"tonight" jack said with a smile then my attention was pulled away from him as the teacher annoyingly taps his desk.

"to be honest, spring break starts soon and i dont want to start anything new" he says and everyone sits up in their sleep, like they are waking up from the dead.

"talk amongest yourself" he adds and i turn to jack. he slowly turns to me, his smile still there, but brighter than before.

"so i dont think we've ever fully met, im jack, as you know, ah, i love video games, long walks to ice cream stores or carts or whatever, and i play guitar and skateboard" he says and i laugh a little

"im kellin, i like cake more than ice cream, ah i dont know if its called a ice cream store but okay, ah i have no talents and im not currently fond of singers so as long as you arent a singer i'll be fine" i joke and he laughs

"im not a very good singer so you have nothing to worry about, and im sure you have talent, you just got to find it"

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i walk into the lunch room and take a seat next to justin and alan smiles at me

"your back!" he says with a smile

"hows vi-" alan starts but gets cut off by justin hitting his side with his elbow

"oh im sorry, its true" alan adds

"dont be sorry, i ended it" i shurg

"hey kellin" jack says with a smile as he sits in between justin and i "hi guys" jack asks and everyone mumbles their 'hellos' 

"so tonight" jack says softly

"tonight" i say and he smiles

"i was thinking, we could go eat ice ceam and cupcakes because it seems like somthing we would both like" jack says and i smile

"that sounds really good to me"

"i knew it would" he says with a smirk

i look over at justin who gives me a disaproving look before turning away.

*back to now*

Jack took me out for ice cream on the day i first got back to school and then we also went for cupcakes, we told jokes, laughed, smiled, he made me forget about vic, i then went home and insted of sleeping in my car to avoid the memories in my room, i actully slept in my bed, oliver left a note for me in the kitchen saying he was going to florida to hang out with the a day to remember guys, and he also said he would get me some merch with autographs. im still waiting for those. the next day at school andy came up to me and asked me to hang out, i had movie plans with matty so i refused, matty and i went to his place and watched a day to remember concert videos, that counts as a movie. then a few days later i ate lunch with andy and ashley and we talked about their relationship then my old one with vic. then jack and i spent every other day together after school, alan told me he thinks im only with jack because i miss vic, but that is clearly not the case. 

we leave target and get into jack's car and he starts it

"was it weird seeing vic again?" jack asks breaking the silence

"no"

"should i be scared of him taking you away?"

"dont be, i really like you jack, you know that"

"thats a relief i thought you would've gotten tired of me"

"you are the funniest person i've met, how would i get tired of that?"

"alex did" he whispers.

if jack is my 'rebound' then am i his? my phone rings taking my thoughts out of my head, and i answer my phone

"hello?"

"aye kellin its matty, i heard you are going to cali and i was wondering if you needed a place to stay?"

"ya that would be awesome, are you sure?"

"ya, i have a house here so bring anyone, and by anyone i mean one person because its not too big of a house" matty laughs

"text me the directions and i'll let jack know, thanks matty" i say before hanging up

"so matty has a place we can stay" i say and i see jack smile

"thats awesome, and kellin dont take what i said in any way, you are all i need, and if i wasnt driving right now i would wrap my arms around you"

i feel my cheeks heat up.

"wake me up when we get there" i say and i face the window.

"i love you" i hear jack say when he thinks im asleep, i dont make a sound or even move, heres the thing, i feel for jack but saying 'i love you' isnt somthing i really am ready to do again.

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"kellin we are here!" jack beems as my eyes flutter open and the bright california sun is down on me, i rub my eyes and open the door.

"so this is matty's place, that ginger hides things, sweet things" jack says and i raise an eyebrow at him

"sweet things? really jack" i say as i walk up to the front door, i knock on it and then im face to face with matty, he smiles at me.

"your here!" he says, and i hear foot steps behind me, i turn and i see jack holding the bags.

"babe a little help" jack whines and i help him and we walk inside.

"upstairs first door on the left will be yours" matty says

"thanks matty" i say and he smiles

"no problem,make yourselves at home" matty says and jack and i go up the stairs and put our stuff inside the room.

"im going to take a nap" jack says as he yawns

i watch as jack gets into the bed and falls asleep and i make my way down the stairs

"hey, wheres the best place to eat pizza?" i ask and matty turns around

"i can take you" he says grabbing his keys

"jack coming with?" he adds

"no hes sleeping" i say and i follow matty out the door and into his car

"this is the best pizza place in san diego, i promise you, as the pizza lover you are, you wont be disapointed"

"im looking forward to it" i say and then before i know it he parks the car and we get out

"so you and jack" he says

"we are okay, i mean, he told me he loved me when he thought i was asleep, but i dont" i start but then stop myself

"you dont love him" matty says like it was a obvious thing

"you still love" matty says then he opens the door and i walk in, i see fimilure mexicans at a table in the corner

"vic" i say and my eyes go wide

"exactly" matty says and i turn around to face him

"no, matty, its vic" i say and matty smiles

"it is isnt it, sit at that table, i'll get our food" he says and he points to a table, i slowly make my way and sit down, i hear laughing from the table in the back, where jaime,tony,vic and mike are sitting. i start feeling very weird. im not sure if this is the feeling of regret, sadness, fear, worry, matty sits down with our food.

"you okay? your pale" matty says

"ya, i dont know its just" i say then i turn around and look at the pierce the veil table. my eyes meet vic's and he looks at me confused and shocked.

"shit" i mutter and i watch vic get up from his table and walk over, i turn around even though its too late to say i didnt see him.

"kellin, hey, i didnt expect to see you here" he says as he leans down and puts his hands on the table

"same to you" i say softly

"i live here,kellin i thought you did your research" he says with a little laugh

"google doesnt have all the answers" i say and matty laughs

"wrong, i think you might've used some other search site" matty says and i roll my eyes at him and he gives me a look that says 'sorry' but he really didnt need to

"i missed you" vic whispers and i feel tears start forming, i bite my lip.

"you too" i say softly

"i should let you eat,i lost your number, could i have it again?" vic asks and i feel like everything is spinning.

"i'll write it down for you,here you go" matty says passing vic a napkin

"thanks" vic says and he patts my shoulder before walking back to his table.

i watch as pierce the veil leave, not even noticing me, vic doesnt even look back at me.

"you should eat kellin" matty says

"im not hungry"

"kellin, you were the one that wanted to eat, you are scaring me, is this because of vic? kellin talk to me"

"i think im still in love with vic"

i watch matty just start eating his pizza not even saying a word, i give him a confused look.

"and what are you going to do?"

"try not to love him"

"you cant just pick who to love and who not to love, if you really love someone and they still like you back, give it as many chances till it works out, love doesnt just come and go, if love stays, its real and you shouldnt let it go"

"but jack"

"im sure he wouldnt mind the fact you are in love with someone else"

"thats a lie"

"it is"

"i do like jack though"

"love is way better than that"

i start slowly eating my pizza trying to forget everything.

after we finish and walk out, and get into his car.

"you dont need to leave jack" matty says breaking the silence as he parks the car at his house.

"im not going to leave him" i say as i take off my seatbelt and get out the car, i rush inside and open the door to 'my room' and i get into bed and pull jack into a hug, he slowly hugs me back.

"whats gotten into you?" he asks as he kisses my cheek

just doubts about us, and finally admiting i still love vic, nothing much.

"i love you too" i say then i feel like hitting my head against the wall what did i just start.