*Sigh* If you are sensitive to self-harm or suicidal thoughts, you should probably stop reading this series. Or at least the first book. Continue at your own discretion.

I open my eyes as I wake up to another day here in what's left of my miserable life. I can't believe this. How will Peridot and Lapis react to hearing how I even got banned?

I shattered a Crystal Gem! And not just any Crystal Gem, but my Cystal Gem. We could've been her. A fusion like Garnet and we could've lived happily ever after.

But no! Life chose to push me even further down the line and this is all I'm left with now. After Peridot and Lapis, I'll probably shatter myself since no one would even care about me after that.

Oh come on! I miss Pearl already! Her soothing voice and those lips. I can't imagine my life without her. Maybe, it's best if I just head over to the Kindergarten and shatter myself there just to get it over with.

I get up and I start walking. "AMETHYST?!" Peridot has spotted me. Shoot! I can hear her running  footsteps. I turn around and I also see Lapis running up with her. "Peri! Slow down!"

Peridot finally reaches me and she gives me a quick hug. "Wow. Amethyst! You're looking good! Where did you get that flashy outfit you've got on?"

"Uh..." Lapis walks up to join Peridot's side. She looks dissapointed. "Where's Steven?" I look down, already looking guilty. Lapis and Peridot exchange looks with one another.

"Uh...so, how are you doing?" I walk away from them. I don't have time for this garbage anymore. "Did she just walk right past us?"
"Hmm..." Peridot runs right in front of me and she catches me off guard.

I slip and I fall onto the grass and dirt below. I glare at Peridot who continues to smile. I get up and I shove her our of the way. "Out of my way, clod!" Peridot hits the ground as I continue walking.

Suddenly, a feel a water hand grab me. "Whoops." I am sent flying into Lapis Lazuli. She holds me in her grip, monotone. "What is your problem, clod?"
"Oh! So what are you going to do? Kill me? Go right ahead!"

Lapis lets me go and I run away from her. Peridot gets in the way again and I collide with her as we hit the ground. I cough along with her. "Ah!" We look down at each other.

"Uh..." I blush and I get off of Peridot. Peridot gets up from the ground and she pats the dirt off of her. Lapis lands next to us and she retracts her water wings. "Guys! Are you two okay?!" "Yeah. I'm fine, Lapis."

Lapis looks at me with concern. "I don't remember you ever being like this around us. What happened?" Yep. It's inevitable alright. But, I just can't tell them. I walk away from them.

"Why is she acting this way?"
"I'm not sure. We need her to stay with us for the time being. I don't like the idea of her travelling all alone like this. And especially in a mood like that."

"Should I go talk to her?"
"No. I'll take care of this." I can hear her fly towards me. Once she lands, she tries to play it seriously. "So, since you're alone, why not stay with us for a while?"

"Hmm..."
"I'm pretty sure the Gems wouldn't mind that either, right?" The Gems? The Gems don't even care about me anymore. I sigh. "Yeah. Alright."