currently Vic is dropping me off at a train station because i refuse to make him drive me all the way to a different state and then have to drive back to cali on his own in the physical state he is in, i dont care that vic says hes okay, he has too many marks on his body to count, when i see him again they are surely to be all gone.

yesterday vic and i mostly slept, well i was asleep, when i woke up he was still next to me, he wont admit it but i bet he was watching me sleep. besides that it was a lazy day like the day before, just hanging out at his place.

i look over at vic whos driving, i can tell hes trying to hold back tears.

"vic, its not like we cant call eachother or see eachother ever again" i state

"i know" he says softly with a shakey breath

"you should go on tour with motionless in white again, those dudes are cool" i say changing the subject, trying to change his mind on the whole 'we might go on tour with tonight alive' thing.

"hm i dont know, i dont know if fans would like that as much as we do" he says

It didn't work.

"im going to miss waking up the the smell of pancakes, and im going to miss waking up to music by brand new at three in the morning on rainy days" i say sofly

"i'll be waiting for you kellin, i'll make sure i have tons of cds and pancake mix, just for you, i just cant promise rain" he says and before i know it he slowly parks his car.

"dont go" he pleads

"vic the next train is in like ten minutes, i kind of have to go"

"you could stay with me"

"i have school vic, i cant be an uneducated prick forever"

"you are a prick quinn, you are leaving me"

"love you too" i say as i lean closer and pull him into a kiss, he puts his hands around my neck pulling me closer,deepining the kiss. "i love you" he says before letting me go, i grab my suff and i close the door and wave goodbye before going into the train station and getting my ticket and waiting five minutes before the trian shows up and i make my way inside and i take a seat, putting my bag on the floor in front of me. i put in my earphones and click play,

"I breathe you in with smoke in the backyard lights" vic's voice goes into my ears and i close my eyes then open them to look out the window. minutes go by of just listening to vic's voice, missing it more and more.

after a half an hour of the train stopping i see a reflection on the window of someone sitting next to me, i look over and i pull my earphones out.

"oli?" i ask and he smiles at me

"mate, i got on here thinking i would be alone, and here you are"

"here i am, but i thought you were in florida"

"took a plane from florida to LA stayed there for a while, and well now, im not sure i might just go to NYC for a bit"

"you could always come with me,i need someone there to make sure i dont do somthing stupid"

"im in, who needs to go to nyc,when i have friends like you"

"that sounds horrible,no, continue your way to nyc"

"no,im staying with you"

"im with vic again" i say

"really?"

"ya, i was with this other dude before, and well now vic is" i say then i take a deep breath

"hes a bloody mess, yeah i heard, he told me, i told him not to go after that guy, he texted me saying he was going to teach some guy named jack a lesson" oli says as he shakes his head.

"oh"

"you make him happy kellin"

"because of me he hit you, because of me he went after jack"

"its not because of you, its because hes scared of lossing you"

"he loves you" oliver adds

the train stops and i realize its our stop and we grab our stuff and rush outside.

"i called austin,he should be around here somewhere" i state as we walk out of the station

"kellin!" i see austin say as he rushes over and puts his arms around me.

"oliver!" austin says as he takes his arms from around me and gives oliver a hug.

"lets get you home" austin says as he pats my back and leads us to his car.

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we get off at my house, my car parked outside, not like im going to drive that anytime soon. i walk inside and i see alan and justin and balloons everywhere.

"kellin!" they scream and they put their arms around me

"dont say oliver! and fake excitement, im going to wash my hands, or somthing" oliver says and he walks away.

"it feels like forever! how have you been?" alan asks

"okay i guess"

"wheres jack?" justin asks

"hm, we are kind of over"

"finally!" alan says and i laugh

"im with vic again" i say softly

"wow, hows he doing?" alan asks

and i tell them about vic and jack.

"he loves you" alan says in a girly voice and i smile

"yeah, he really does" i say softly and nothing can wipe this smile off my face.

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i wake up to my stupid alarm going off. why did oliver fix this last time. im about to do the lazy thing and throw my alarm but instead a hand stops me

"no braking alarms" oliver says and he turns off my alarm for me

"fine" i mumble and i get up and open my closet, i hear oliver leaving and i grab some jeans and a black shirt, i grab my backpack and i open the door.

"bye oliver!" i say loudly

"bye! have a nice day at school!"

"thanks mom!"

"welcome love!" he says and i laugh before walking out and closing the door behind me.

"kellin!" i hear justin yell as he runs up to me

"for real, dont forget about me" he adds with a sigh

"sorry" i say and we walk into the school. i get into my class and i sit in the front, something i never do, no one talks to me. lunch time comes around and i rush out of my class and i go to my locker and open the door.

"babe" i cringe and i feel my skin crawl

"dont call me that" i say in between clenched teeth.

"why not, you said you loved me" jack says and he puts his arm on my waist

"i dont love you" i say and i try to move his hand, he doesnt move

"jack stop!" i beg as he pulls me closer, he closes my locker and drags me

"You look hot in black"

"jack!" he puts his hand over my mouth i give up. how come no one is helping me! i see jack opening a closet and i freak out and hit his arms.

"you loved me kellin" i smell the alcohol on his breath

"i dont love you!" i state and he slaps me. i feel pain in my face.i close my eyes as I feel his hand move to my belt as he tries walking me into the closet but I hold onto the door frame.

"dont fucken touch him!" i hear justin say I open my eyes and i watch him kick jack in the balls and jack falls to the ground, justin closes the door thats opened behind me and takes me down the hall and into the bathroom

"are you okay?" he asks and i shake my head

"he was trying to put me into that closet" i say shakily

"get me our of here" i add

"i think he was trying to" i start but then i think about the feeling of jack's arm around my waist making me feel sick, the way he called me babe, the way he acted, that wasnt the jack i talked to a while ago, this is the jack i never believed he was I should've believed what everyone said, i feel myself go weak and i slide down the wall. i still feel his hands on my arm, i feel like throwing up.

"okay, we are getting you out, i cant believe jack would come to school drunk" justin says and he helps me up and walks me out.

"we need to get him out of this school" justin mutters and he walks me to the front door

"they are going to stop us" i state

"no, we have an excuse, wait here" justin says and he walks into the main office. i dont listen and i follow him in.

"i need to leave" justin says

"why is that mr.hills?" a teacher asks

"because my friened was almost fucken raped!" justin says and i kneel on the ground and i want to throw up then and there but i havent eaten anything.

"i told you to wait" justin says and he takes me out of the school

"that is what jack's plain was, wasnt it" i say in a whisper and i feel mentaly unable to think. i just want to crawl into a corner and put hand sanatizer all over my arms. this is sick. jack is sick. this is fucken disgusting.

"i need vic" i say and i pull out my phone

"are you seriously going to make him come back for an attempt?! when it really happens then you call" justin says

"what the fuck is wrong with you justin! are you drunk too?!" i yell

"im in love with you!" he yells back and i look at him wide eyed.

"leave me alone" i mumble and i run all the way back to my house.