaviour. What was wrong with his Best friend ? He knew him so well, he knew Jimin entirely then...?

The room was all silent for few minutes after that as Taehyung couldn't utter anything and for some reason Jimin looked blankly at the busy city through the glass wall.

" Jimin...? " Taehyung was the one to call but Jimin didn't reply.

" Jimin ? " Taehyung called again and this time with a slight worry in his voice .

" Jiminah ? " Taehyung called again, getting up from the couch this time.

" Hmm ? " Jimin replied this time but didn't turn around towards his best friend.

" Are you okay ? I'm worried about you Min ... You're... you're not- " Taehyung didn't know what to say actually.

" I'm not what ? " Jimin asked with a calm yet distant voice. Taehyung knew this voice so well. Jimin was not okay. He was restless.

" Just tell me if you are not okay Min ! It worries me so much . " Taehyung said approching Jimin.

" Don't worry about me. Worry about your new Brother. " Jimin's sudden words made Taehyung's eyebrows scrunch with confusion.

" What ? Min ? Are you serious ? " Taehyung asked with disbelief. Jimin didn't answer.

" you know how much you mean to me Jimin ! How can you say this ? " Taehyung said.

" Here I'm worried about you and you're... you're questioning this ? Huh ? I don't understand whats wrong with you when it comes time a person whom you barely know Min !"
Taehyung said standing infront of Jimin's desk . Even if his words were aggressive but he didn't raise his voice a bit.

" What are you trying to say Tae ? " Jimin asked with his emotionless voice .

" You know what I'm trying to say Min. You're not like this. You never was. What did Jungkook do to deserve this ? He's just trying to do his job properly. " Taehyung said with rapid heartbeat, dreading to hear Jimin's anger filled words or anything.

" Was I ? Was I never like this ? Can you say it surely ? " Jimin asked turning himself towards Taehyung who paled with this question. The meaning behind Jimin's words, hurt Taehyung knowing... that Jimin was hurting for something.

" Jimin...stop... Please... I didn't mean to- " Taehyung breathe hitched noticing Jimin's shinny eyes and the sad smile . It hurts to see the man like that. The strong facade which he hides himself behind was turning transparent at the moment. Behind the confident, powerful, scary and dominating Park Jimin, there hid a broken Jimin with lost pieces of life.

" I know... leave it. Am I being jealous ? Tae ? That someone else is taking away my place ? I can't name this emotion Tae ? What is it called ?"
Jimin asked with a sad chuckle and looked away while Taehyung's heart broke into millions of pieces.

Once again Jimin was thinking too much. He was scared. He was pressuring himself for something. He was again emphasising the ' lost 'over
his ' present '.

How can Taehyung stop his dearest Best friend this time ? How can he make Jimin understand that his ' lost '
part is dangerous for him ? It left him almost dead ? It left him destroyed, broken and lost ! Why was he not happy with the present ? Why can't he forget what God himself tried to erase ?

" No one is taking away your place Minnie ! No one ever can ! " Taehyung approached Jimin and held the armrests of the later's chair.

Taehyung so wanted to hold Jimin's hand and hug him to reassure but he knew it'll only make it worse. It'd only make Jimin uncomfortable and restless also sad.

Jimin didn't look up at Taehyung.

" Jimin... look at me . " Taehyung said and Jimin did.

" Remember it, no one can replace you. No one can. Never ever. You're my family. Jin hyung and Me, we're your family. Why don't you understand Jiminie ? You're our family from the moment I saw you for the first time ! Understand ? " Taehyung asked and Jimin stared at the older with blank eyes and Taehyung knew that Jimin was lost.

" What is forgotten, let it stay like that Jimin. If it was important, if it was strong enough, if it was anything then it would have came back . " Taehyung said. But a string of anger was latching with his worried tone now.

" Tae ! ... don't..." Jimin tried to protest but what was there to protest ? Nothing.

" There's nothing to say ' Don't ' about Jimin. Litrelly nothing. Trust me, you don't deserve the pain that you make yourself feel. " Taehyung said kneeling infront of Jimin and this time he slowly placed his hand over Jimin's who visibly tensed but tried to relax.

" What if they... they comes back ... what if they - " Jimin asked and Taehyung shook his head immediately.

" They wouldn't. All these years, did they come back ? Whatever that happened, it's past. It's better not be remembered. " Taehyung said with a soft voice, carresing Jimin's hands softly.

" Then why do I feel guilty Tae ? Why why why ! Every single day, every hour, every minute and every second I live with the guilt Tae ! It doesn't leave me ! I did something wrong ! So wrong ! What if I've hurt them ? What if they suffered ? They are suffering ? Why is it like- ahh " Jimin was getting out of breath and suddenly hissed in pain as his head hurt because of the immense pressure he was putting on himself.

" Jimin ! Stop baby stop ! Don't do this Jimin no no no ! " Taehyung pleaded clutching Jimin's hand who breathed harder. The anxiety attack that he was trying not to have , he couldn't stop it anymore.

No one knew this side of Park Jimin. No one except Taehyung and Jin .

" Please tell me that I didn't hurt them ! Please tell me they're okay wherever they are ! Please tell me that I- I- " Jimin clutched his eyes shut and kind of curled himself .

It was nightmare for Taehyung. Years after Jimin was being like this again. He felt so helpless at the moment. He didn't know what to do at the moment. He can't hug Jimin right now ! He can't take Jimin away cause he won't like anyone seeing him like this ... Taehyung was in the verge of crying .

" Please tell that I wouldn't lose you too ! Please tell me that I wouldn't lose myself again ! I can't tolerate the
' who am I ' anymore Tae ! I can't ! They scream at me ! They makes me feel guilty ! They makes me think I'm hurting them ! Killing them ! They tells me to scoot away from every affection ! Tells me to keep myself only for them ! I can't! Can't anymore ! If it's that strong why doesn't they come back and take me ! Why do they hurt me like this by abandoning me !? " Jimin took away his hand from Taehyung's grip and covered his ears and clutched his eyes tighter as he was trying to not hear anything or see anything . It was like He was living a nightmare.

" Jimin Jimin look at me! Listen to me Jimin please please ! " Taehyung pleaded but Jimin didn't listen anything.

" I hate myself for being like this Tae ! I just can't help it ! I can't feel it's me who I'm living like ! It's not me ! I hate hurting people ! I hate it ! " Jimin exclaimed clutching his hair.

Taehyung regretted everything. Regretted bringing up the topic earlier. Something was definitely going wrong with Jimin or something unexpected was happening to trigger Jimin like this.

Or may be Jimin's heart and mind was pulling him towards someone which was making him feel restless for his 'lost'. Which was making him unintentionally hurt the someone because of his fucked up past.

" You know the strings were strong when they dominates you ever after getting lost. "

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Here's the update ! Thank you so much for reading and staying here even of it's a very less number of my lovelies. I appreciate your love and support for this book and me. Trust me, I'm so grateful. So grateful that I've readers who understands me and stays with me when the situation is hard for me.

Thank you so much for 14K reads💜

I know it hurt when they said that they're taking a break... I know, I cried too but through a smile. After all these years of hardwork and dedication for making our lives beautiful, they deserves a little rest and time for themselves. So we shouldn't be selfish and make it look like they're doing something wrong.

They're not disbanding, they NEVER WILL. And it's not even a hiatus ! Why can't some people understand it ? It's BTS FOREVER and they're gonna come back before you can understand. They're thinking about gifting us solos and it's a new start !

As an ARMY I genuinely feel happy that they're taking rest and doing what makes them happy. From last six years, I've been an ARMY and at this point it feels like they're my blood related family members yk ? And supporting their every decision is the best thing I can do.

So the final thing I want to say is, I was an ARMY , I'm an ARMY and I'll always be an ARMY till I die and will never stop writing Jikook ! 💜

Take care, Borahae 💜