Dear Diary,

Today was... okay, I guess. Or maybe it wasn't. I don't even know anymore.

I feel like my life is just flipping upside down. Shu is spending way too much time with Valt. I mean, I get it—they're dating now, and I should be happy for them, but... what about me? Shu has always been the one person who truly understands me, the only family I have. But now that Valt is in the picture, it's like I barely exist to him.

And as if that wasn't bad enough... Ken broke up with me. 💔

He had to transfer schools, and just like that, we're over. No long-distance, no "we'll make it work," just... done. I get why, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. I thought he cared about me, that we had something special. Now, it feels like I'm all alone.

I had to cook dinner for myself tonight. Again.

Shu didn't even notice. Didn't ask if I ate, didn't ask how I was feeling, nothing. It's like I'm disappearing from his world, and I don't know how to stop it. Shu, I need you.

Diary, I just wish someone was here to hug me and tell me that everything is going to be okay. That this is just a rough patch and things will get better. But right now? It doesn't feel like it will.

To try and shake things up a little, I decided to change my look for this week—and for the rest of April. Maybe a fresh start will help me feel a little less... invisible.

Here's my new look and outfit: VVVVVVVVVV

But honestly? A new outfit won't change how empty I feel inside.

Life isn't easy. It never has been, and maybe it never will be. Life is just... life. People leave, things change, and you're left to figure everything out on your own.

And right now, that's exactly how I feel—alone.

I have to go. Time to make dinner. By myself. Again.

Your BFF,
Stella G.K.