*Kellin Pov*

i wake up feeling all warm and gross, sweat going down my face, my body trembling. my cheeks still wet from all of my crying before i fell asleep, yesterday i was all with the act of being oliver's boy friend i slowly started forgetting about my real one, i felt like oliver was vic, i looked at oliver i only saw vic. we went to my house, alan, austin, oliver and i, they all left to go to the bar at like 11, and thats when i cried mysefl to sleep, i havent heard from vic all day, i knew he was busy but i know for sure he isnt that busy, he had time to call me, but instead didnt. i had a dream where vic broke up with me, it was the most horrible thing ever, the look of hurt all over his face, how my dream self just let him go, like i didnt care.

i roll over and look at my phone because my alarm is still broken on the floor, 1AM, i'm not sure if oliver is here or not, i get up and make my way to the door, i walk down the hall then i stop when i hear talking.

"he hasnt even called" oliver states

"should we try calling him?" i hear alan ask

i stand still,not being seen, i look over and see them pacing around the room, i quickly move back so they wont see me.

"its 1 in the morning, he would most definally attack us, tour life is hard" oliver says

"i feel like im going behind austin's back, hes all like 'vic is fine' 'vic isnt doing anything wrong' but yet, vic is, why isnt he calling kellin goodnight, hasnt it been a whole day, almost two, what if today is one more day where he doesnt call" alan says and i feel a tear go down my face.

"what if he is only using kellin for one night stands" oliver says

"well, you are his friend, would he use kellin?" alan asks and with that i make my way quickly back into my room, not really wanting to know the answer. tomorrow is only the middle of the week,i have school, im not going to do anything i'll regret tomorrow.

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i didnt sleep at all last night. what if vic did only use me. i shift and i land with a thud on the floor,i wince in pain, and i hear someone run in.

"kellin! are you alright?" oliver asks in panic as he helps me up.

"ya im fine" i mutter as i go into my closet and pick out a red shirt and black jeans.

"have fun at school today" he says with a smile i roll my eyes at him

"school, and fun, you have to be kidding" i say as i take off my shirt and put on my red one.

"well look at it this way, they wont bother you anymore" oliver says

"thanks for that" i say with a small smile.

"its what friends do, i'll be here when you get back" he says as he leaves my room and i change and get ready for today. i grab my backpack and i go to the front door, i look at the counter in the kitchen and i see my keys, i debate on wether to pick it up or not, and it looks like oliver read my mind, i watch as he picks up my keys.

"catch" he says and he passes me my keys and i catch them perfectly.

"thanks" i say with a smile and i walk outside, i take a deep breath and i click a button on my car so it unlocks, i havent touched my car in forever.

"aye quinn!" justin says as he hops into my car before i even opened my own door, he closes his and i laugh before opening my door and sitting in the drivers seat, i close the door as i throw my backpack in the backseat and i put my keys in the car and start it.

"never thought i would see you drive a car again, what have you used this once?" justin says with a smile and i start driving out of my house and down the road.

"a few times" i say

"once" justin snickers

"fine, once, but this makes two" i say

"alan's not going to school today" justin randomly blirts out

"alcohol poisoning?" i question, i mean he was gone all night and they said they went to the bar.

"no, he didnt drink, he doesnt drink, you know that, i think austin is taking him on a romantic road trip" justin says

"oh" i say as i park the car at school.

i grab my bag and get out of the car, i look at my car.

"dont worry about it, it'll be fine, if not, you have people who will deal with it" justin says as he puts a reassuring hand on my shoulder.

"wait who are the people i have?" i ask as i lock the car and we start walking into the school.

"oliver, vic" he whispers vic's name. we walk into the school, and for once, i see people smiling at me.

"good morning kellin" christian coma says as he passes me in the hallway

"morning?" i say and it comes out in more of a question, he just smiles as he keeps walking.

"aye kellin, i like your shirt" matty says as he passes me.

"thank you" i say with a slight smile.

"kellin, your hair looks good today" taylor says as she starts walking in sync with me,

"are you saying it isnt always good?" i ask trying to pretend being hurt.

"kell, it always looks perfect" she says.

"good morning justin" justin says

"good morning" justin adds and i look over at him and give him a weird look.

"what, no one has been nice to me this morning" he says with a shrug as we go into our first class, taylor leaving to go into another room. no one bothers me the whole class, no one calling me fag, no one throwing stuff at me. the bell rings and justin leaves me in the hallway as i go to my next class, its going to feel so empty without alan here, what if the leather jacket boys turn mean because my british fake boy friend isnt here to help my ass. i watch the door and wait for them to walk in. ashley looks over to me and smiles, he sits next to me, surprising me a little.

"we really are sorry, we are okay right?" ashley asks and i smile

"yeah of course" i say and then andy sits on the other side of him.

"you can sit with us at lunch if you want" andy says

" i might just take you up on that offer, if justin and taylor can come" i say

"of course" ashley says with a smile then class starts.

--- skip to lunch--

the rest of my morning went by fast, no one hurting me or making me upset in anyway, oliver really did help me, even though what he said wasnt at all true that we are dating, and the kiss meant..nothing, it meant nothing. my phone rings before i can go to the table and i take it out of my pocket, i look at the caller ID surprised to see its vic, i rush outside of the cafeteria and into the courtyard, to my surprise its completely empty. answer the call.

"vic" i say

"why would you?!" he asks clearly crying

"why would i, what?" i ask confused

"dont play dumb with me!" he shouts into the phone

"im not, vic whats going on?" i ask

"you! and oliver! thats whats going on!"

"we are just friends"

"sure, you are cheating on me"

"i am not! vic, why would you think that?"

"i saw the kiss, on a video, everyone thinks you guys are dating, wait, no, they know you guys are together, why would you do this?!" he asks

"vic he was just" i start to be cut off by vic

"he just was attacking your lips while you seemed to enjoy it!"

"vic no!" tears start going down my face

"are you guys sleeping together?" he asks

"vic! im not sleeping with anyone, you were my first and only!"

"dont lie to me!" he says harshly

"what, you think i had a one night stand with oliver?! why? because thats all i am to you? maybe oliver is right, to you im a one night stand every other night!" i yell at him before hanging up, the tears coming down faster and faster. am i really only a one night stand? is that all vic wants me for? but he told me he loved me.was that all a lie. he seemed so nervous when he said it, maybe he is a better actor than i thought. are we, over?