“ Every single time you look at me...let your eyes hold love or hatred, it doesn't matter... cause I only fall for you harder. ”

Third Person's POV

" Jiminah...are you feeling okay baby ? You know hyung is worried about you"
Jimin stayed silent, holding the phone pressed to his ear. He didn't know what to answer yet knew that the other one in the line truly cares about him and one of the two person in the entire World he can call his family.

If one knew the depth of Jimin's feelings, they'd know that he respected the one in the line who was none other than Jin , like a God and could do anything for the older.

If the omnipotent God had created Jimin and gave him life then Kim Seokjin has gave him his second Life, saved him when the death had almost pinned all the panel pins of his coffin.

" I'm okay Hyung... don't worry. " Jimin could only utter as he stared at the black velvet box in his lap as he was just once again adoring the tresses of his destruction. He knew Jin and Taehyung wouldn't be a little happy about him doing this but he couldn't help himself.

[ A/n : These are the things the black velvet box contains ]

" Minah...are you telling hyung the truth ? You can be all bossy and The Park Jimin to the world but they're not gonna work on me. You wouldn't dare to lie to your Hyung. Would you " Jin asked with so much hope in his voice but Jimin could still hear the mistrust behind those words.

Jimin knew the older somehow knew that Jimin was lying.

Past few days were the hardest for Jimin in few years. He has been so restless that he barely got any sleep.

And ironically the only thing that soothed him were these extremely expensive and beautiful jewelleries...the only things that connected him with his past.

" You would know if I was lying Hyung... I'm fine, don't worry, please"
Jimin partially lied.

Jimin's fingertips touched over the beautiful blue diamond on the heart necklace with so much affection yet pain that his finger shook . His eyes burnt but no tears came out.

If his destiny and past were only as beautiful as these jewelleries that Jimin kept close to him all this years.

" Did your headache come back Jiminah ? Don't lie. You know you'll need medications in that case. " Jin asked next with a serious tone hidden in his soft voice.

" Not the serious ones. " Jimin answered with short chosen words while his fingers trailed towards those diamond studded earrings .

" Jiminah I swear to god why are you doing this Again !? You're having your headaches back and you didn- " Jin's voice was cut off by Jimin.

" They're not the serious ones Hyung. It's nothing like that. People normally have headaches too. I haven't been pressuring myself for anything anymore ... it's worthless anyways " Jimin uttered those words and his soul shattered once again along with his heart.

" Jiminah... don't say it like that..."

" I'm saying it like how it is... it's not like I'm gonna kill myself nor they'll come back hunting me down... It's nothing. I closed that book or the book threw me away from the story. Whatever... it's not bothering me. Not anymore. " Jimin said and sighed.

He lied. How can it not bother him when all he thinks and desires for is the same thing that everyone tells him to forget forever ?

" Have you had your breakfast yet ? Come to our house for lunch and dinner. It's Saturday, no office no work. And don't you dare decline. " Jin said.

" I've some important work to handle hyung...you know I can't. " Jimin protested but he knew it wasn't gonna work.

He could decline anyone but Jin and Taehyung. He owed those two a damn lot.

" It's not like you can't work in our house Jiminah. You were supposed to be here but you chose not to. Did I stop you from doing that ? Then why don't you listen to me and come here for the weekend ? " Jin said with a stern voice.

Jimin clutched his eyes shut and frowned. Oh how hard it was for him to not stay alone. He knew he couldn't drown himself in his endless misery when Jin and Taehyung will be watching him 24/7. He can't smoke time and again, he can't drink whenever he would want...

He knew Jin suspected something about his sudden rising headache and restlessness and that's why he's doing this.

" okay hyung trust me. I am- " Jimin was trying uselessly.

" yeah I believe you. I didn't question it. Why are you trying to justify it minah? Come here for the weekend. Stay, rest or drown yourself with work , hold meetings , do anything but come here."
Jin said and Jimin sighed knowing he wouldn't win this fight.

" Only for the weekend. " Jimin said and he could literally imagine Jin's delighted face of triumph.

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Even after the call, Jimin sat there for God knows how long staring at those Jewelleries with most distant eyes. His fingers never touching those certain rings that were ofcourse his wedding ring.

The smaller one with diamond and emerald and the bigger one...they were as hurtful as they were beautiful. Jimin didn't even dare to touch them.

And the diamond and gems studded cross shaped brooch which seemed like the symbol of Power... representing dominance and royalty somehow...

It was on the other's coat. Decorating their expensive custom made seamless jacket; just over their chest, indicating their authority and dangerous power of being the emperor of a hellish empire.

Every bit of that thing made Jimin's heart nervous but his face remained void of any expression.

And the next moment he looked at his right palm. The deepest scars there were long gone, no blood, no shredded skin but he knew, once he was clutching so hard onto that brooch that it pierced his skin, the diamonds had his blood on them and the brooch was practically braced with his skin in his clutch and it was still there when he was found .

What was Jimin actually trying to do ? He wondered. Bring his destruction along with him to the dark blue water of death ? or hold onto them with his last strength to not get apart ?

His eyes then fell on the beautiful diamond Rose brooch. He knew it was his ...more likely his symbol ? It was also still there on his jacket when he was found.

Apart from these things, the beautiful broken diamond rolex that couldn't be retrieved and few other rings that broke and pierced his skin, his dark violet dress suit that were torn in places, some burn marks ... These were the things that accompanied Jimin in the aftermath of a lost book of past.

An eventful wedding day that wouldn't be desired in people's darkest nightmares.

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It was 1:30 pm of the noon when Jimin was driving his black BMW m8 to the Kim Mansion.

Even if he could afford hundreds of drivers for himself , he liked to drive himself. He felt peace and relief to do so. It was like one of the strongest traits of his personality that he felt connected to after everything.

He stopped by the nearby big convenience store. Every worker there knew him along with the owner and they knew better than to bother him in any way or dare to talk to him unnecessarily. This neighborhood was known as the celebrity area. So it wasn't abnormal to see actors, idols, influential people around the place but it was Park Jimin after all.

No celebrity can just not stare at him. A very powerful male like him and also his dangerously royal aura made people's knee shiver around him.

Basically Jimin was there to pick some chocolates for Jin. He knew the older's Favorite and how happy he would be to get them. Just like Jin took care of him in his worst days, Jimin always looked after Jin's likings and needs or wants. Even if it's as mere as a chocolate bar.

But Jimin wasn't surely expecting to find his assistant there , probably stumbled upon someone, making their basket fall and the things scatter.

" I'm really sorry Ma'am ! Lemme help " Jungkook said with paranoid voice as he already bowed atleast 6-7 times in a matter of few seconds before kneeling down to pick the middle aged lady's things up that he stumbled upon.

Jimin didn't know why his body froze seeing his not so normal assistant looking assistant . He didn't know why he felt his chest tighten in seconds, it rose a little up than normal. Was he breathing hard ?

' What the FUCK ' Jimin thought.

In the corner of his eyes Jimin also noticed the workers and watchman staring at him as he was looking at Jungkook and the lady a little far away.

He turned his heels towards the left, away from Jungkook who didn't notice him yet and was busy apologising to the lady.

" No no no it wasn't your fault, I wasn't looking straight. Don't apologise Please- "

Jimin even heard the lady's words and he walked faster towards the racks where he knew his chocolates would be. But why was it feeling like he was running away from his assistant ?

" I just don't want my peace to be ruined. He'll just start with his useless motivating attitude. " Jimin might have told himself this to himself.

When Jimin reached the needed place, to his dismay he found the row of Jin's Favorite chocolate empty.

" Fuck this. It had to be out of stock today ? " Jimin mumbled irritated.

" Sir ? " The voice behind Jimin instantly made Jimin close his eyes shut in more irritation or may be uneasiness ?

" Sir ? Sir Good afternoon! What are you doing here? Chocolates ? You eat these chocolates too ? Oh common where's my common sense !? Who doesn't like chocolates ! " Jungkook said that in one go as he rushed infront of Jimin with a full bunny smile . His voice immediately filling Jimin up with a kind of energy which he despised all this years.

Jungkook's voice made Jimin feel like he was alive. Wasn't it an irony ? Ofcourse Jimin wasn't dead for all this time before his oh so gorgeous , Greek god assistant arrived ... then why did Jimin feel like he was struggling for breathe all this time and Jeon Jungkook hit him like a oxygen mask ?

It was so contrary. Park Jimin didn't like Jeon Jungkook by any means or was it more like Park Jimin disliked the fact that he wanted to like Jeon Jungkook ?

Jimin's molars got pressed together before he finally opened his eyes and looked up at the taller infront of him; Looking oh so damn gorgeous without even trying.

" Mr. Jeon. " Jimin emphasized those words with no interest at all but it only brightened the older's smile.

" I'm sorry to disturb you Sir but I thought I just saw you there and came here and realised it's really you ! " Jungkook exclaimed happily , unfortunately bringing no expressions on Jimin's face. It saddened Jungkook but he could care less about his mere sadness.

Jimin couldn't understand how Jungkook was so forgiving and all bright when literally last night Jimin told him to get out of his sight and lashed out at him for breakfast also declining his polite offer in a harsh manner. The older acted like nothing happened.

" If you really understood the meaning of disturbance, you would not be standing here infront of me now. " Jimin said with his voice sounding stone cold as he walked past Jungkook to look out in other rows to see if the said chocolate was there.

" Sorry sir but mom taught me to greet thyepeople we know when I see them in public " Jungkook said proudly and followed behind Jimin who just sighed , feeling an instant shortening of breath.

" I think you're already done greeting me. Now please take your leave. " Jimin said turning his voice more down, colder if possible but never disrespecting or detesting whatever Jungkook's mother has said.

Then one thing suddenly itched Jimin's thoughts. Taehyung only said Jungkook was living in America and has no family. Why ? Why doesn't he have any family ?

By now Jimin has assumed that Jungkook's parents died, died tragically somehow . Oh , accident, Taehyung mentioned. But exactly how ? Jungkook didn't have anyone else in his family ?

Why was Jimin so interested ?

" But I think you're looking for this one right ? " Jungkook asked walking faster to walk past Jimin and suddenly stopped infront of Jimin.

But the situation didn't end up like it was supposed to be.

The sudden action made Jimin startled and almost stumble upon Jungkook's tall built silhouette.

But somehow Jimin restrained himself for his own good .

Jungkook gasped audibly and stood frozen as Jimin looked up at his eyes with a burning stare that could make any one's spine shiver.

" The hell is wrong with you Mr. Jeon ? " Jimin asked gritting his teeth as he was now genuinely pissed and in the verge of losing his temper which he didn't actually intend to .

But what if he had stumbled with Jungkook !? What if they skin came into contact !? What if Jungkook dared to touch him !? Not badly but just touch !? Jimin can't tolerate anyone touching him at all.

" Si-sir I'm so-sorry di-dn't mean- " Jungkook was beyond terrified as his voice trembled seeing Jimin get so angry visibly.

" THE FUCK YOU DIDN'T MEAN MR. JEON !? ARE YOU FUCKING BLIND !? DO I LOOK LIKE I'M ENJOYING YOUR PRESENCE !? FOR GOD'S DAMN SAKE STOP BOTHERING ! " Jimin didn't even understand how he lost his temper like that cause he wasn't like this.

Jimin didn't even get a hold of the moment and realise how pale Jungkook turned. The older shrunk with sadness and embarrassment . He didn't mean to disturb Jimin like that by any means nor he thought Jimin will get so angry for this little thing...they didn't even bump .

Jungkook looked down, his eyes glancing at few people who were looking at them and it made his stomach churn probably. May be he wanted to run away.

" am... I am ...sorry...sir... " Jungkook said and it was barely audible as he was also looking down. He couldn't even look at Jimin .

" Sir ? Anything wrong ? Is he bothering you ? " Some of the workers approached them as they wouldn't even think about making Park Jimin disappointed.

Jungkook almost clutched his eyes shut, thinking the moment would end or he'll just wake up realising it was a nightmare.

" Do you want him out of the store Sir ? Are you okay sir ? " The worker asked with a paranoid voice.

But Jimin couldn't say anything now. What was he doing ? Was he losing his mind ? What did he just do ? Ofcourse Jungkook didn't deserve this ! Why did Jimin lose his temper like that ?

" Hey you man ! What did you do !? Get out of the store right now before the watchman drags you out ! Would you like that !? " One of the workers roared at Jungkook from behind.

They were approaching the duo from Jungkook's behind .

" I- I'll just... I'll just leave... I'm sorry for all the inconveniences. " Now Jungkook spoke suddenly and turned around to face the workers.

And Jimin could clearly see the workers' stunned expression seeing Jungkook. The man looked highly intimidating without trying and right now his not gelled backwards Curly, shoulder long, raven hair was majestically decorating his perfect face . He had his glasses on , his loose white shirt wasn't defining his built frame but if light comes from opposite direction, one could easily imagine the godly physic of this gorgeous male. His shirt sleeves were rolled up to his elbow and those tattoes on that hand would leave anyone hungry for more.

Unlike office, Jungkook had his rings on in his 9 fingers, the empty one being his left hand ring finger. Those gothic silver rings were from some unique collection to stare at . He was wearing his earrings, even his helix ones. He also had his eyebrow and lip piercing on. How much more attractive can a person look than this ? He screamed perfection. Even the word ' perfect ' would cry infront of Jeon Jungkook.

Jimin had noticed all this but the thing that scratched his mind was Jungkook's defeated voice... the hurtness... His sad eyes.

Why did it make Jimin so restless that he even felt his heart do weird things?

The workers literally stood there gawking at Jungkook now.

" D-do you kn-know him Sir ? " One of the workers dared to ask Jimin who remained silent through out the moment.

But it hurt Jungkook so much. So much that only he could feel and understand. When Jimin said nothing...it made Jungkook feel so worthless. His boss doesn't even want to acknowledge him as his known in public ?

Jungkook really didn't want to feel this nonsense things and wanted to scold himself for even bothering Jimin after all the things Jin has said this morning.

Even when he was hurt, Jungkook was more hurt thinking if it was Jimin's trauma reaction...

" N-no...no he doesn't. I disturbed him and it's my fault. " Jungkook was the one to say before turning back to Jimin.

" I just wanted to give you this Sir... thinking you might be finding this. I-it was the last packet here so..uhmm... Just that. I'm sorry. Please accept my apology. " Jungkook said before bowing to Jimin and even though he wanted to give the chocolate Box to Jimin's hand...he couldn't.

So Jungkook just kept it in the asile where it was before he picked it up and stomped out of the store.

" What a freak... we're sorry for all that sir... next time we'll make sure this doesn't happen. " The workers said pleasingly to Jimin even though they themselves stared at Jungkook till he left.

Now suddenly Jimin wanted to choke that worker who dared to yell at his assistant. How dare they !? Did Jimin call them !? No ! Then why !?

Upon this thoughts made Jimin feel more crazy. What was even going on inside his head ?

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By the time Jimin got into his car with the chocolate, he was already having his uneasiness eating him up. He didn't know why he looked left and right in the parking lot and outside on the road ... His eyes looking for a tall handsome man in white shirt and open long hair. But there wasn't a tress of the other.

Does he really need those medications again ? He didn't want to go through that medicine, injections and therapy sessions again. It was itself a trauma to him. It'll make him recall everything all over and he would have to pretend to get better... Just like he did last time.

Every single day Jimin broke himself in secret and pretended to be okay for the people's sake who truly cares for him.

But why...just why now suddenly everything was feeling so unsettling ?

And why was he feeling like losing his mind and do whatever his intrusive thoughts leads him to do ?

Park Jimin, a dominant man, a control freak over his reign and also himself now suddenly feeling like he was being controlled and his anxiety was rising higher with how familiar it felt .

Could an unknown or forgotten presence be felt just like that ? Jimin didn't know.

Jimin took his phone in his hand and dialed a number immediately. It didn't even ring for three times before it was picked up.

" Jiminah ? Where are you ? It's getting late ! Did you leave your apartment yet ? Or you want me to go and drag you here ? " Jin's voice could be heard from the other side. Even when the older pretended to be angry, the nervousness and tension was evident behind his voice.

" don't worry. I'm on my way " Jimin said staring his car once again.

" oh ? Hyung ask him if everything is okay ? Is paparazzi bothering him again ? God knows why he doesn't roam around with body guards ! He doesn't know how important- " Taehyung's voice could be heard from the other side also.

" you're driving right now? Drive safely. Taehyung and I are waiting for you and- " Jin was cut off by Jimin.

" anyone else coming ? Jimin interrupted Jin's words.

" Huh ? I don't get it Minah, Please come again. " Jin questioned.

" Is anyone else coming ? Rather than me, are you two expecting someone else today ? " Jimin's patience was running out sooner than he expected.

" oh ? How do you know Minah? I'm expecting Mr. Kang and his son to join us for dinner. You know ,
Kang Daehyun ? The famous cardiologist ? They wouldn't bother your privacy baby But if you have any problems I can cancel the dinner " Jin didn't even hesitate about the decision.

But this was not what Jimin was expecting to hear.

" It's fine. But no one else ? " Jimin asked, hating how the older wasn't getting it and hating the fact more that why he was being this desperate about someone whom he can't tolerate.

" uhm no ? Who else ? And I know you don't like so much people around. Common I'm your hyung for a reason. So don't worry, there will be no one else. " Jin said and Jimin wanted to slam his hand on the steering wheel so badly.

" Uh uhm okay. " Jimin wasn't going to say it out ofcourse. Even though he felt genuinely guilty of his own irrational behaviour , he wasn't going to break out of his boundaries.

Park Jimin has hurt so many people's fragile egos to reach the place he owns now and never hesitated to show people where their places were but never had he ever hurt anyone for no reason.

Even though he has always confined himself, couldn't give himself the luxury of being too much loved , kept himself secluded...he never wanted to hurt anyone who didn't deserve it.

Then why...why was Jeon Jungkook evoking this unknown emotions in Jimin's system ? Why was this man able to make Jimin feel restless and weird ? That too in just few days ?

Jimin wasn't a kid or blind to not understand that Jungkook was attracted to him. Jimin understood it so well, in the very first day itself but why...why couldn't Jimin dislike the fact ?

Why was there a hint of weird satisfaction ?

" Do you want anyone else here today ... Jiminah? " Jin asked from the other side and Jimin broke out of his thoughts.

If Jimin could see through the call, he would have understood how hopeful Jin looked right now, thinking of the chances.

" No . See you soon Hyung. Bye. " Jimin said and without giving Jin a chance to same something more, he cut the call.

" Ughh ! " With a frustrated groan, Jimin speeded up his car and turned the corner of the street without noticing the lined up expensive black cars on the road side that had people inside them watching him.

“ They say Love makes you careless and fearless;
But the pain becomes constant. ”

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