"Ma'am, we're here to collect the fish tank as the renovator has instructed. May we come in?"

I glanced at the tank in the living room. Chae's fishes, Joohwang and Eunbyul swam around each other happily, as the workers carried the tank with caution. Hank, Chae's dog had already been taken when she left, which reminded me that if he had been here, Kai would've got company. I walked up to Lisa's room and spotted Love cuddling with her underneath the sheets. Lisa looked up the same way the feline looked at me, with the same pair of curious, confused eyes. Lisa smiled, hugged Love, and said:

"I missed Rosie so much, and felt like I'd cry unnie, so I replaced Love with what Rosie would do. It isn't the same as before, but life goes on and so should we."

I felt my eyes get watery and wiped them off. Lisa smiled weakly, and sobbed silently into Love's fur, as she began licking Lisa as a condolement.

"Excuse me ma'am?" the worker stood hesitatingly on the doorstep. The fish tank was gone, those two lovely fishes that I loved feeding.

"My daughter is a big fan of yours, she has your posters all up in her room, can I get an autograph, please? We barely make ends meet, and this would mean a lot more to her than her favorite candy..."

The man's voice trailed off. I stood at him in a totally dumbstruck manner, as words failed me. People love me, it seems. But do they love me for being an artist or being myself? Questions unwrapped themselves inside me as I suddenly felt like Jennie and Chae were manipulating me. The room felt lively and I could feel the presence of the New Zealanders, which made me shiver in the month of July.

My hands failed me too. I couldn't move my fingers past the word 'J'. Jisoo of what? BLACKPINK? What is it, a group? Are we still considered one?