Dear Diary,

Today was... well, it was a day full of emotions. 😔

I finally did it. I told Shu exactly how I've been feeling. It was hard to open up to him, but I just couldn't take it anymore. I told him that I hate feeling so lonely all the time. I hate that he's always busy with Valt, going on dates, and getting ready for the National Beyblade Tournament. I told him I wanted him to be there for me when I needed him, like we used to be.

It wasn't easy to say, but once I said it, I felt a little lighter. Maybe it was the weight of everything finally coming out, but it felt like a small relief.

And then—Shu surprised me. After I told him how I felt, he actually listened. He promised he'd make more time for me, and to prove it, he brought me a gift. It's a cute outfit he picked out for me, and I love it. I guess, even though we're not as close as we used to be, he still cares about me in his own way.

I won't lie, having an older brother can be really tough sometimes. You look up to them, but they grow up and get busy with their own lives. I feel like Shu has been slipping away from me, and it's hard to accept. It's like life isn't the same when your family isn't by your side like they used to be. I miss the days when he and I were inseparable.

But, I guess things change. My brother has a boyfriend now, and they spend almost every day together. I get it, I do. He's happy. But it still doesn't make it any easier to deal with the loneliness.

Thankfully, though, I'm not completely alone. I'm lucky to have Dick, Jason, Tim, and Damian by my side. They've been such good friends to me lately. Whenever I'm feeling down or lost, they're there for me, cheering me up, helping me figure things out, and even showing me how to do things I didn't know how to do (like having fun for once! 😅). They feel like brothers that I can always count on.

So yeah, life isn't perfect. It's definitely not the same as when Shu and I were close, but with my awesome friends by my side, I feel like I can take on anything.

I have to go now. Shu's home, and I promised I'd help him with his Beyblade gear.

Your BFF,
Stella G.K. 💖