*a/n dont watch the video till the end of this chapter, i bet you've already seen it though, that doesnt matter, it just goes with the end of the chapter, enjoy :) *

*Vic pov*

"Vic you didn't tell me Oliver had a boyfriend!" mike yells from the couch in our bus, I make my way over to him and sit next to him.

"I didn't know" I say softly

"Well there's a video of them,its new,want to see?" mike asks

"Sure"

Mike makes it full screen and hits play, i watch as the scene unfolds, the camera shaky i can tell this is a phone camera, the person moves closer to the scene and zooms in on two boys, one of them clearly oliver, the other one..kellin, sitting next to eachother,talking, i watch as oliver leans into kellin's ear whispering something maybe, then i watch him lean back, after a few seconds of them just talking, then i hear someone say "aren't you guys going to kiss? you've been around each other all day and nothing's happened?!" and my heart gets tighter, i feel loss of air as i watch kellin and oliver leaning closer, and closer, i watch as they start kissing,it gets more and more intense. i feel tears trying to escape, then i watch jaime walk in and i look up from the computer.

"hey jaime! oliver has a boyfriend! you got to see the video!" mike says exciting me and jaime sits on the other side of him.

"w-we dont need to watch it again" i croke out

"but jaime hasnt seen it!" mike states and he clicks replay and i watch jaime for a reaction.

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"oliver's boyfriend seems like a good kisser" mike says after we watched the video for the second time

"just ask vic, im sure he knows" jaime says and mike looks at me confused.

"thats not olivers boyfriend" i say softly, tears coming down my face, i take a deep breath

"hes mine...that's kellin" i add shakily and now i cant hold the tears, they come down and noone bothers to say a word to me, the only sounds we can hear is me crying.

"whats up with the crying party?" tony asks as he opens the door and walks in.

"shut up tony" mike says and tony looks up at me.

"im sorry, by party i meant just vic" tony says

ya thats me, party of one. im having the best time of my life, crying endless rivers, might as well bottle up my tears and sell them. want one? it will be a million dollars because im a fucken star.

"now will you excuse me" i say getting up

"sit your ass down" mike says pulling me back down

"what happened to, being my nice little brother" i say softly

"vic, i know where you are going to go, i know what you are going to do, you'll be me without the weed, we have a show, get your act together, act normal for an hour, then we get off and you can get stoned with me, how does that sound" mike says and i shut up completely, i dont know if mike meant that as an insult or a fact. i wouldnt mind if it was a fact, i might take him up on that later.

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i look at oliver, him smiling at me, guilt goes over me, i feel like im going to puke. i look around, everyone looks away but i know they we're looking. i wait a few minutes.

"im going to go,i'll be back" i say and i walk out slowly, i walk into the bathroom and i go into a stall, i lock the door behind me and i let my head hit the stall wall. i start crying slowly, i just betrayed vic, i mean theres no way he will know but this is going to eat me alive. i've been a huge fan of oliver since forever, i've always dreamed of this, i always wanted to be a muse to oliver, i always wanted him, to want me. i wanted that until the moment i realized noone really wanted me, then i dreaded the thought, what made them go away completely was when i met vic, we went into a stall, a little smaller than this one and little did i know he was a singer and little did i know, i would after a few days fall in love with him and have him love me, thats when the name 'oliver sykes' slipped my mind, only to come back. i hit my head repeatedly on the stall wall hoping this is all a twisted messed up dream. i breath in and out then i walk out, i look in the mirror and all i see is vic's reflection. from the first day we met and i dragged him into the bathroom. i smile at the memory. if only vic would jump out of the mirror and smile at me in person the way i remember him smiling at himself in the mirror.

i walk back out of the bathroom and back into the crowded cafeteria. i put on a smile as i sit down next to oliver.

"babe i was just telling them how we met, at that party vic hosted, i hope you dont mind i told them you knew vic" oliver says looking at jack barakat, andy and ashley then back to me, i search all around me to try to see alan, justin and taylor but they seem to have walked away from me.

"i dont mind" i say softly

"i should really call and thank vic for making us meet" i add

"i already did love, rememeber, how silly of you" oliver says

"ya of course" i say my smile going away. "silly me" i say softly

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*nobody Pov*

"excuse me, excuse me, lead singer speaking" vic says in his stoned state, he laughs it off afterwords then continues trying to seem normal in the interview, the thought of his job hitting him in the face, his real self trying to move away how bad he currenlty feels, how does he feel? he feels like knifes were stabbed into his hear and like hes choking on smoke.

about two hours ago the show just ended and he walked into, mike's 'stone' session, mike hasnt gotten stoned in forever, and he still isnt realy stoned right now, unlike vic, hes used to this. mike walked out leaving vic with the stuff vic never thought he needed and vic used them, and now theres no turning back. his head pounding, his heart breaking, and now hes back at his job to do a 12 minute interview he thought would never end.

"well any closing thoughts" the interviewer asks and vic opens his mouth first he could say anything right now, he could tell his fans thank you, or just the simple 'i love you guys' but he ends up saying,

"Boom shock a lock a" and the interview ends, victor is clueless on how hes making himself seem, and for the conclusion, hes not okay, and maybe he never will be.

---*A/N: i took two of the things vic said from an interview were he does seem a bit off, the interview is from 2011, which is from around where this story takes place. link to the interview is on the side if you want to see it, it is a 12 minute interview*----