A hand touches my shoulder. "Hey." I turn around and there she is smiling at me. "Hey, Eyeball." I try to smile for her. She crawls over to my side and she sits next to me. I look over to see sweat pouring down her forehead.

She then stutters in an obvious tone of anxiety. "S-so, are y-you okay,
A-Amethyst? Y-you seem r-really upset r-right n-now." It's obvious that she has a crush on me. It's a sign that most people are able to hide.

But for those like Eyeball, they can't help but show it to their love interest. And now, I feel even more guilty. Because I want to feel what she's feeling right now. But I can't. I'll at least try some small talk with her.

"Yeah. I'm alright."
"You were crying." She was there. "I wanted to help you back there but...
Lapis. She was just too strong. I was afraid I might get poofed or worse. I'm sorry."
"Don't be."

She blushes. "Uh..." She clears her throat. "D-Do you wanna take a walk or...?"
"No thanks, Eyeball. It's best if I don't."
"You wanna go for a swim?"

She points at the lake. "It's a really nice day out for that." I blush for a moment. "No."
"Maybe...we could go into town and get something."
"No."

"Maybe we could explore the temple a bit more."
"Eyeball, we're never going back there again."
"Right. Uh...we could...go to the Kindergarten."
"No."

Each "no" that I place on Eyeball is just more weight added to my depression. It's like I'm trying to enter that stage now on purpose. Eyeball frowns...but she doesn't give up.

"Maybe...we could check out the ship together? I could show you around. Maybe we could go for a test run or something?"
"No."
"Uh...we could watch Camp Pining Hearts if you want?"
"No."

"We could hang out with Jasper or maybe Bismuth? We could talk to Peridot or maybe have a discussion with Lapis or-"
"NO!" I get up. "Amethyst, are you okay?" I tear up and I cover my face, clenching my teeth.

I can see something that only fusions can see off in the distance. I can see butterflies, projecting my reflection off of them. They swarm around me and they fly up into the sky. They combine into one giant butterfly.

I can see myself and Eloc fusing. This is what started it all. Eloc. ELOC! I pound a fist into the ground and I cry once more. I can still hear him laughing inside my head. I yank my hair and I scream.

The butterflies break apart and they swoop down on me. They combine again and I can see Eloc standing there in front of the lake. He laughs even more. But this time, I can see him laughing.

I run up to the illusion as I raise a fist. "I'LL KILL YOU!" I punch Eloc...but he isn't anywhere near phased by the attack. I punch him again and again. I then pull out two whips and I lash out at him one after the other...and he doesn't stop laughing.

"STOP LAUGHING!" He walks towards me. I keep lashing out at him until I collapse at his feet. "Pathetic. Just pathetic. Just look at you now, Amethyst. You're nothing but a mistake. You were made for the sole purpose of serving me."

"STOP!" I sob as Eloc kicks me in the face. "And you have done well. Remember Amethyst, every Gem was made for a purpose. To serve the order of the Diamonds. However, a lucky few have been made to serve me. AND ME ONLY!"

He kicks me again. "Next, you will shatter everyone you care about starting with her." He points behind me. "DO IT, NOW!"
"NO!" I lunge into him and I hit the lake's surface. Eloc dissapears and I sink towards the bottom.

I watch as Eyeball's silhouette swims down to save me. I look down at my Gem. It's even more cracked than it was the night I first tried shattering myself. I close my eyes and everything turns pitch black.