"Tumhara Dil mere Dil ke
Baraabar ho nahi sakta!
Woh Sheesha ho nahi sakta,
Ye patthar ho nahi sakta!!"

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"I think, she changed me for good. She gave me hope. Unlike you, she didn't use me for anything. She always considers my decisions." Daniyal replied proudly. He didn't lie even a sentence. Yes, Kinza changed him for good. Now he can smile freely which reached his heart. She made him proud by handling the business and she always asked him before taking any decision. She never questioned him about his whereabouts. She respected his privacy. She understood that he loves Hoor and never for once, tried to snatch her place.

After completing the meetings back to back, Daniyal rechecked his schedule to confirm that he didn't have any work for today which left him 2 hours before he reach his home at the usual time. He opened Kinza's dairy where the first page was designed beautifully with her name printed on it with glitter gel and rose petals.

He ignored his heart, which was warning him that he was reading someone's personal information without their consent but his brain reasoned him that he should know everything about her, and he was doing nothing wrong. He agreed with his brain and skipped a few pages where she has written about her childhood.

The skipping of pages came to halt when he saw a page filled with glitter and rose petals where a page was titled with Marriage - A new beginning or regret? He turned the paper carefully to read from the page to know her emotions.

12/03/11
Dear diary,

Today Dad ordered me to marry Daniyal. Apparently, Hoor bhaji was going through some difficulty in her pregnancy, so he wants me to marry Daniyal and give them a kid. How can I marry him and how can I become someone's second wife? I want to have a marriage where my partner will be my first choice. They look so happy together and why would Hoor bhaji want to share her husband? 

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24/03/11
Dear diary,

Today I got married, second wife to someone else. The irony of my life, I know I can never have my husband's love and he proved it today on our first night. I wished, He will say something else like maybe we can fall in love or we have a chance but he clearly mentioned he will always be in love with Hoor. I was filled with jealousy and guilt at the same time. Jealous that Hoor got her share of love and an amazing partner. Guilt that I separated two people who are immensely in love with each other, whose hearts still beat for each other. The guilt feeling is more compared to the jealousy feeling.

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05/04/11
Dear diary,

Hoor bhaji always tried to throw me at her husband. Today she told me about his likes, his dislikes and the way he behaves and what he likes in a woman. She made me promise that I should work on our relationship, but how can I make it work? Daniyal always run away from me whenever I try to have a normal conversation which just included about weather and nature. How can I make a move? How can I force him to love me? Isn't love is the world's beautiful feeling which happens without your knowledge?

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15/04/11
Dear diary,

Hoor and Mom dropped a bomb on me. They are going from house thinking Daniyal will accept me and we will have a marital relationship. They were so wrong. He left the next day leaving me alone with his brother. Which husband does this? I can't even question him. He neither gave me any rights nor did I to him.

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16/04/11
Dear diary,

Today I smashed a vase on Imran. He was so angry with me. Even though, he seems rude he is caring and hiding his facade from me because he thinks that I am the reason that his bhabhi left home. How can I make everyone understand that I don't have any hand in it?

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28/04/11
Dear Diary,

Today Imran came home early, we became friends. He scolded me for arranging his clothes neatly in the cupboard. What can I do? I was getting bored and I didn't have any works to do. So I arranged everyone's clothes in the mansion. Obviously, I  can't tell him that. Then he will again talk rudely. Gosh, he has a lot of mood swings compared to a girl.

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06/05/11
Dear diary,

Imran was praising the cheesecake so much. He kept thanking Razia for making such an awesome cake. He even kissed Razia's hands expressing his gratitude. What if he comes to know that I made the cake. I can't stop smiling imagining how he will be so embarrassed to even look at me. One of the happiest days of my life.

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11/05/11
Dear diary,

We meet again. I know I hardly share my feelings with you but today, Imran came to know that I used to make a cheesecake for him. I thought he will scold me for hiding the truth but he ordered me to make him the cake every weekend. This guy never fails to amaze me. Today he went to some mall to attend a meeting. There he saw a beautiful black dress which he gifted me claiming that I will look good in it. I hesitated to ask why he bought the dress. As if, he can read my feelings, he explained that its the token of gratitude for my cheesecake.

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20/05/11
Dear diary,

I am craving for chocolates badly. I asked Imran to bring some chocolates while coming home. He scolded me for disturbing him in the middle of the meeting calling him. I don't know why I felt like screaming at him. Nowadays he is confusing me. He will be very sweet like diabetes and next few days he will be like a bitter guard. What's happening to me? Why is he affecting me so much?