Guilt
The two of us, Peridot and I, hold hands as we head back to the barn. We can't stop smiling. I try to contain my excitement from earlier. Peridot squeals, her eyes shining.
"That was the most fun I've ever had since...since-!"
"Lapis?"
"No. I've never felt this way before. Lapis seemed so amazing. We had some affection towards each other. But you...and me, what are we?"
I look down. The smile dissapears. Everything, even the joy, breaks down inside me. I then squeeze Peridot's hand as I grit my teeth. Peridot yelps. "Ow! What the heck was that for?!"
I let go of her hand as I tear up. Could it be true that I was the only one that cared deeply about Pearl...while she cared so much more for...her? Did Pearl try to use me? I sit down and I cover my face.
Was Jasper right? Was it really just nothing more than affection? So many questions, so little answers. Am I copying the act that she pulled on me? This...this isn't right.
I start sobbing in guilt. I appear to have stolen Peridot's heart from Lapis. So did Pearl steal me from Garnet? Was she going to try to make her jealous with a false relationship?
How can you not see what's wrong in a false relationship that seems so believable? You can't. All you can see are two people. Two beings. Together. I feel a hand touch my shoulder.
I stop sobbing. Peridot takes off my coat before giving my shoulders a massage. "Are you okay, Amethyst?" I sigh. She stops massaging my shoulders. She crawls up to me and we stare at each other, face to face.
She presses a hand on my cheek and she starts making out with me. I tear up some more as I kiss her back. Well, I may have destroyed Peridot and Lapis' relationship. But who cares? At least maybe now, I can finally find some closure within Peridot.
I lie down on the grass as we go into a full on make out session. We close our eyes as we keep kissing each other. Peridot lets go of me for a second. "I...I love you, Ame."
"Heh." I blush. This time, for real. "I love you too, Peri."
We chuckle. "Nerd."
"Clod." We continue kissing. We stay like that for so long, I can't keep track of the time. I open my eyes to see the sun starting to set. We breath as we let go of each other. "It's getting late." I frown.
We get up and we stare into each other's eyes. "Should we do this again sometime?"
"Anytime!"
"Alright. Come on. Lapis must be worried about us." We reach the barn and we see that Lapis is making dinner tonight for us.
Me and Peridot go onto the car attached to the barn and we turn on the TV. We turn on Camp Pining Hearts. We try to hold our blushes. After about 4-5 episodes of watching the show, Lapis comes up as well.
She gives us some soup and we watch the show together as Pierre appears on the screen. She glares as Percy and Paulette make out in a nearby forest. And then I enter reality once more.
I watch carefully as Lapis puts an arm around Peridot. But Peridot no longer smiles during that. In fact, she doesn't even look at her. She just stares at the TV instead.
I look down and then I look up at the sky. I sigh. It is done. Why does this feel so wrong and so right at the same time? To Peridot, Lapis is just a friend to her now. As for me, Peri and I, have become one true pair together.
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