i know that it hurts you now, and that it will probably hurt you for a long time to come.

but really, what did you lose?

did you lose your mind? did you lose your feeling? did you lose your self-respect?

you are in pain. you have created this pain for yourself. you have regrets. you can see that things are not in your control for the first time. that is an important lesson to learn. because even in the chaos you will find some light. 

you made a mistake. mistakes are natural and inevitable. did you have free-will, or was this just another timeline predestined by the stars?

and what did you lose?

did you lose yourself? surely not. and that is all that matters.