I walk into the barn to meet up with the others. No one's in there other than Lapis. She doesn't look back at me. "Lapis? Where's Peridot and Jasper?" Lapis doesn't respond as she makes dinner.

I walk out of the barn in disgust, remembering what happened the previous night. She apparently hates me right now and she's giving me a taste of my own medicine. Fine. I see how it is. I walk away from the barn.

I stop near the hill. I sit down. I sigh. "Why? Why did this have to happen...
to me?" I sigh and I start a tune as I look at up at the night sky above me with remorse.

"It's all my fault."

I get up as a light breeze brushes against the my hair, making it sway a bit.

"Why is it all my fault?"

I walk away as I shiver, even though I have a jacket on.

"It just couldn't have been mine.
It couldn't have been mine."

I look into the barn where Lapis is still making dinner.

"I used to be one of them."

My Gem shines in the moonlight.

"A crystal shining away in the darkness.
I kept everything to myself.
I didn't care on what went wrong.
I didn't care how I wronged."

I turn away to look back at the sky.

"I only cared...that it's all my fault.
I did the worst and now I must suffer...alone."

I can see an apparition of Eloc in the sky and I grit my teeth for a moment.

"But I'm never alone."

I can see myself picking up the shards and then crushing them in my hand.

"The faults of the past keep entering my mind.
And I can't do anything about it.
I can't forget about them."

I can see all of my past mistakes with me causing Steven to get into trouble. From the time I messed around with him to him seriously getting hurt over stretching for too long on his birthday.

"All the stupid things that I have caused."

I can see Pearl firing at me with her spear in the Kindergarten from that time me and Steven ran away for a bit.

"I always do everything wrong.
From the past to the present to the future."

I can see the temple burning down in flames.

"I can not fix what I have shattered.
It's all my fault.
I did what I had to.
I never wanted things to be this way."

I can see myself kissing Pearl.

"It wasn't part of the plan."

We smiled after we let go.

"It wasn't part of my plan."

Pearl frowns and she dissapears as I try to reach out for her.

"It all just happened to us...and it's all my fault."

I sigh. A hand is placed on my shoulder. I look over to see Lapis standing next to me. She doesn't smile or give me any response. We just stand there like that. "It's okay, Amethyst. It wasn't all your fault."

"But, Lapis, it was all my fault. I did all of that."
"I know. But it wasn't your intent. I know that you're half-fusion. I know how it feels. I've been fused as Malachite for months. I've always hated myself because I felt that it was all my fault that I ended up like that."

"But, was it really all your fault? Or are you just saying that to make me feel better?"
"Maybe both. But I knew that the whole Malachite thing wasn't all my fault. You need to let that go, Amethyst. You said it yourself."

I sigh. "Will I ever be loved again, Lapis? Pearl's gone and I just feel so alone right now. I just don't know anymore." Lapis smiles. "Look, if you want to be loved again, you'll be loved again. Someday."

"I hope you're right, Lapis. I'm sorry." "It's alright, Amethyst. Come on. Dinner's almost ready." We walk back to the barn together. "It's gonna be okay, Amethyst. You just need to let it go." I take a deep breath. "Thanks, Lapis."